My New Normal Chapter 9

Lynn and Amy waited with us outside as we waited for them to call us into the conference room. The anticipation was killing me. My mom acted calm and cool, but I could sense she was nervous as well. We jumped through a lot of hoops to get this far.

If I get approved, I could start my hormone therapy today! If not I'd have to wait until I was sixteen for hormones and 18 for surgery. All I want is to be like the other girls. To me being a boy sucked! I never fit in with them before; there was no chance of my ever fitting in with other boys my age. I had nothing in common with them, except this ugly thing between my legs!

I could swear my breasts were a little puffy, I didn't say anything to anyone because I was a little embarrassed about it. I actually loved the idea of having breasts. Amy was developing breasts, and I was so jealous!

Amy also had a few boys who were very interested in her. It was hard for me to believe it, but I was jealous of that as well. Tammy was acting girlier every day. I just wanted to fit in for real, be a real girl with my friends.

We arrived at the scheduled time of 2 pm. It was almost 3 pm when they opened the door.

Rachel and Donna Sinclair, we're ready for you! Dr. Chandler said.

He waved for us to sit at the end of the large conference table. My mom and Amy held my hands. I was about to learn my fate. My heart was beating so hard I could feel it. My palms were sweating. My breathing was shallow. It took everything I had to stay still and quiet. I tried to read the faces of 20-plus people at the table. I wasn't able to read a thing!

Rachel, Donna, this is a decision we take extremely seriously! This decision is a choice you can only make once! There is no going back ever! Are you certain this is what you want? I mean, do you really need this? Are you absolutely certain, Donna? Doctor Chandler said. There's nothing wrong with waiting a couple of years

Doctors! I'm very certain! I said. I've been dreaming about this for almost 4 years straight. I've been living as a girl for going on 3 years. I realize I'm young. I've been happier, healthier, and more active than I was living as a boy. Truth is I never fit in with boys my age!

No one talked me into this, no one manipulated me. This is my request, my decision. My mother and my closest friend support my decision. I'm asking for everyone here to help me become on the outside, so I can be a whole person. I said.

Well put young lady! One of the female doctors said.

Mrs Sinclair, would you like to add anything?

As a boy, my child was never as happy as he was the first time he wore satin and nylons for a school play in third grade. When my husband died, he retreated to his room, isolating himself from the world, wearing nylons under his clothes.

As a last desperate act, I decided to dress him as a girl. He resisted at first. But two weeks into dressing as a girl, he became happier, more active, and social. He made a good friend with Amy and me with her mother. Soon after my son became my daughter.

We started therapy together to increase our communication and trust with one another. As time went along, Donna became more and more feminine. She takes ballet, tap dancing, and tennis lessons. She is an excellent student and made friends with the boy who bullied her in her previous school.

Donna has worked very hard to improve herself. I've supported my daughter throughout the entire time! I've never had any discipline issues with her. No trouble in school. When I sent out birthday invitations, everyone showed up!

My Donna is a model daughter! This request is her idea, and I support her 100%! My mom said.

May I say something? Amy stood up.

Please, young lady! Doctor Chandler said.

I've been Donna's best friend for over 3 years! She is like a sister to me. She was honest with me almost from the beginning. She is as much of a girl as I am! She just wants to develop into a woman like me.

She has the heart and soul of a girl. Our interest are the same as most girls. She might be a boy on the outside, but she is a girl at heart. She needs this! Amy said. Amy sat down.

I squeezed her hand softly as thanks. Our mother's both smiled at her. I hugged her!

Ladies can you give myself and our panel a few minutes please? Doctor Chandler asked.

We went back into the hallway and waited. My heart felt like it was going to explode! I wasn't sure about anything. All I knew was the longer I sat there waiting the more worried I became.

Every minute, felt like an hour! The anticipation was killing me. I wanted to complain about the wait, but I stayed quiet. I knew whatever I was going to say wouldn't come out correctly!

I looked at Amy. She smiled at me.

Thanks Amy! It was the only thing I said.

I got you, girlfriend! Amy said.

Doctor Chandler opened the door. We're ready! Are you? He waved us to our seats.

Donna Sinclair! He started to say.

We stood up as a group.

As I've said before, this isn't something I normally recommend or approve of as a mental health professional. I pride myself on always putting my patients first within the ethics of my profession. My colleagues and I have discussed your case thoroughly between your therapist and personal notes and the discussions we have had with your closest friends. We have made our decision.

You have been approved for prepubescent hormone replacement therapy. You will have a blood testing tomorrow morning and pick up your first prescriptions immediately after at our in-house pharmacy. You will continue to see Doctor Reid a minimum of every two weeks until your 18 th birthday at a minimum. This panel will monitor your progress through Dr. Reid.

When you are ready for your surgeries, have Dr Reid contact me, we will discuss your options at that time!

Thank you, Doctor! I said.

Thank you Doctor Chandler! My said.

We stayed quiet and calm as we got into the elevator. The four of us were alone Amy started squealing Congratulations!

I was jumping up and down with excitement.

Take it easy girls! Lynn said.

She's right, Donna! You have a long road ahead of you! Plus you can't eat anything until after your lab work tomorrow! So save your energy! Mom said.

We had dinner at the hotel that night. I had Ice water! I was bored and hungry, so I decided to go to bed early.

The next morning, we went back to the hospital, and I had my lab work done. They took more blood, urine, and a hair sample. We went to the pharmacy and I got three bottles of anti-drogyn and several boxes of medical patches.

Mom took me to the restroom and immediately had me take my first pill and apply my patch. I was getting excited. A year from now I would be developing like a girl. I wanted to be just like Amy! I couldn't wait! I wanted to look and feel as pretty as she is!

We went to the Hard Rock Cafe for an early dinner. I was so hungry, I ate a big burger and cheese sticks. I even got a chocolate malt.

Mom secured my patch with medical tape. Amy and I swam in the pool until we were exhausted. The next morning we flew home.

For the first week after I started the patch, I was sleeping a lot, I had to skip dance classes, and Friday afternoon Yoga with my mom. I made it to self-defense class with Liz but I wasn't 100%. My second week was better, but I was still a little fatigued. By the third week, I was starting to get my strength back.

The summer between 7th and 8th grade, I started developing. My breasts were itching like crazy. My nipples were very sensitive. I loved playing with them.

Tammy's mother loved how well I was developing. Tammy almost sounded jealous to me. Her mother, Courtney, started talking to my mother more and more. I caught enough pieces of their conversations to figure out what was going on.

During that very summer Amy and I started taking tennis lessons at the community college. I was still writing in my diary every day. Amy and I were as tight as ever. By 9th grade, I was developing very well. Amy and I were getting hit on by boys all the time.

When Homecoming approached, Amy and I double-dated with two boys, best friends. They played in the marching band. Amy's date, Tyler, played trumpet, and my date, Shane, played the Saxophone. We had a lot of fun. The boys were really nice to us, bringing us punch and dancing with us.

Tammy's date, Bryce was a baseball player. Tammy wasn't as comfortable as Amy and I were, but she managed okay.

When Comic-Con came up our freshman year, Amy went as Wonder Woman, and I went as Lady Deathstrike. Tammy went Lara Croft. Amy got third place in the costume contest. Tammy and I didn't place. We were okay with it.

During spring break that same school year, I noticed Tammy was wearing a patch similar to mine. I didn't say anything to her about it. I also noticed her breasts were beginning to develop. All Tammy and I wore were skirts and dresses.

Amy and I were having a great time in high school. Tammy was adjusting pretty well. By the time summer came, we were the three musketeers. We did almost everything together.

Amy slept over at my house the first weekend of summer vacation. I was changing into my nightie when Amy caught me naked. It wasn't the first time, but it's been a long time since she's seen my equipment.

Donna! OMG! It's so small! Amy exclaimed.

I know! Thank goodness, I don't hardly have a bulge anymore! I said with glee.

It looks like a second belly button Amy exclaimed.

My Mom heard us.

What's going on girls? My asked.

Look! Amy pointed at my equipment.

It's so tiny! Mom said.

I couldn't do anything except smile. My warm feeling was very warm.

Maybe we should call Dr.Chandler? I asked.

Are you asking for what I think you are asking for? Mom asked

Yes Mommy! I said playing the cutie card!

ADoyou want this? Mom asked with concern.

Yes Mommy! It doesn't work anymore anyway!

I'll call him on Monday, sweetheart! Mom said.

4 weeks later, with Doctor Reid's endorsement, I was back in Chicago. Lynn and Amy came with us. I was in surgery for 6 hours. My trachea was shaved, my nose was slightly reshaped and I had a vagina.

It took another 4 weeks to recover from my surgery. I spent a lot of time on Fortnite with my friends. I didn't have a birthday party that summer. I didn't really care, I got the best present ever, I was a whole person!

It took some time to get used to dilating twice a day. When I finally got to the number five dilator I was enjoying it! My warm feeling was always with me now. My happiness was almost unshakable!

We never said anything to Tammy. I didn't want to brag and I certainly didn't want to scare her. (Maybe I wanted to scare her a little bit). Tammy was starting to venture out on her own without us more and more.

By the time 10th grade started I was 100% recovered. Amy and I were tight as ever. I was finally able to go to gym class with the girls. My insecurities were almost non-existent.

Tammy was still wearing the patch. I was taking estrogen pills now. We still danced together, Amy became our lead ballerina. I was her understudy. In Tap class Amy was my understudy.

The spring of Tenth grade, Amy, Tammy and I made the Tennis team. Amy and I were paired as doubles partners. Tammy played singles. Tammy was really good! She was very athletic!

We made every dance that year except prom. We always had dates. Tammy was very popular with the boys. Amy and I had our fair share of dates with boys. Most of them wanted more than we were willing to do.

We couldn't say the same thing about Tammy. She never said anything to us. We heard rumors, but we never repeated them. We heard rumors about all the girls, Amy and I included. We figured it was all talk.

Tammy disappeared for 6 weeks after summer vacation started between 10th and 11th grade.

We didn't really miss her too much, Amy and I had 4 weeks of driver's education.

My Mom confirmed our suspension, Tammy went in for surgery like I had the year before.

We bumped into Tammy and Courtney at the mall. They were in Victoria's Secret buying new bras and lingerie. We almost didn't recognize her at first. Her face was feminized, she had bigger breasts than Amy and I had.

She was dressed in a pink spandex mini skirt and yellow half tank top. Her bellybutton was pierced and she had Helix piercings in each ear. She was 16 years old and looked like she was 20 years old!

Amy and I were studying her new look. She was beautiful. Her hair was pulled behind her ears with pink bow barettes. Her honey brown hair was colored with red and blonde highlights.

Hi girls! Courtney said.

Tammy? I said with amazement.

HI girls! Tammy said with a very feminine sounding voice.

You look amazing! I said.

I had some work done over the summer! Tammy said with a smile.

I'll say! Amy exclaimed. You look incredible!

I was finally ready by the end of the school year, Donna was so happy all year. I realized I wanted to be happy too! Besides there was no point trying to pretend I was ever going back. I didn't want to go back, I'm much happier now!

Let's get together this weekend, I would love to have you girls over for the weekend! Tammy said.

Mom? Amy and I asked in unison.

Sure! Mom said.

Fine by me! Lynn said.

Bring a bikini! We have a pool! Tammy said.

Friday afternoon okay? Courtney asked.

Perfect! Mom said.

About 3! Courtney said.

Sounds great! Lynn said.

Bye girls! See you Friday! Tammy said with music in her voice.

Bye-bye! We said.

OMG! Amy said. She looks like model!

Did you see her belly button? I asked.

I did, did you see her ears? I'm jealous! I said.

Mom, can I get pierced like Tammy? I asked.

Me too please? Amy asked.

Our mothers looked at each other and rolled their eyes.

Come on! Lynn said.

An hour later we had cubic Zirconia Helix piercings and our belly buttons pierced with stainless steel curved barbells with a cubic Zirconia stone at the bottom.

We went bikini shopping next.

Amy got black French cut string bikini with pink trim. I found a Blue French cut bikini similar to Mystique blue with black strings. Our mom's bought us new beach bags to closely match and new wedge sandals.

Lynn and Amy spent the night at our house. The next day they took us to the salon. We had our nails done and highlights put in our hair. We talked about Tammy and her new look and attitude. Neither Amy or I could believe it!

Friday afternoon Courtney picked us up. The three of us were giggling all the way to Tammy's house.

Tammy's house was twice the size of our house. It was beautiful 4 bedrooms upstairs, 3 bathrooms and huge in-ground pool and whirlpool!

Why don't you girls put on your suits and I'll make some Lemonade. Courtney said.

Thanks Mom! Tammy said.

We raced upstairs and changed together.

Tammy's room was painted bright yellow with white trim. She had furniture similar to mine only nicer and a bit more fancy than mine. Her queen sized Canopy bed looked like it was fashioned for a princess! She had walk-in closet and multiple mirrors everywhere.

We were all naked together for the first time as we started changing. We all looked the same now except Tammy was a full and very firm C-cup! Amy and I were very jealous of her figure!

Your body is beautiful! I said.

Very sexy! Amy said with approval. I'm jealous!

So am I! I said.

You girls are just pretty! Tammy said. I love your new jewelry!

You're a trend setter! I said.

Thank you! She said.

We put on our bikinis and went downstairs.

You girls are so cute together! I have to get a picture! Courtney said.

Courtney took at least a dozen pictures. She sent them to our mothers.

We splashed around in pool for a while and then laid out in sun for a few minutes. We chatted about her surgery experience and mine. We chatted about the boys at school. We were giggling and laughing the afternoon way.

Tammy's brother walked out to the pool. He was big and muscular. He played college football and baseball. He was very handsome, like a young Mel Gibson.

Hey bro! Tammy said as she hugged him! Are you home for the weekend?

No, sorry sweetie! I just needed to pick up some laundry! I've got football practice!

These are my friends! This is Amy and Donna we dance together and play tennis in school!

Nice to meet you girls! I'm sorry I can't stay, I have a date tonight! Nice meeting you! He said with a beautiful smile.

I take it, you two are talking again? I asked.

I took your advice! Tammy said. It took a while but I think he enjoys having a little sister more than a little bratty brother.

He's very handsome! Amy said.

He's huge! I said.

He's still my idol! I want to be the female version of him! He's one of only five players on football team with straight A's! He wants to be an Orthodontist! Tammy explained.

You want to be an Orthodontist? I asked.

No I'm thinking about being hospital Administrator! They get paid very well and they don't have to deal with the blood!

We all giggled!

Courtney ordered pizza for dinner. The four of us ate and chatted for a while. Tammy's Dad was out of town on business. We stayed up late playing Fortnite together. All three of us slept in Tammy's bed.

I got up in the middle of the night to pee. I was dilating and forgot to lock the door. I was right in the middle of my dilation when Tammy walked in. I was surprised when I saw her standing there watching me.

I blushed instantly!

I'm sorry! I didn't mean to interrupt you! Tammy said.

Great minds think alike, I missed my dilation too! Tammy said.

I love dilating! Don't you? Tammy asked.

I do! Sometimes too much I think! I said.

You are so pretty Donna! Tammy said.

She leaned in on me. I kissed her. Soon we were French kissing. I couldn't help myself. We kissed for several minutes. We finally stopped she smiled at me.

I should thank you! I'm much happier as girl. I thought it was the end of the world being petticoated. But now I'm so much happier! My Mom and Dad are proud of me. My brother adores me as his little sister.

I'm not sure I had anything to do with you being a girl! I said.

My mom was inspired by your mom. My dad thought it would be a temporary punishment. But the longer my petticoating went on, the more it felt right. You were right about my mom and I getting closer, she's my best friend outside of you and Amy!

Thank you! I said.

We kissed again and I went back to sleep.

The next morning I felt the bed moving a little. Tammy was kissing Amy. I stayed still until they stopped. I wasn't jealous. Amy and I kissed a lot when we had sleepovers. It was fun!

After about ten minutes of waiting for them to cool down, I decided to shift my body. My friend's stopped kissing and Amy embraced me. First and we began kissing. Before I knew it the three of were kissing together. It felt magical.

We heard footsteps on staircase and stopped. We could smell breakfast in the air.

Courtney knocked on the door and opened it.

Girls! Breakfast is ready! Courtney announced.

Were coming, Mom!

Get your robes on! hurry, before it gets cold! Courtney said to smiling.

The way she looked at us made me feel like she knew what we were doing. I started blushing after she closed the door.

We're busted! I said.

I think so! Amy said.

Are sure? Tammy said nervously.

I'm betting on it by the way she looked at us.

Either way, don't say anything! Amy said. Besides we weren't really doing anything except kissing!

That's true! I said.

We better get get downstairs, fast! Tammy said.

We grabbed our robes and headed downstairs giggling.

Mom is that bacon? Tammy asked.

Yes, and pancakes! I hope you girls are hungry!

I'm starving! I said.

Thanks Mom! Tammy said.

Thanks Mrs Pippen! Amy said.

How did you girls sleep? Courtney asked.

Like a rock! I said.

I slept great! Amy said.

Would you girls like to play Tennis today? I was thinking the four of us could play doubles!

I love too! Amy said.

Me too! I said.

Great! Because we have a court time in an hour! Courtney said.

I put on. Yellow tank top with my white pleated tennis skirt.

Amy wore white tank top with Fuchsia pink pleated skirt

Tammy wore a white tennis dress.

Courtney wore purple tennis shorts and white tank top.

We went to the recreation center in their subdivision.

We played doubles for over two hours. All of us played partners with Courtney, she was as good as Charlene was. Everyone that played with Courtney won. We played singles against her. I was the closest to her in points in one match 40-30.

She was great to play against. She made all of us push ourselves to another level. We went to Applebee's for lunch afterwards. We had a great lunch. We spent the afternoon in the pool and hot tub after lunch.

After dinner the three of us binged watched Stranger Things and played Fortnite together. At 1:30 am we finally went to sleep.