I'll be going on a hiatus.
Added 2021-10-25 09:53:09 +0000 UTCHey everyone. I want to take this opportunity to be real with all of you. I've been struggling with my mental health over the course of the past few months. It's been getting to me to such a degree that it's been interfering with my own daily life. I'm even having problems with regulating my own emotions and it's caused me a lot of complications with my relationships.
I don't want you all to worry about me too much. I assure you all that I am not suicidal nor harming myself. I really do want to live a better life and be a better person for my friends and my audience. It's just that my poor mental health is making me struggle to do so and I've decided to take this very seriously and take the time to actually work on this.
I've applied to get psychotherapy and I'll be getting weekly consultations. Hopefully I can work with my therapist to find solutions to my problems and move forward to be a better individual.
I apologize to anyone who was expecting me to post new content but in my current mental state, I am unable to. I will finish commissions and other personal content this month. I'll do what I can to post on occasion as well but I'll mostly prioritize getting better first.
Thank you all for supporting me. Your pledges have helped me afford professional help and I wouldn't have been able to make it this far without your support. I don't plan to quit anytime soon so I will be back. I just really need to take this time to heal and become a better version of myself for all of you. Thank you again for giving me so much.
Til our next spicy adventure~
-Feran
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Thank you! The payments still go through each month though I am planning to make audios for Patreon again but I can't exactly say when. I'm still taking time to get better but I'm happy to say that I'm making good progress with my therapist so no worries. I'm taming my black dog better each day.
Feran
2021-12-11 11:39:15 +0000 UTCWill monthy subscription fees be on pause until you come back? Dont get me wrong, im happy to still pay, to both listen to your past audios, and to help you afford the help you need (in fact, when i can affrord it, i will upgrade my tier, if thatll help you <3) In the mean time, heres some advice from someone who used to suffer from depression (well, i say used to, you never truly "cure" depression, rather you turn a black dog thats pulling you back with every step, to an obient cute doggo you can even use to relate to others and pick up chicks :P). Its ALL about baby steps, and setting realistic/achieveable goals. Do you skip meals? Say "this week, I will eat a cereal bar every morning" and when you master that "this week, i will have a bowl of cereal every morning" until youre eating three healthy meals a day! Use this technique to improve your eating, exersize levels, sleep, personal hygeine, getting back into hobbies, and interacting with others (friends and family are SO importat at times like these) - ALL those things that seem hard right now, become easy(/less difficult) when you break them down into baby steps. Also, if you pursue the medication route, remeber, youll probably have to try a few before you find one that suits you (like kissing frogs before one turns into a prince haha) It was my FIFTH try before I found a medciation that suited me - combine it with your pyscotherapy (youre already ahead of others by taking that inititive!), and taking other steps to improve your life, and that GIANT black dog wont seem to so scary anymore <3 (the black dog reference comes from the book "living with a black dog" its a picture book that helps explain depression to loved ones that may not understand - i HIGHLY recomend it!)
SaraJSweetheart
2021-12-10 21:26:23 +0000 UTC
