zenyahima

7/19 "stream" is up + another stream tmrw night!

Added 2025-07-20 01:26:21 +0000 UTC

hello pengoon!!

uhm, i'm really sorry about tonight...been having a rough day i guess and felt so stressed out and anxious that I just couldn't do it today :( something in me just wanted to cry today i guess lol...

normally i try my best to get over things and push through and do what i can but yeah i guess pushing through today didn't really work. I think I've been getting better but I guess we all have some bad days right? It's honestly so embarrassing though for this to happen, so it just makes things worse and worse and it all snowballs...I don't want to have to cancel obviously, I want to be there for you and for you to rely on me...I will keep trying my best, I just hope you can understand that it's not always easy ;-;

With that being said, I will be rescheduling for tomorrow too, I still want to give you what I promised after all, I wouldn't feel right just leaving it like that. With a good night's rest and new day, my mental should reset back to being alright, I hope you can understand me just needing a bit more time 💙so 8:30PM EDT same time as usual here just it's tomorrow instead!!

sorry i'm kind of a loser stupid fragile and sensitive little girl ehehe...

and uh yeah i uploaded the stream to the gofile folder, here it is video and audio

https://gofile.io/d/0GbDPs

pw: phen7K9DD9Nl

although idk why you would want it, it's just kind of garbage lol me breaking down 😭just for completion's and archival sake i've included it alright...

hope you have a good rest of your night, i'll see you tmrw okay 💙for REAL this time!! 👀

BTW, might as well say it now, next week's stream will ALSO be on a sunday instead since I have an event on saturday i'm a part of!! so it'll be all the same as tmrw basically nyaaaa