PAY MORE ATTENTION is how you started to find ANSWERS

sounds very basic, very simple, but simple things are usually complex, so what to pay more attention to? i've been using this term a lot, every time people asked me what i'm writing about, the answer has always been:

EVERYTHING AND NOTHING

pay attention to everything and to nothing, like this you might as well question to what is this woman talking about, writing about? yep, exactly

everything: look closely to the details, to small things, see things beyond what it is reveals to you, or trying to tells you something, something you have been looking for, quietly asking for, it's (almost) always will tell you something, as if when you suddenly want to take different route on the way home or on the way to your favorite coffee shop, and you find something along the way, it shows you something on the way, or when sudden turn you lead you to something you have been looking for, is that quiet voice within us constantly speaks to us, leading us, like guide, our compass, listen, don't ignore it.

nothing: to what's nothing that could actually means it isn't empty, it might just means "nothing" you couldn't fully grasp it, could possibly an even, an acceptance to a boredom, mundane moments, "nothing special", nothing. drinking morning coffee is nothing, and it's everything in the nothingness. i certainly made this up, cos what certain? i'm trying to grasp to this nothingness i'm writing like it's everything that wants to come through me, but it's nothing.

i popped back last night from a seated in solid spine in between meditation: i was sure there's three mantras on the queue i want to meditate to, faded from the first one, next one supposed to come "om mani peme hum" , picture this:

i had a cup of butterfly-pea tea, so blueeeeeee, gosh, beautifully blue, ready to sip right through. so then i picked up the my cup about to savor the first sip...

in my ears sounds far away like it's in the hallway:
the boy was in the hallway drinking a glass of tea
from the other end of the hallways a rhythm was generating
another boy was sliding up the hallway
he merged perfectly, the mirror in the hallway

MY EYES WIDE OPEN AS I SIP MY TEA... AND WHAT THE FUCK!!!
i picked up my phone and looked at the playlist, it was in smart shuffle mode, okay BUT WHAT THE FUCK, GOD.

okay,
so then i listen the whole 9:28 minutes:
"Land: Horses / Land of a Thousand Dances / La Mer(de)"

to what i need to pay more attention too?
to the fact that this song play in my ears, and to what it is trying to reveals, i was so
...WHAT THE FCK GUYS, THIS IS NOW IN MY EARS AGAIN, LITERALLY NOW, PLAYING, NOW, WHAT THE FUCK, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, SUDDENLY.

i'm gonna close this no(thing)ness right here,

but it just reveals:

up there, there's a sea, no sea
but up there, there's the sea
up there is just a sea of possibilities

OKAY, SERIOUSLY THO, THIS IS SONG LITERALLY JUST PLUGGED THIS WHOLE "PAY MORE ATTENTION" for HIGHER AWARENESS AND ANSWER

i just paused before hit publish:

caught the "pituitary glands" almost at the end on the song, it's exactly explain the "third eye" card deck and butterfly-pea tea, it's a PEA-SIZED endocrine.

[common you couldn't tell me that i made this shit up]

if you survived, reading through all this:

go, listen "Land: Horses / Land of a Thousand Dances / La Mer(de)"