"Could you take the lead?" [Shy Speaker] [Strangers to Lovers]

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Script: Coldtofu

Summary: We match through a hookup app, but I’m a little inexperienced. Could you take the lead?

Tags: [M4F] [Hookup] [MSub] [Strangers to Lovers] [Nervous Speaker] [Awkward] [Cute] [Adorable] [Lots of Kissing] [Whimpering] [Nipple Play] [Cunnilingus] [Cowgirl] [Cuddling]

(art by shpo)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:

It's about two weeks until I get to meet some of my silly Internet friends for Twitchcon. I know there's hardly any overlap between the people who are subscribed here and the people who support my streams (trust me, you're not missing much if you're just here to listen to my moans). But are any of you going?

Aside from it being the one time a year I get to see my online friends, I mostly also like going to Twitchcon to network with other streamers. It's funny how with having gone for the last two years, my conversations with my streamer mutuals at these events always reroute themselves into gossiping about other people, whether they've wronged us or any kind of info we've heard about their alleged poor behavior.

I've taken little steps here and there to kind of separate myself from the community I'm largely associated with (Vtubers) because I find that it's just largely un-creative and infantilizing, but it's still nevertheless the community I've found my following in. With that said, I used to think that our conversations at these conventions would always devolve into gossip because there weren't a lot of people in our day-to-day lives as Vtubers and streamers that could relate to our particular stressors. And while that's certainly the case for the most part, I also feel like I've become less charitable in my view of why we have these conversations -- a lot of people just like the high drama of shit-talking other people, and a lot of these same people are just too unaware of themselves to not walk around like their own shit doesn't stink. I'm honestly too old for that shit.

I know that sounds cynical and mean but I'm coming from a place of being fed up with a lot of people in the Vtuber community, and I'm trying my best to just prioritize myself instead of just angling for the attention of people I wouldn't even be friends with in real life if given the opportunity. I would much rather prefer to just talk about how things are going in our individual lives rather than idle, mean-spirited chatter about random people I don't even care about. I'm hoping I can accomplish that this year, and I'm hoping all of you are able to make that discernment in your lives as well.

In any case, I hope you're all well.

As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude

Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous