It’s been a night

Currently laying in bed at 11pm riding out the waves of pain in my mouth and strange electric shocks through the right side again but these pains are minimal compared to last week, before the tumor was removed. Still, yowza….. pain sucks.

The entire day was a pretty painful one including the intense body pain because the swelling in my face is compressing the Trigeminal nerves again. It’s a tiny hurdle in the long run and I’m paying attention to all the feelings and watching for signs of infection but things look good so I’m not going to spend energy worrying. Instead I will seek comfort and baby myself for the next few days.

I’m taking this time to think on my appreciation for the comforts i do have such as heavier pain meds should I need them and marijuana for the more bearable pain. Super thankful that I have water and heat in this winter cold and thankful that I’m gifted peace during this time as much of the world is praying for peace. I’m thankful that the pain is mostly at the surgical site still and there are no signs of infection or concern.

My body is missing movement but I’m trying to conserve energy so that I can heal faster. This means no movement or dance practice for me for a few more days. I’m mentally preparing for a show in Rincon PR Jan 13 at my friends bar “Estacion”. I will get to perform with some of my closest friends on the Island and that is always a celebration.

My lesson is that, rest is the most important part of healing today. My most important job today is to stay rested, fed (even just liquids) and comfortable.

My plan was to make a daily video of my progress and did that for day 1 and 2 post op but day 3 was too painful to talk so maybe day four I can talk again. It ain’t easy to shut me up, so I’m hopeful.

Sleep tight world. I love you.