Friday Night

Hi everyone! I figured it's been a while since I've done a journal update and now is a great time to touch base.

I apologize if my content has been "lacking" lately, I am going through a bit of a hard time coping through isolation and loss. I am doing my best to continue to meet my calorie goal and still update you guys almost daily. I have not made a new Snapchat for may yet, I am going to be setting that up this weekend and taking special requests on there once everyone adds me. I've been spending a lot more time in bed, it seems like sitting upright takes a toll on my back due to the new weight on my chest. I do better laying down, propped up on my side.

As far as gaining goes, I have never been so out of shape and sweaty in my life, and this sweat smells different. It's like the fatter I get, the more I smell musky, not too long after showering. I have been doing pickup for food, since I cannot breathe and walk in a mask. I struggle to get enough air in as it is, the one day I tried to shop at Walmart pushed me over the edge. I couldn't breathe and I had to leave my cart. I don't know if I'm growing at a noticeable pace this month, but I have been realizing a lot more stares and smirks from people as I'm waddling around anywhere. I am feeling some fat gains in less common areas like my upper arms, chest and lower back/ass. This fat feels especially soft and fleshy, maybe it's from all of my dairy consumption lately? I love it. 

I am home for tonight and catching up on requests as well as preparing to film tonight's gluttony. If you guys want to see anything specific, let me know. 

I have not yet replaced my scale which no longer works for me (400lb capacity) and am looking into a new one. I'd like to keep numerical track of my progress, but high capacity scales are costly and money is tight. I'd rather allot the money for food. If anyone knows of any reasonable options, please let me know and I'll start saving for one.