A change of plans, this patreon will live.

Hello everyone, hope you are doing good.

I think nearly everybody here remembers how I said a couple of months ago that I was about to drop this patreon in favor of subscribestar, well. I've been thinking more about it and the more i do, the more I realize this might have been a mistake.

First up, despite the uproar the update in the therms caused, I'm still yet to see a case of a person that actually got screwed over by these. So i still am uncertain whether or not doing all that moving thing was necessary, i will still keep both platforms running, but I will no longer act like Subscribestar is the main one, both will have an equal priority to me from now on, although I will avoid posting equine penises and 1nc%st material in Patreon.

There are many reasons for this, but the main one is that I feel like in general people just prefer Patreon over SubscribeStar, and if that's what people desire, let it be like this. Plus, I will be honest, I also prefer using patreon way more, SubscribeStar doesn't have a lot of features that I took for granted on patreon and this made my experience starting out there very confusing, and plus the pm board there is mega hidden, so i'd often take way longer to respond my supporters there because i'd straight up have no notifications that new messages arrived, at least their customer support was efficient.

And about which platform i'd recomment you to support me on? That's honestly up to you, if you are more into 1nc%st and horsecocks, i'd recommend subscribe star just because posts containing these topics won't be posted here, but even still these will be kinda rare, so it's not a strong advice.

I'm sorry if I upsetted anyone with this move, I only did what i felt what was correct at the time, and I might have jumped the ship too soon, I'm still very uncertain about this but I'm trying my hardest to provide the best I can to everybody that follows me, both in customer service and in artwork.

This was the core of the message, if that's what you wanted to know, you can stop reading now, because this second part of this text will become a vent, so, read the following conscious of this, if you choose to do it.

Well, I don't feel comfortable calling 2024 a horrible year for me, i certainly had worse years in my life (2016 will haunt me forever), and I definitely had some silver linings to back it up, but I don't think i've ever felt this stressed and overwhelmed in my entire life, and i don't mean this because of the artworks.

There are many reasons for this, varying from more personal ones, like health problems in my family, problems with my health insurance and me getting backstabbed and scammed by people that I once called friends, to more general topics, such as the floods that destroyed the state I live in back in may, the patreon updates of therms of service, and of course the ban of twitter here in Brazil, that led me to not be able to post anything there for over a month, and when twitter announced earlier this month that it was no longer giving the option for artists to consent about their art be used to train AI, leading to a massive bluesky jump the boat, i was already jaded, i didn't have the energy to feel angry, even though internally i was, so I mentally checked out of that conversation and just tried to carry on despite the madness, I know i'm not in my breaking point yet but still, seeing all this happen with me and around me hurts, a lot.

Since pretty much the beginning of this month, i've been feeling extremely down, fragile and doubtful, the smallest thing of the universe is being able to ruin my day and make me feel like i'm the worst human being in the world, i want to start therapy but for that I still need to get approved in my new insurance, as I had to cancel the contract with the other one as it had a 40% raise in its monthly price, which i couldn't afford, and given that I was trying to sign with other insurance that not only shoved me a whole bunch of annoying burocracy just to reject me at the end, this means i'm as of right now, three months without insurance. And the first thing i'll do once I FINALLY get approved by one is seek therapy, I really need to get rid of all these demons and waves of insecurity and sadness that have only made my life worse.

There is literally only one thing that I want to do right now, and that is to draw in peace with no one to bother me, is that too much to ask for? I genuinely love working for you guys and reading your comments saying how much you enjoy my work is genuinely heartwarming and motivates me so much, even if i don't respond to your comment, keep in mind that i treasure every single one of you, even if you are a free supporter, just because you are here, you already mean so much to me, and I will continue striving to make my art as best as I can make it. I'm currently undergoing an experimental phase, studying a big more of shading and hoping to fix some things in my art that i was never a fan of, such as how i was never able of drawing juicy pecs as I wanted. But hopefully, this will all work out for my art to get even better in future months!

Later this month, i will post my orctober special, the full base drawing will be posted publicly, but the alts will be available here, and in it I will do some more experimenting, with pecs, shading and some other stuff, I really hope you guys enjoy it! ^^

Sorry for the length of this post, especially for my fellow neurodivergent followers, plus, sorry if I rambled too much, I need to get some stuff out of my chest, i hope you guys understand.

I hope the next few months will be kinder on all of us, and hope everyone here has a great day, thank you for reading and see you soon.