SHUESHIDA

05

(starring kyle)

its difficult to pin down my relationship with Swayne. It's honestly difficult to pin down my relationship with most people. But I'm really glad we came across meiko when we did. 

I always try to see the good in everyone. even the people considered pure evil to most. I love to make people smile. I love to make anyone who's around me happy.
I can see why most people don't like meiko. maybe even hate him. he's angry. he's aggressive. he's over emotional. he's difficult to talk to. he's shy. he doesn't know how to direct any of his feelings. but that's honestly what makes him such an incredible person.

I admire how much he doesn't care about what others think about him. he only cares about his own well being. and I wish I could do that when I need to. 

thinking about him I began to clench my stomach. I hope him and Swayne are okay.

whenever I get anxious I feel extremely sick so I kind of need to be on a constant high otherwise my body will give up. most of the time its seeing others smile.
I miss Meiko. I wish he wasn't so scared of me. but I know I don't have anything to offer him unless he's plastered on all the drugs he can come across. It's the only times he laughs with him. he has such a cute smile. he has big sharp teeth. I think he told me he used to chew on stuff as a kid. the boy's got fangs. 

Thinking about this I went to the mirror and looked at myself and smiled. I laughed. seeing my own smile makes me laugh cause I look so goofy. I ran my paws through my hair. It's drying out again. I started wondering what colour I should dye it next. 

Pink! Since Meiko's pink maybe he'll like it! I got really excited of the thought of seeing his laugh or smiling. dying your hair is a painful boring process so I won't bore you with the details. I stood in front of the mirror and smiled. I looked so cute with meiko's pigment. I always love myself the most when I act and look like the people I love. 

I started undressing myself. this part I didn't like. I looked down and started swinging my dick around. my ears lowered and I cupped my balls and watched it hang around. for how tall I am, I guess it's pretty big. I started thinking of swayne. swayne has the largest one. I kept feeling sad for a reason I couldn't pin so I put on some boxers and skinny jeans since it's what meiko wears. I went to my closet and went to my graphic t-shirts. my favorite thing about fashion is that it's a conversation starter for shy closed off people like meiko. 

queen... led zeppelin.. the beatles... too old. meiko's too young. he'd just call me a hipster wannabe. imagining him say it in his gravely voice made me laugh. I loved the sound of my own laughter. I started to blush as I felt my own cheeks with my paws warm up. I felt happy again. I kept looking for a shirt that meiko might like. meiko hadn't told me much about the music he likes to listen to but I hear him blasting all kinds of stuff. stuff that even I nor swayne have heard. but any time you as him he gets upset so I just try to listen carefully. the more I thought about meiko the happier I got. I'm excited to see him again and to try and make him smile. 

I kept looking for some time. then finally, bingo. car seat headrest. It was a band I hadn't gotten into that much but the only song I've ever heard meiko sing and tell me passionately about why it means so much to him was a song by them. I think it was called Beach Life-In-Death. he went on and on about how he knows what the song is really about and how no one else knows. he's so adorable when he gets excited about music. not just music. but all kinds of art. when he lets go of his shyness he's super articulate and passionate about what he talks about. he's so smart yet he thinks he's not. I smiled more imagining him tell me about it again. I started to hum the tune of the song as I put the shirt on and looked at myself in the mirror. I made a stupid goofy pose. It was an oversized fit, even for someone as tall as me. I loved the way large stuff looked on my thin long body. while I was humming and posing my phone rang. 

it was vinny! but what could he need at this hour?