Excuse my French but what the fuck was this episode 😭😭😭😭
Kate
2025-10-20 02:06:27 +0000 UTC
Mary's 'I don't wanna die' hits like a sucker punch. I think I'm so used to seeing the sacrificial mother trope in media and all the heroic deaths or the very normal people who have somehow achieved monkhood and are completely accepting of death when it's near. But for her to look so young in that scene shoulders in and sound so scared it's just so sad and so real!!! Sorry for my separate comments btw I'm watching in parts and I don't want to forget anything!!
Wissal El Ghazi
2025-08-02 11:11:09 +0000 UTC
Marilla's angry and desperate 'because I love you!' is so Marilla... Making her big emotions fit into the smallest most insignificant thing like the article. We know it's truly about being scared of losing Anne. It makes me sad because she heard her prayer the night before where she said : I need to know I was loved. Marilla loves Anne so much and wishes that love could erase all of Anne's pain and doubts about her worth but that's not how it works. My mother is similar and it's confusing because as much as I feel her pain and helplessness, I'm on my own journey the same way Anne is. Mathew realizes to love your kid is to support them and be there for them for all the ups and downs. But Marilla's downs have been so dramatic in her life with Gilbert's father, her mother, her brother and raising mathew that she wants and needs Anne to only have ups. She's so unequipped to deal with other people's emotions because hers are so overwhelming. Watching that scene even without its context, I start bawling my eyes out.
Wissal El Ghazi
2025-07-31 08:54:38 +0000 UTC
Around the 16 minute mark, those 3 separate shots of Gilbert just going: 🤨🤨🤨 made me laugh so hard!!! My least favorite part of this series (even if it's my favorite version) is the lack of personality in Gilbert. He has such charisma in the original. He's more of a jock type personality, bit of a bad boy with a nerd sweetness to him. This whole series, Gilbert is just emoting. Did they not want to pay him for lines?? Hahah 3 SEPARATE face shots in the same scene just to see him mugging the camera.
Wissal El Ghazi
2025-07-31 08:08:23 +0000 UTC
Yeah same here 😭
Darlien Obst
2025-07-25 00:40:11 +0000 UTC
God I hate that episode so much. When I watched it the first time I cried the whole time. Now I watched it the second time aaaand I cried even worse. It's so unbelievable heartbreaking. Mary and bash only deserved the best. And then that part with the boarding school...such a tough episode but an important one too.
Darlien Obst
2025-07-25 00:39:04 +0000 UTC
I watched the show a long time ago, but after joining your Patreon, I watched it again with you. I had completely forgotten about this episode… I'm not okay—I'm crying my eyes out right now.
Julita Piotrowska
2025-07-24 20:35:27 +0000 UTC
"Heathens" F ALL THE WAY OFF
Canada's residential schools STOLE Indigenous children from their families, ripped their culture and language away from them, sexually and physically abused them, and traumatized generations of families. You're right about the national apology. I watched a documentary about it. I'll look up the name and post it.
There's a documentary I watched on Amazon called "We Were Children" and another called "Sugarcane" (Sundance channel via Amazon, I think). Again, Catholics forcing their faith on others and destroying their lives.
You should also read up/watch about Tuam Orphanage in Ireland. There are many documentaries about it. Similar story but their entire identity wasn't stolen from them -- this was more a story of the young women who got pregnant, and they were sent there, treated horribly, many babies died, and it was covered up. There are no words for these kinds of acts. All in the name of the Catholic Faith. And people wonder why I don't practice.
Have you seen "The Keepers" on Netflix? HIGHLY RECOMMEND. It's about a young nun who was died in Baltimore under suspicious circumstances and the subsequent information that was exposed about pedophile priests who abused many many students in their schools. I hope they all burn in Hell, if there is a Hell.
Melissa
2025-07-23 11:01:50 +0000 UTC
I have a friend who almost died of sepsis a few years ago. She's five years younger than me. It was terrifying. Even with today's advances, she was in dire condition.
Melissa
2025-07-23 10:46:45 +0000 UTC
I ate 10 Oreos today. :)
Melissa
2025-07-23 00:22:59 +0000 UTC
these episodes are so beautifully written…. but they hurt my soul 😔
Beezy Queen
2025-07-20 14:47:08 +0000 UTC
oof... things were feeling a little too positive in the show's narrative, i guess they felt it was time to bring a little devastation into the storyline 💀 (both with losing Mary and bringing up the disgusting, monstrous residential schools)
i love S3E3 because it's so beautifully written and filmed, but it rips my heart out every time. the visceral feeling it must be to know you're going to die soon regardless of how you're feeling in the moment, and there's nothing you can do to prevent it, only accept it... terrifying. Mary's deceptively simple line, "I don't want to die," gets me every single time. i always end up crying all through this episode. so heartbreaking 😭 Cara Ricketts (Mary's actress) was absolutely phenomenal in her portrayal of everything! and Dalmar Abuzeid (Sebastian) was amazing too with his portrayal of anger and grief. seriously, S3E3 my beloathed...
mase
2025-07-20 01:01:41 +0000 UTC
yes, this. Rachel certainly has her issues (and unfortunately had a pretty regressive arc this season), but she genuinely cared about Mary! I think the time skip between the second and third season was necessary, but because of it we did miss out on context and development for multiple relationships. we never got to see Rachel getting to know Mary and Bash better, or see Mary's struggle trying to integrate into Avonlea's community. I understand why it all had to be skipped over, and you can still glean enough about what we missed from the conversations and interactions, but still a bit of a bummer not to have been shown.
mase
2025-07-20 00:39:13 +0000 UTC
yeah I used to stay up late till 3am waiting for the episodes to drop when they first came out and I cried so much I gave myself a headache lmao. I was pissed off too like why do they always have to kill off the black women! Mary will always be in my heart <3
Apai
2025-07-19 21:52:33 +0000 UTC
i think i sobbed throughout this whole episode. fuckass show, fuckass writers, fuckass fate. i can't stand Rachel this season and it tattered the whole impression of her character for me, previous seasons included. if your white character becomes unbearable to the point i want to shake their shoulders the moment they encounter any people of color - that is not a good sign, i was just gagging every time she was on screen. get tf out of here. it felt like a very very white part of this show colliding with very sincere, rich, and beautiful POC part of the show and, to me, it just made me want to rewatch all the POC-focused media and turn this show off. i hated every time any white character made all this tragedy about themselves. just stop, I'm begging you.
Mary. you deserved so so much better. the first time i watched this i knew what this was about the moment she cut her hand. if you watch a few films or shows set in the past you quickly learn that running in the rain means fever and slow death and cutting yourself means infection and slow death, how fun 😃 also the fact that she cut her hand because Elijah startled her in the last episode 😃 writers just wanted to stomp over whatever happiness these characters could've had. I'm glad Mary basically had the whole episode dedicated for her, I'd watch a whole show about her ngl, but it's nice to see her treasured like she deserves.
I think it'll be the first time I'll be skipping through parts of your upcoming reactions to this show, i just can't. Ka'kwet. Just plain historically accurate misery this season is.
thank you so much for your hard work! much love ❤️🩹
shonyadrws
2025-07-19 19:57:40 +0000 UTC
Oh, no, I'm not ready for this!! I can't go pick up tile in tears!
I'll have to come back here tomorrow.
Poor Mary. Poor Ka'kwet. The world is too harsh and they deserve better.
I am reaffirmed in my conspiracy theory that the show was cancelled because it started confronting these harsh realities head-on: the dangers for women, the fates of Black people, the horrors of charter schools.
Agh, I have too much to say about the awfulness of striping someone of their whole culture, their language, making them ashamed of their heritage, severing their connections to their roots. The absolute entitlement of thinking any of it is a "civilizing effort". It's revolting.
I know both experiences of annihilation of identity and roots mirror each other, but perhaps because I am from a colonizing country after all, the charter schools mention just devastated me. I know we did similar things all over South America.
I heard actor Tamoh Penikett talk about how her grandmother was a survivor of those schools, and how they tried to teach her to hate everything in her that was Native: her appearance, her customs, and especially her language.
Here in Spain, I was taught as a kid about how we "gifted" our language to the American populations we encountered, and how we should be so proud that it is now so widely spoken. I was also told we "brought them civilization" for sure. Pure propaganda.
The fascist dictatorship also suppressed all the regional languages here that weren't Castilian Spanish, and it has taken a couple of generations to bring them back.
But I think of the efforts that Māori people and Aboriginal people are doing in Australia and especially New Zealand, where they are recovering, expanding and teaching their languages more and more, and I try to think all is not lost.
And I think of how AAVE evolved into its own language (that now white people try to copy to sound cool), and how traditions get revived, or mixed, or invented anew, and how people carry their knowledge in their hearts, and nothing can take that away, and I have a bit of hope that nothing disappears completely.
Lola Lirola
2025-07-19 17:33:54 +0000 UTC
I really f*cking forgot how devastating this episode is, MY GOD
Atom
2025-07-19 05:18:34 +0000 UTC
I believe the story a few years ago regarded a notable number of coercive assimilation 'schools' newly connected to nearby mass graves, in both Canada and the U.S. Unless maybe that story followed an initial specific instance.
Atom
2025-07-19 04:57:57 +0000 UTC
nobody brings it w/the philosophical interludes like you!
"how will we make them realize that it's okay to say that they're sorry, and doing some of those things doesn't make them horrible people?"
the grace of God INDEED. I love my parents, and they love me, and also it took me years of therapy to make peace with giving up on that quest.
Atom
2025-07-19 03:51:46 +0000 UTC
Matthew and Dellie win the award for most adorable duo. they just melt my heart!
Anya Smith
2025-07-18 23:35:52 +0000 UTC
I don’t know whether you misinterpreted or not, but when Rachel said “our poor Mary” she was being sincere! She was friends with Mary and Sebastian just like Marilla! It was the Barry’s (Diana’s parents) that kept declining Mary’s invitations, not Rachel. Love your reactions🫶🏼
Lana23x
2025-07-18 22:56:58 +0000 UTC
oh no, not THIS episode...i'm not prepared 😩
Lauren O'Loughlin
2025-07-18 22:37:28 +0000 UTC
nope....wasn't ready
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Mikal Liebswager
2025-07-18 22:14:16 +0000 UTC
oh dear... don't know if i'm ready to rewatch this...
Mikal Liebswager
2025-07-18 20:34:38 +0000 UTC
The way I was just watching one of your Ted Lasso videos and got this notification! So good to us, I love when the videos drop early 😍