Hello!
Added 2021-08-04 03:40:29 +0000 UTCHow are you? I know I haven't posted or say anything in a long time. First, I wanted to say thanks for caring about my last post 💕, the things I shared with you, it was something deeply personal, but I felt that I could find a bit of comfort from this community I love so much. I wasn't wrong, and I will never be able to pay you for the support and Love and good energy I felt reading your messages. Sadly, my father died last month. It was one of the worst sensations I've felt ever in my life, my heart still hurts. I don't think it'll ever stop hurting? I suppose you just get used to it as time pass. It's weird to know that a person who was part of every single part of your life is not anymore, and there's no chance for him to come back? But hey, right now I'm in peace, I like to think he is in a better place now, that he doesn't feel pain or any kind or agony and maybe there is a change that his soul can visit me and my family, and we can feel his presence somehow.
Just because I think this part is important, thank you, thank you for being here, and thank you for reading this somber post and for being patient with me 🥰, I want to go back posting, and reading your comments about how you like (or don't) my stuff. I want to make polls and have a little of suffering with the things you choose, lol. So yeah, I'm going to try to post something in some days, I want to test some stuff I made before all this situation. Maybe I can learn how to make discord to share some unfinished stuff??? I've always wanted to do that, so I can share things faster, and you can help me to decide some things??
PS. I got my first dose of Covid vaccine some days ago! How about you? Did you get it? Or maybe you're fully vaccinated now, that's awesome!
PS 2. I'm sorry if it is confusing to read everything, what I'm trying to say is thank you for always supporting me and being here!
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Hello Quatanah, I'm glad you both are fully vaccinated now 🙏. And thank you for being considerate, sometimes I understand you would like to share your story, but it would make it harder for others to deal with their own stuff. I'm sorry about your loss, at least you're at peace knowing they're better now (that it's what's keeps me calm right now tbh) it must be really hard. Covid has been horrible.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-15 00:18:05 +0000 UTCHi, yes my husband and I got our final dose this month so we are fully vaccinated. I was hoping your dad would make it through. I didn't say it before because I wanted you to stay hopeful for his recovery. My Auntie (My Mom's identical twin) and my 99 year old Grandma; 3 days before her 100th birthday, died of Covid-19, this past May. My husband and I got Covid-19 (even while masked up) from when we took care of them at home when they first got sick. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I am also at peace. They are not suffering and they are together in death as they were in life. (They lived together downstairs from us) Stay strong.
Q
2021-08-12 21:42:41 +0000 UTCWell I hope my message did make you feel even a little better and I hope your mother does better in time. It's true, we all process our feelings differently and I don't think there's a right way. Sometimes what makes it hard to deal with other people's grief is we think we need to fix something and we don't. Your mom only needs you to love her, you don't have to fix anything. Just hold her hand and release your own feelings with regards to her. It's simply not your job. Loving and being present is. Have a good weekend.
Libby DVR
2021-08-07 04:45:58 +0000 UTCNo girl! I don't mind! I hope you dont go through what i went through.. I dont wish that on anyone. And good luck with your Discord! I hateit so much! LOL its a pain to navigate i think.. I am focusing on learning photoshop after our BIG move and then onto learning to mesh... I heard it was sooo hard! But i also want to learn how to render.. So lots of learning in the next month! But i wish you well.. and keep yourself busy.. it will help with the grief. If you ever need to talk.. feel free to message me on my tumblr or FB here... https://www.facebook.com/chandra.johnson.545 or here...https://www.tumblr.com/blog/xxxtigger Stay Strong!!!!
XXXTigger
2021-08-07 04:28:04 +0000 UTCI'm sorry for what I'm going to say, but I too hope my second dose is better than yours 😂 (OMG I'm so so so sorry hahaha). And yes! We have to say thanks to the modding community! They always came out with so many things I don't understand howwwwwwwwwww. I how I can share something finished as soon as possible! For now, I'm gonna focus on understanding discord and opening, how is called? A server I think 😂.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:52:31 +0000 UTCThank you so much, k. Having a positive support group around me has been the best thing for the grief (thinking like a psychologist student). And thank you, I hope you too have some really nice and bright days ❤️ and please, you too stay safe!
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:48:51 +0000 UTCThank you so much, Ari. I didn't want to make you all feel sad or something, but I wanted to be honest on how I wasn't posting as much. I love you guys so much and being back is making me feel much much better ❤️.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:46:02 +0000 UTCNicoleeee, thank you for your sweet message. It means a lot, you're right here using your time to write something. Thank you again ❤️.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:44:27 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your message, Rosanne! (TW: I found myself describing how I last saw my father, so if you feel like you are a little sensible, please skip next until the "spark" emoji .) You don't know how much I understand you. I visited my father almost every day until he died, and we had a close relationship, I think that's why I'm somehow calm right now (and my father when I last him alive, he was breathing so hard and I was so scared he was going to, like, get tired, it was the worst for me. And it was explained to us that he was like breathing like someone breathes after doing hard cardio. And knowing that he has to be like that every day, it hurts me so much. I wanted to be in that bed instead of him. ✨So yeah, knowing that he's not sick or suffering anymore, brings me peace. I hope he's ok. I really hope for so many things right now, but he being in a nice place right now is the only thing I ask for. Thank you again for sharing your family story with me Rosanne, it means so much. ps. Thank you for your prayers, I think all of them have reached me because I find myself in peace right now, soo thank you, I'm grateful ❤️.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:43:36 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your message and for caring about these things I post, Terri. I am so sorry about your loss too. It hurts me reading that he was the love of your life, and you weren't together. Timing is sometimes a horrible thing, right? Sometimes you forget about yourself in those times, but I'm so glad you have a little one that can help you to remind you need to be strong for you (specially) and for the people who love you. But anyway, are you drinking water? Taking meds if you need them? And having maybe some comfort thing that helps you get through it? It can be super silly, for me, it was playing Stardew Valley (a farming game). Hope you're good too, thank you again for saying that, tbh I needed to read that. ps. I'm glad you got, you're fully vaxxed! Now with the Covid delta it's even more important. I was kind of scared if you were vaccinated because people had strong opinions about it, but I really care about you and reading that some of you are fully vaccinated makes me feel a little calmer ❤️.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:31:13 +0000 UTCAngella, thank you for your message! Tbh what keeps me sane right now is knowing that I had a good relationship with my father. I mean, you're always asking for more time, but I got to experience so much with him? But, the thing it's that he was kind of sick, I don't know if is the right word because he had to take a ton of pills each day, and he couldn't eat things he wanted, and was diabetic and some other stuff, but he was strong, so you wouldn't see him like terribly sick just you know if you have to live in our house. So yeah, somehow right now maybe he doesn't have to take 3 million (like 20) pills each day and doesn't have to inject insulin, and he doesn't need to wake up early to take some things, and it's calming because I like to think he's in a better place right now. And it is not like I don't miss him, because I do, so much. I'm just hoping there is an afterlife where he can be happier right now. Anyway, sorry for writing too much, I also want to say I want to post because it helps me to think in another thing that is no dad because I can have peace right now because I kind of try rationalize things, so yeah. Thank you again all the love ❤️.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:23:33 +0000 UTCHello Libby, thank you so much for your message. Reading it, I realized I was lucky in some weird way, you're 100% right my father was loved, and I got to see it. Here in Colombia, when someone dies we send flowers to their houses (for me, it's a little silly to send flower to someone who is already dead, but who's gonna fight with traditions.) the living room of my house was full of flowers from people who cared about him, and for me, it wouldn't mean so much but, he really cared about people, and to be kind of recognized, so I suppose he must be a little happy that everything he did mean something, so yeah it was a little bit of happiness in all situation. But you know, I understand your situation I never met my grandfather, because, he left my grandmother, I never had feelings about him, never cared tbh because I have a good family, but my mother was always bitter, I understand that everyone process feelings differently, but it's weird to see that you are calm about the situation and it's so good because I wish my mother could, like, this kind of feelings too, because she is so revisiting those feelings about it even now. And for me is kind of a mini torture. Anyway, I'm sorry this is too long, I'm so grateful for your message, thank you for sharing it! Have a super nice weekend!
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-07 03:16:03 +0000 UTCI am sure whatever you come up with we will all love! And I DO hope for your sake the second shot is not as bad as mine.. I was in sooo much pain for two weeks! Let me know once you get it.. how it goes. Give it 24 hours after the shot though caiuse that is when mine started. And yes, when I create it gives me such pleasure. Creating in the Sims has just become the most peaceful thing to me. so I know that many others use it for the same reason. Thank God they created this game! It really has been more of a blessing and still after 8 years I am finding new things to do with it! NEVER gets old! Gotta Love that!
XXXTigger
2021-08-05 07:16:11 +0000 UTCSaps, thank you so much for your kind words 🥺. I'm lucky that I'm part of a very close family, we're not huge, but we're supporting each other's in everything we can, I think that is very helpful. We all are hurting, but we know my dad was good, he is in a good place right now, and he is free of health problems, and we have really nice memories. Again, thank you saps, I love u so much, and I don't know how I will be able to pay all the love and support I've received 😭.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 04:24:58 +0000 UTCThank for your kind words. I 100% get you! I only got my first shot but my arm, I couldn't move that thing, it felt like something that was there just to cause me pain lol. But tbh, any pain is little if you compare it to the knowledge that you're safer against Covid. A lot of people are saying the 2nd is worse, I just hope that is a lie in my case 😂. I hope I can share with you finished stuff soon too! I love creating and sharing, that feeling fills my heart and I think I could use a little of that right now.*hugs youuu back*.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 04:00:05 +0000 UTCI wish you and yours peace through this trying time. I am glad that you have positive support around you. May you have brighter days. Stay safe.
K
2021-08-05 03:56:07 +0000 UTCThank you so much for your words, Krista! I think the only thing that keeps me sane right now is knowing that my father can be with us every moment, I'm sure he would like that lol, and then maybe he is now in peace. I want to post something super quick because I want a little bit of normality right now, every free moment I have my mind goes kinda crazy thinking about how some things could be different and I know it's torturing myself but I can't stop 😅.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 03:54:26 +0000 UTCI am so sorry about your loss! my heart aches reading your email thinking of how you'd feel. Please stay strong. xx
PSari
2021-08-05 00:43:53 +0000 UTCIsa your words mean so much to me, thank you for being here bby ❤️🥺.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 00:07:02 +0000 UTCThank you honey! I appreciate all the love 💕.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 00:05:05 +0000 UTCThank you so much, Traci. I'm sorry you're going through it too, it such an ugly thing.
Daisy Pixels
2021-08-05 00:04:36 +0000 UTCI am so sorry for you and your family's loss. We are with you 100% of the way and will always be. <3
Nicole
2021-08-04 19:53:26 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry about your father. I lost my mother in March - My only consolation was I was able to take care of her in her home on her last few days (I'm an RN). Anyway, she suffered so much as a result of cancer. It did help me to know she wasn't suffering anymore. I still find myself wanting to call her - thinking I should tell her something - then I remember I can't. My father passed away unexpectedly many years ago, so I have felt somewhat like an orphan. I know that isn't the case, but I kind of feel lost. Anyway - I will send many prayers and thoughts of healing to you and your family. Take care of yourself and God bless.
ROSANNE PARKS
2021-08-04 14:46:15 +0000 UTCSorry to hear about the loss of your father <3 It's so hard to lose someone so close to you. The grief definitely comes in waves. Just know, you are allowed to feel however you need to feel, you are allowed bad days. The way YOU choose to grieve is not up to anyone else. I'm still trying to learn this (the love of my life passed away in February, though we weren't together at the time, it has hit me so so hard). You will feel him with you at times, be certain he visits often. <3 As for the covid vaccine, I am fully vaxxed. I was able to get in a bit earlier since my son has a diagnosis, and I work in childcare. The first one was the worse for me, I felt off, and sluggish, lots of cramping, and a sore arm. The second dose was better, with just the sore arm, but it was MUCH more sore the second dose.
Terri Benninger
2021-08-04 11:26:30 +0000 UTCI am very sorry about the loss of your Dad, the loss of a parent is not easy for anyone. Hold on to your memories and the love. It will be painful but there is also a comfort in knowing and having felt that love and connection. Grieve and don’t worry about posting until you are ready. I know that when you do you will channel all of the pain and out do your self. I have had both doses of my shot. The second can be the kicker. Take care of yourself. I mean mentally and I hope you have someone close who you can rely on.
Angella109
2021-08-04 09:28:38 +0000 UTCI'm so sorry about your loss. My father passed away ten years ago. I hadn't met him past about 6 months of age. For some odd reason I still was contacted to sign a bunch of papers to take care of funeral things and I remember one of the papers was to allow him to be cremated without anyone present. That was the only thing I found really sad. He lived a life where no one wanted to know him. No one was even there when was cremated. He wasn't a nice person and I wasn't sorry I didn't know him or that I never would. But I feel like it's something to be happy about with your father's passing. He was loved, he was wanted, he'll be remembered. Your grief is in a way a good thing. It means he lived well.
Libby DVR
2021-08-04 06:54:20 +0000 UTCI’m beyond devastated to hear that you lost your father..It’s hard to know what to say because words can’t really do justice..all I can say is that I’m praying for you and your family..I’m praying that you and your family find peace in this time.. we love you and miss you but it’s very important that you take your time.. we will all still be here ready to support and see all the wonderful things you’ve created..my heart is heavy hearing about your father..I hope everyday you feel better and more at peace.. sending love, hope and well wishes❤️
SapsCozyCorner
2021-08-04 05:57:14 +0000 UTCI’m sorry to hear about your dad. My heart goes out to you. I got my shots my first one was fine.. just felt like I got punched in the arm for three days. The second one tho.. my arm swelled up like a baseball and itched so bad it was unbearable. I was taking Benadryl like crazy and wasn’t helping. That lasted about i week straight before it started getting better. But my hubby had no issues at all. Glad to be finally vaccinated tho.. and sooo happy not to have to wear masks everywhere! Lol Hope you can get back to creating again soon. I know it’s hard when RL throws shade at you. Hang in there! And we wait for your return. ((Hugs to you))
XXXTigger
2021-08-04 05:13:09 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry for your loss 🥺 sending lots of prayers and love to your family! Stay strong and remember your dad lives on in your heart and memories ♥️ please take your time don’t push your self to posting cc, will all wait here with open arms when you return ♥️♥️♥️
Krista B Janssen
2021-08-04 05:12:40 +0000 UTCI’m so so sorry about your loss. I’m sending you and your family so much love. Take care of yourself, angel. 🤍
warmsol
2021-08-04 03:50:06 +0000 UTCI’m so so so sorry to hear about your loss ❤️ Sending much love!!
Peach
2021-08-04 03:43:59 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry for your loss 🤍 I’m dealing with grief myself right now and it’s tough. Take your time.
Traci Nesbitt
2021-08-04 03:41:45 +0000 UTC
