Positive update...
Added 2023-11-14 15:08:42 +0000 UTCSo in the last two days I have been back at it trying to shake off my social anxiety by playing Lethal Company and making some friends.
It's been quite a few years since I played multiplayer games and having a laugh with random people. It actually brings joy to me once I shake off those fears.
Met a couple of cool guys and in the coming days I will return back to streaming live.
Thankfully no fainting the last two days, felt okay. I did put my back out again, but its already feeling better. It's not going to stop me from getting back to what I love to do. That is to entertain people and work on projects that give people joy.
My dream job would be that of an entertainer. We have that in our family. I have cousins who play in bands and my grandfather apparently was an opera singer. I can't sing at all though! lol
There is something about meeting random people, laughing and causing chaos in games that brings me a lot of joy. I think it was because growing up I didn't have much of that - I always felt like a loner.
I love the idea of a team of friends going game to game and just causing chaos for ourselves and others, laughing along the way.
Anyway I am just rambling but soon I will create a discord for the channel and I have a name for the people who join along... "The Chaos Army."
I think I will partly stream multiplayer games, but maybe record videos 2-3 times a week for slower games, like Football Manager. If I can make about $25 a day with donations, I will just use all of that to feed myself. Fingers crossed.
Thanks again for all those who have supported me through this difficult time.
