Podcast 43: Dissociative Addiction with Steve-O
Added 2022-03-21 07:35:58 +0000 UTCSteve-O tells the full story of his PCP use and how he found sobriety
Here is a link to the talk with Leonard Pickard in SF, it's $80, which in my opinion is too much. I will try to record my talk and post it here.
https://www.bicycledaysf.org/speakers
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I once located (for free, but I won’t divulge how) 4 bottles of liquid ketamine. I turned it to a solid, cut it, and oh my God. I was out of my mind for months. Being VERY high on dissociatives is nearly indescribable. Your motor skills are completely fucked. You don’t hallucinate exactly. I did experience complete ego death, would mimic animals, would roll around in bed feeling like a worm or a serpent. The TV would appear far, far away, as if at the edge of a tunnel. Narratives would lose any meaning whatsoever. Speech was utterly impossible. I was very into aggrotech at the time, and this music would make me feel like a universal gear in a turning clock without end. Most of the emotional content was either neutral or terrifying, but whenever I came to, I always wanted to snort more. It was overall just weird and surreal, alien and lonely. But I obviously liked something about it, though I would never take it again. I definitely relate to the free fall feeling. I spent most of the time floored in bed or attempting to stand long enough to snort another fat rail. The motor skill thing is like when Duke and Dr. Gonzo huff ether in Fear and Loathing.
Walker Goff
2023-03-08 05:24:44 +0000 UTCSteve-O casually speaking dog at 56:45, he still got it :)
James Terracina
2023-01-10 20:52:59 +0000 UTCPlease also share my thanks with Sidney
swatches
2023-01-04 14:45:44 +0000 UTCSteve-O's recovery should be shown in every recovery center. If someone can go from where he was at in the early 2000's, to now, with endless injuries and concussions, anyone can.
Jess (StickHits)
2022-05-23 02:53:07 +0000 UTCGreat opening monologue, Hamilton!
Tom B
2022-05-17 20:33:22 +0000 UTC
