I hate both the videos i did this week :')
Added 2017-02-08 16:30:39 +0000 UTCWe're gonna redo those this weekend. Sorry. Honestly, I've been getting some backlash from Simo and Timmy for always being on the computer or my phone, so I've had to cut back and spend some more time with them. It's been making me so, so anxious, though, especially at night (like right now it's 2am and i've been tossing and turning for a couple hours) when I think of all the things I need to do, want to do, etc... From livestreams to public video ideas to replying to people to custom video requests. Sometimes I wish I was a bachelorette again living in my studio apartment back in L.A. heh :') So, yeah, end up not getting to bed until very late and wake up late and feel bleh. Thank you everyone for being so patient with me. At any time that you want a refund, please let me know. I'm a mess right now and I'm not sure I'm in the right living situation to make any real promises or make the type of quality work I want to. It's all just very frustrating. And I'm sorry you guys have to be the guinea pigs with getting my shit together. I've been thinking about quitting my jobs, because they're underpaying me and not making me happy anymore, anyways. We'll see.
Anyways, Simo has the next two days off and it's a huge fuck around trying to make videos while he's home. So, I can't redo them tomorrow like I want to. In my Q&A I have something in my teeth the whole time :') 50 minutes of staring at that. No thank you. hahaha. And I was too harsh with my voice in my hypnosis roleplay, so we'll try that again, as well.
Again, thank you all so much for your patience. Please don't hesitate to message me asking for a refund. From Twitch donations to Patreon pledges.
Anyways... going to try and take a melatonin and get to sleep now. If I can't, might hop into a rabb.it chat. OR! Hey, would anyone hop in a Patreon discord if I made one for us? :) I couldn't be super active, but in times like these, it'd be nice to just talk. Sometimes it's hard to remember you guys are people, too, and not just mean critics that are judging and shaming my every move and let down. lol. It's what my mind likes to tell me. :/ Good night everyone!
Comments
..and you are better than melatonin to help me to sleep!
Marco
2017-02-09 14:06:31 +0000 UTCTake the time you need Frivj...I see also you have some identical problem as me to sleep.
Marco
2017-02-09 14:05:00 +0000 UTCDo what you need to do to make yourself happy. It seem we all here understand and don't mind waiting. I'm not sure what a discord is (new to Patreon) but that or rabbit chat sound very cool. Hang in there Frivvi! We are here for you.
YorickWeez
2017-02-09 04:09:45 +0000 UTCI had the same problem with sleep. I woke up at 2:30 am and couldn't go back to sleep. It sucks
Kyle
2017-02-09 00:27:08 +0000 UTCI think it's safe to say that the general consensus here is, Hey Frivvi, we got your back. :) <3
Tony XM
2017-02-08 23:31:14 +0000 UTCIs it actually anxiety keeping you awake or is it drive? It sounds like you just want your work to be high quality and steadily produced. Which sounds like drive to me. But what do I know, I've never had either! But anyway, I don't like when you offer refunds. That's just going to make things harder on you. At least in my case, I don't give you money to make things harder on you, I do it to make things easier on you.
KJ
2017-02-08 21:46:56 +0000 UTCDon't worry about Patreon or nor losing sleep from not getting video done on first try every time. Were here to back you up. Hopefully in the future enough so you don't have to do so much work and you can concentrate your efforts on what you enjoy and what makes you happy. Got Discord too, so if it happens might join there for a chat or two ;p
Joni
2017-02-08 21:06:13 +0000 UTCYou got it right man π Exercise is good too. Driving out of service now but peace and love to you all.
Elijah Gregory
2017-02-08 20:24:31 +0000 UTCI could do a discord. I still have no idea what this rabb.it thing is, even though I signed up for it last night, haha. But really, I throw money at you because I enjoy you as well as what you do, and frankly your happiness is worth waiting a little longer for some videos.
2017-02-08 19:52:03 +0000 UTCFrivolous Fox. I still stand by my last comment. I wouldn't ask for anything from you, patreon is where "I" reward "YOU" for what you do. I fully understand what it's like to have no time or space to get what I want done, I appreciate you feel you do better when your head is in it (I don't doubt your heart is in it), and it's much easier when your happy. I hope you get to some measure of happiness soon. You gotta stop worrying so much about keeping some people happy though, I don't buy from you, I back you, and I reckon and decent number here do too (if they demand something different/too much, learn to say "FUCK 'EM"). Take care of yourself first, or whatever you do will likely suffer. If you weren't you it wouldn't be the same. Rest up, get right, you'll get back on it. ( I wouldn't recommend using melotonin in though, when you ingest it your body stops making it... Look up 5 hydroxy tryptophan (5-htp), it's the precursor to serotonin (the calm hormone) which is converted to meltonin when it's time to sleep. Seriously, look it up. I've already said more here than I do in an average day.
2017-02-08 19:47:40 +0000 UTCA discord text channel would be nice. Never have time to join any live streams but that might be doable
2017-02-08 17:01:05 +0000 UTCDo what you need to do to be happy frivvy that's all that matters, Patreon discord sounds like a plan im always up for a late night vent :P. Get some sleep!
Sam B
2017-02-08 16:57:07 +0000 UTCyou are so weird. that's why we love you ;)
2017-02-08 16:52:23 +0000 UTCHi Frivvi! I'm a supporter because I want you to stick around the twitch/asmr communities, but I'm not looking for some sort of monthly production quota. I can only speak for myself, but I think a lot of others probably feel the same way. You've already created a lot of great videos, so whatever you've been doing so far has been working. If remaking videos a few times and postponing the release a few days/weeks is part of your process, don't feel bad about it!
2017-02-08 16:52:10 +0000 UTCI will say what I always say. Think about yourself first, make sure you are doing ok. Hopefully Simo and Timmy will understand that what you do, while fun, is also a job for you, you make real money from your Twitch/YT Asmr stuff. Do what you need to do keep yourself together. Just remember to pace yourself and take a breath every once in awhile. Get some good sleep and feel better in the morning.
Tony XM
2017-02-08 16:44:38 +0000 UTC
