Little Journal Entries
Added 2020-01-03 02:44:30 +0000 UTCKnowing myself, this is not going to last long. But I’m trying not to have that attitude and believe that I can be better and find the time and strength to journal more on a regular basis.
I was looking through different apps... but then I thought of using Patreon. For several reasons I think using Patreon as a little place to post would be beneficial. 1. Allows for interaction and engagement with you guys to show you a little bit more into my life 2. Holds me more accountable 3. Can allow new perspectives to help me 4. Can offer new perspectives to help you 5. Just simply helps me feel less alone.
I don’t think I’ll really have anything profound to say. Just something to look back on to remember the past and reflect on how far I’ve come.
So, hi. Today is January the 2nd 2020. It’s absolutely insane that it is already 2020. As we counted down to a new year, it was an overwhelming feeling to think of the past decade and everything that’s happened and I’ve been through. I’m honestly so excited for the future, though. Even feeling how I am right now - numb and frustrated that I can’t seem to get a hold of my emotions or hormones and just want to be happy but can’t seem to turn it on... I’m still excited for this year and what’s to come. Which is quite odd for me. For the past 7 years I’ve truly taken it one day at a time. If I ever tried to do more, I’d get overwhelmed and shut down. That sounds dramatic, but unfortunately my body and brain are just wired for max anxiety, grief and fear. Maybe journaling a bit here and there will help with that.
Just wanted to say I love you guys. Thank you for getting me where I’m at today. Thank you for believing in me. I’m gonna try not to reread or proof read a lot of these because I know I’ll just overthink it and delete it all/not post at all. So bear with me.
Hope you are having a good start to your new year. We got this ❤️
Comments
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MrAtalon
2020-01-03 15:03:17 +0000 UTC🤗❤️🦊
Blooby
2020-01-03 13:52:38 +0000 UTCI love you with all my heart and soul, and it hurts when you have written that you feel lonely, you are not alone and you will never be, you deserve to be very happy and I, for my part, will do everything I can so that you can be, thank you to share your thoughts, I wish you a very happy year and life ! 💕💕💕
Juan Ruiz
2020-01-03 09:24:21 +0000 UTCOh also Team Trees smashed their target! It was your contribution that convinced me to pitch in so, that was cool :)
Alexis Lee
2020-01-03 07:47:27 +0000 UTCWe gotchu <3
Alexis Lee
2020-01-03 07:45:53 +0000 UTCWish you happiness and good health. <3
Brian Billadeau
2020-01-03 06:33:58 +0000 UTCGood on you <3
Ryan Hunter
2020-01-03 04:56:27 +0000 UTCThank you for talking about how you're holding up, always happy to listen <3. That bit about the wanting to feel happy but not being able to turn the switch on is something I've been feeling and not knowing how to deal with, thank you for making me feel a little less alone in struggling with this :)
2020-01-03 04:48:04 +0000 UTCwe love you too frivvi, thanks for beeing there for us when we need you <3
Stefan Ritter
2020-01-03 04:26:02 +0000 UTCI’m also trying to journal at least once everyday as well; I’m using Day One as my app. I believe in you for keeping this up as I believe it’s a good idea to write things down, and for me I hope it also provides a little more motivation to improve daily life. Best of luck! Love you too and so glad to join you on your journey!
unleashluis22
2020-01-03 04:10:56 +0000 UTCLove you <3 <3 <3
Dima Horn
2020-01-03 03:55:52 +0000 UTCI started a journal for 2020 too! For almost the same reasons, to keep better track of how I’m feeling and hopefully manage my emotions better. Good luck to you frivvy :’) im glad i’m not alone in this
2020-01-03 03:52:58 +0000 UTCI'm sure you can keep to this. For the past I-don't-even-know years, I've been slacking off with no motivation to get my life together, and you've made me want to change that about myself. If you can help people change themselves, you can easily handle a journal.
2020-01-03 03:36:43 +0000 UTCI relate so much to being wired to anxiety and grief. It’s hard to get through life when things can affect you so easily but there are moments when light shines through. I hope this new year and decade brings you more warmth and comfort than the last one.
Clarisse Carlson
2020-01-03 03:23:23 +0000 UTCilysm 💕💕💕
Hummerdummer
2020-01-03 03:13:40 +0000 UTCLove you Lauren! Happy new year! And always remember we are here for you! I believe in you always 🤗
2020-01-03 03:12:34 +0000 UTCWe love you too. You’ve helped us more then you may realize. You are very much part of the reason I’ve made as much progress as I have the last couple of years. So much so I have no idea how I could possibly repay the debt. But you are right, we got this!!
Cavick
2020-01-03 03:04:44 +0000 UTCwe FUCKING got this Frivvi, happy new year. To new beginnings 🍻❤❤❤
drewwu
2020-01-03 03:03:12 +0000 UTCWe love you too, and I'm so happy to be on the journey with you! ❤
Finnigan
2020-01-03 02:55:56 +0000 UTCGreat idea. Looking forward to seeing you become the person you want to be. What a journey it's been. <3
Tony XM
2020-01-03 02:52:28 +0000 UTCI meant cool not cold haha.
Elias
2020-01-03 02:51:19 +0000 UTCThis is a cool idea. Love ya, Friv. I hope that this year treats us all well.
Elias
2020-01-03 02:51:02 +0000 UTCWish you all the best for 2020! ❤️
Mitch Connor
2020-01-03 02:50:13 +0000 UTCCan't wait to see what you do this year. So happy to be able to support you and be a part of all of this. Love ya
Phillip Coe
2020-01-03 02:48:37 +0000 UTCFrivvi you got this you are worthy ❤️❤️❤️
Justin S
2020-01-03 02:48:03 +0000 UTCLove you, you can do this 💖
Ciara Rose Richardson
2020-01-03 02:48:02 +0000 UTCi love you too, we got this <3
Asda of York
2020-01-03 02:47:06 +0000 UTC♥️
Tig
2020-01-03 02:46:46 +0000 UTCHere’s to a fantastic year!
2020-01-03 02:46:43 +0000 UTCSo proud of you 🥺💛
Mish
2020-01-03 02:46:19 +0000 UTC
