Work Update!
Added 2019-05-27 12:09:41 +0000 UTCHowdy folks. I'd like to apologise again for being slow with the video releases lately.
The video I announced would be next has been mostly finished for a couple of weeks, but I'm still struggling with actually publishing things, it seems. Since I froze on that project I've been working on a response to a Steven Crowder video about the terms 'white nationalism' and 'white supremacy,' which will be going out later this week, barring any more freezes. It is mostly complete, and I'm feeling pretty confident about my ability to actually post that one.
My hope right now is that getting anything out there will help me move past this difficult spell. I'm planning to seek therapy for this problem if it persists, and if the worst case scenario happens and I feel like releasing anything is going to be impossible for me, I would put my account on hiatus so as not to charge people for work that wasn't coming to anything. I'm hoping things don't come to that, though.
In other news, I am still working my way through the reading relating to The Bell Curve. That is shaping up to be a very big project, which is exciting. Probably won't be out for quite a while, but in the meantime I have several mostly-complete projects waiting right there if I can get over my impostor-syndrome stressing & just post them. Grumble, etc
Thanks again for being patient, it means a lot. I'm doing my best to work through this and get back to normal
Comments
just became a Patron today because I didn't want to wait for your newest video and it's really interesting to get more of a 'behind the scenes' look here. and let me say this (and I'm sure it's been said before or at least shared by many others): I didn't start supporting you weighing the $5 against the amount of videos you'll have to churn out to satisfy me as consumer of your entergagement products. I like what you have to say and how you say it and want to enable you to make more of that. the last thing I'd want is for you to feel pressured because of me and others paying some money to you! maybe that's an advantage of BreadTube: your Patrons won't be all "lemme calculate an 'adequate' price for your product based on supply and demand"-Economy101-Bullshit. all the best for the therapy! =]
2019-06-16 14:08:54 +0000 UTCIf I could make content half the quality of what you make I'd be stoked out of my mind. You are more than good enough in every regard I can think of and I'd recommend your videos to anyone. Just became a patron; happy to support you! Please take the time you need.
2019-06-10 16:07:31 +0000 UTCI will also be perfectly happy to keep supporting you through a rough patch. If you feel you have to suspend your patreon, at leat open a go fund me or something. I don't subscribe for freebies and early access, I subscribe because I want to help support your work, and that includes the times between videos, regardless of how long.
Andrew L Butula
2019-06-07 21:00:51 +0000 UTCA lot of us struggle with that impostor syndrome my friend, there's no shame in it. I'd add my voice to the chorus saying that I have absolutely no issue continuing my support while you tend to your mental well-being.
2019-05-31 23:19:17 +0000 UTCAs other people have said, if you think it would help you to center your own needs, then totally pause your service, but if it’s out of concern that people are “wasting” money, we are all fully capable of pausing/canceling our memberships if we can’t afford it. You have legitimate health needs that you need to focus on, and that is okay. You have given us more transparency around what is going on than we are entitled to, and I appreciate your honesty. Take care of yourself. ❤️
2019-05-29 22:15:16 +0000 UTCPatron ≠ customer Only pause your account if you feel it would be productive in terms of getting unstuck. Don’t pause it out of obligation to us. Be well. Also, was that you as the Unreasonableist Bear or whatevs in Hbomberguy’s latest vid? If not, he did a killer impression of you doing an impression of a ”rational skeptic”.
2019-05-29 19:15:31 +0000 UTCI love you, you’re my favorite!!!!
Noisetank01
2019-05-29 19:13:31 +0000 UTC+1 chorus
unspun
2019-05-29 08:02:57 +0000 UTC^^this
unspun
2019-05-29 08:00:09 +0000 UTCI agree with everyone saying don’t pause during this. If people want to personally cancel their pledges until you’re publishing that’s their right, but a lot of us are totally willing to continue to support you if you need to take a break!
2019-05-28 21:58:02 +0000 UTCI would prefer it if you felt happy while doing this, so I hope you take your time and seek help if you feel like you need it. To me it doesn't matter much if you don't post, I just get a little worried. If you just keep updating us once in a while that's enough. <3
Luna Poplar
2019-05-28 20:45:02 +0000 UTCI am happy to carry on paying, take as much time as you need. I look forward to the Bell Curve piece, I fell out with someone over the whole Sam Harris/Charles Murray debacle, went deep down that rabbit hole reading about it, so many of Murray's defenders seem to flip the entire scientific method and ask his critics to prove the null hypothesis rather than the other way around, found the current affairs article 'why is charles murray so odious?' to be the best of the ones I read
Robindra
2019-05-28 14:04:07 +0000 UTCI'll just say I agree with what basically everyone is saying. You have our support through all this. As others have said, CBT can do wonders and I'd recommend it if you think therapy is a necessary next step. Wishing you the best 💚
2019-05-28 03:23:28 +0000 UTCThanks for the update! I recently froze on a circuits project where errors in my prior work would only be revealed upon completion of further even more error-sensitive and unfamiliar work - I have to prep myself for a somber, dutiful entry into what I know will be a slog of debugging. Feels bad, man; my goals are pretty specific and clear, but I imagine yours are frustratingly open-ended. I have only enjoyed all you've put out to date and rewatch your videos often; they are the first I share with friends.
Jonathan Becker
2019-05-28 01:13:53 +0000 UTCOof. Imposter syndrome & performance anxiety are absolute monsters. I think therapy is a wonderful idea. Im gunna second "cognitive behavioral therapy" - theres a great book and a decent podcast, both are called "Feeling Good" by David Burns. The most recent episode is on performance anxiety, if you wanna dip your toe in.
Kenna
2019-05-28 00:01:16 +0000 UTCPlease please take care of yourself. What you out out is important, but there is only one you. I am happy to continue sending my meager bit to help support because I have already gotten a lot out of what you have already done. There is only one you. Take care.
Jenlifer Fronester
2019-05-27 18:18:34 +0000 UTCSorry to hear that things have been rough for you. Take the time to look after yourself. ♥️
2019-05-27 17:55:07 +0000 UTCAdding my voice to the chorus of folks saying to take your time and take care of yourself. As others have said, we are not paying for content we’re paying to support you.
Reade Bramer
2019-05-27 17:30:34 +0000 UTCTake the time you need♡ i also don't think you have to suspend your account, but if that makes things worse with your impostor syndrome, then do what's best for you.
Rowan
2019-05-27 16:26:49 +0000 UTCI hope you get past this ❤ Also please don't suspend your account, I'm not supporting you in expectance of some form of capitalist productivity, but because I appreciate you and your work. So if you are having a rough time, I want to support you as much as I can through that time.
2019-05-27 16:01:26 +0000 UTCI'd like to add to those saying not to suspend your account if you don't feel like you can be productive, we want to support you and it's important to take care of yourself! If you do decide to look into therapy, I was struggling with productivity issues in grad school and found Cognitive Behavioral Therapy to be extremely helpful. CBT isn't a cure-all, but it really worked for me on getting back to a good work schedule, and I was able to get a 12 week course of CBT completely covered by NHS.
IrkinInvaderZak
2019-05-27 15:14:48 +0000 UTCI know it doesn't do much good, when it comes to impostor syndrome, to tell you I think your videos are worthwhile, etc., etc. (Obviously I think they are!) But I just wanted you to know your words aren't going out into a void. Real people are hearing and reading them. I'm making coffee on Memorial Day, morning, and trying to type quietly as my fiancee sleeps in the next room after working a 12-hour shift. I'll mow and grill later. I don't know if that helps but I just wanted to say it.
Paul Sheckarski
2019-05-27 15:11:05 +0000 UTCTake all the time, help and patreon money you need!
2019-05-27 14:14:20 +0000 UTCI'll add to the chorus of, we want to support you, not make a 1:1 exchange. I hope you feel better.
2019-05-27 13:55:16 +0000 UTCNo need to feel bad! We're here to support you. Therapy can be great, too, if you find a good doc. Deciding to seek help for my OCD/anxiety was one of the best decisions I ever made. ❤️
Gem Newman
2019-05-27 13:54:45 +0000 UTCI can't put it better than valentijn's comment above, so I just second all that. That's really it though, I don't see my Patreon donations as paid subscriptions for anyone I donate to, they're just a small way for me to show support. Take care and all the time you need ❤️
2019-05-27 13:48:17 +0000 UTCDon't worry man look after yourself.
Galdrack
2019-05-27 13:30:41 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself! I often wonder how YouTubers like you manage to put yourselves out there the way you do. I struggle with imposter syndrome as well, and my audience is only around 80 high school students. Take your time, but also don't second guess yourself. You put out some of the most consistently thoughtful and interesting content on YouTube as far as I'm concerned :) Thank you!
2019-05-27 13:24:24 +0000 UTC<3
Sloane
2019-05-27 13:18:26 +0000 UTCApology accepted! Take care of yourself, dude <3
Gary Marshall
2019-05-27 13:15:23 +0000 UTCLook after yourself first and foremost and take care
Samael
2019-05-27 13:11:30 +0000 UTCI would very much like to keep supporting you while you take care of yourself. You've been making content for me before I was paying so you have a few years head start. Take your time and please don't suspend your account. Again, we're here to support you. Not to buy content off you. Be well!
Valentijn van der Horst
2019-05-27 13:10:24 +0000 UTCTake as much time as you need.
2019-05-27 13:05:17 +0000 UTCAdd another tick to the "keep charging me" column. No need to add financial stress to things.
Ben Lindquist
2019-05-27 12:56:34 +0000 UTCTake your time if you need it. For what it's worth I'd be fine with continuing to support you over a hiatus as well.
2019-05-27 12:39:05 +0000 UTCDon't rush into if you need time and take care of yourself. :-) also I don't mind keeping my pledge going if it's helping you out. Gotten more than enough entertainment than what I've paid so far.
2019-05-27 12:36:55 +0000 UTCIts fine man. You'll get back on track. Just take it one step at a time.
Yoran
2019-05-27 12:28:53 +0000 UTCtake care of yourself. quality over quantity. good work takes time
vasileos efthymiadis
2019-05-27 12:18:45 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself first. We'll wait as long as needed for your new material
2019-05-27 12:16:49 +0000 UTCTherapy is never a bad idea
fohfuu
2019-05-27 12:15:41 +0000 UTChonestly, I don't mind being charged if this is a substantial portion of your income and you need some time. I enjoy your content, but not to your detriment.
2019-05-27 12:12:59 +0000 UTCTake care dude, your health is more important than our entertainment.
Jay Bob
2019-05-27 12:12:40 +0000 UTCTake it easy bud. We understand and support you okay?
Knife Crow
2019-05-27 12:12:20 +0000 UTC♥️♥️♥️
minohoonoo
2019-05-27 12:11:50 +0000 UTC