November/December Dev Log: Developer of white facial profile*

The first time I tasted the essence of being hands-free was in my second year of middle school, when everyone back there was thrown into a boiling pot of hormones and simmered over a gentle flame of  desire.

One afternoon, when the house was empty, an intrusive thought suddenly struck me. I squatted in the living room and began looping a segment of the Digimon 02 series, episode 22, around 19:10 to 19:14 on the VCD.

With the high-fidelity audio-visual output, the tingling sensation from deep within my heart grew stronger, spreading to every limb and bone, until even my red blood cells took the shape of ❤️.

What I was gazing at was the abyss of a fetish, adept at stealing purity with cunning and lewd tricks. I only realized this after an unstoppable force erupted from below my navel!

That thick, muddy fluid, akin to the secretion of a Deep One's nail infection, eventually seeped through the fabric, leaving a filthy pattern on the pure cotton material.

It is, the hands-free clothed-coming!

As an innocent young thing unfamiliar with self-pleasure, I thus reaped the consequences of dirtying my underwear, a vivid stroke in the canvas of puberty.

If there's a pain that needs a lifetime to heal, then it's understandable to take some time to come to terms with such a high-level first experience, right?

So even if I want to prove that this sacrilegious hobby is harmless and alleviate the pain it brings, it shouldn't be a taboo act—

—Just kidding. Or maybe continuing this might seem a bit offensive.

Discussing such matters with a frivolous attitude indeed doesn’t stand on solid.

But given my nature, offending is just a matter of time.

So as a scriptwriter, why not speak through a character?

Create a character who, even if despised, remains unharmed.

Thus, "Prince" was born.

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Regarding "Prince":

Originally designed as delicate and slender, "Prince" appears frail.

Choosing a Husky breed was to highlight this contrast.

His loose, thin cotton-linen clothes barely fit, slipping off to reveal shoulders soft as tofu.

Living in the neon-lit streets at night, with braids like waifu characters in Anime, an innocent gaze, and disheveled, thin clothes, he seems to crumble under pressure.

All these hint at a rather dangerous identity. To avoid negative fantasies, he's depicted with a sturdier physique, as shown in the illustration.

(Earphones were an early accessory of "Prince," later passed on to "【DoD】")

The sturdy build brought minor changes: he sneaks out instead of staying indoors, always wears a raincoat since it rains whenever he steps out. He developed a sexy signature style with naked-themed raincoats under the neon lights.

Though his body changed, his character remained intact.

He dreams of unearned gains but is too empathetic to be a selfish charmer.

He’s eccentric, values loyalty, talks nonsense but not outright lies.

Despite being battle-hardened, his mind stays pure.

To a cop, "calculation" is core; to "Prince," the perfect internet term is "demonic charm" ("addictive", "captivating", "enchanting").

He doesn’t seek body pleasure or true love, nor does he want to succumb to experiences that ultimately lead to dependence or transformation, which means either causing a client's downfall or becoming subservient oneself.

As a noble "Prince," he must dominate (as a superior) and kneel (as a subordinate) to sever his client, which he doesn't want to get him-self trapped in such roles.

In the temporarily hidden anime CG, "Prince" is depicted doing various things but remains flaccid, reflecting his rejection of such a relationship.

Asking him to abandon hierarchy for equality might destroy the image "Prince" has built so far.

So, his reaction to Sang's offer to "be friends" must have truly shaken him.

After all, like the red-light districts depicted in literature, becoming emotionally involved is taboo.

But I understand that literature often deviates and glamorizes its themes.

Discussing the plight of exploited sex workers in such a flippant tone is inhumane.

But to portray such a character, how can I not see the world from his perspective?

Otherwise, I'd just be an outsider making idle remarks (Liu Ping).

But then again, the character was created to offend... ahem.

"Prince" is a male sex worker, trading in "desires" and "pleasure," one of the oldest professions.

His product is sex, his freebie is love.

According to "History of Religion," ancient Babylonian priests would please the gods on altars using sacred positions, bringing followers to ecstasy (Kryvelev).

As one of its former worshippers, "Prince" might offer his prayers in those moments, with utmost devotion.

Whether or not the thick incense smell reaches him, since he delights in others creating life, that god must be very loving.

At least that's what "Prince" believes.

So, even a slight favor or blessing is better than a persistent night drizzle.

Yet, no miracles have occurred to date, causing the young man some disappointment.

Perhaps the gods are just more interested in showcasing bizarre acts like virgin births or creation from a rib.

Thus, the altar collapses, and the child returns to the mundane—

After all this, what I'm trying to say is, "Prince" is a character of my own preferences.

His personality is also a preference, and should not be compared with hardship.

Even hardships shouldn't be compared, otherwise, if we actually manage to rank them, only the winner gets the right to complain.

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Regarding the progress of game development:

The story of the red line in Chapter 3 is only half-written.

The original plan was to depict a conflict with the "Rainy Butcher" after the two characters arrive at the Red Street. However, the development of the romance subplot has delayed the main storyline from advancing to the planned point. In addition, the blue and colorless lines are still unfinished, adding to the pressure.

Of course, the fundamental reason is my low productivity as a scriptwriter. If my productivity were higher, I could have depicted the unique aspects of "Prince," his worldly views of sex and love, earlier on.

Currently, the game's progress is significantly behind schedule and looks quite pessimistic. The programming phase, which was supposed to start this month, hasn't begun yet. And all of this is because I, as the scriptwriter, haven't finished writing.

I have no excuses for this and owe everyone an apology.

I'm not sure if all scriptwriters encounter such stumbling blocks in writing clear storylines.

And please don't worry about the development of the blue and colorless lines. They won't be dragged out into two parts because of the red line. The unfinished content of the red line in Chapter 3 will be moved to Chapter 4 and will continue as originally planned.

It seems feasible to conclude the story within seven chapters... The most urgent task, of course, is to write as quickly as possible.

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Regarding the holiday:

It's already the 24th again, and it's been three years since the first chapter was released—time really flies. Although it's not a tradition, celebrating with art isn't a bad idea.

Holidays are an annual excuse for joy. Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas here🎄

*This was written in a rush, so there are some parts that need revision, which I will correct later.

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* 白貌の伝道師 Evangelist of white facial profile (Xinghai's FICTIONS) (2012) by Gen Urobuchi

*Kryvelev, Yury A. 宗教史 [History of Religions]. Translated by Wang Xianrui and others, China Social Sciences Press, 1984.

*Liu, Ping. "近代娼妓的信仰及其神灵 [The Belief and Deities of Modern Prostitutes]." 社会史 [Social History], 2007, http://www.historychina.net/qsyj/ztyj/shs/2007-11-19/26363.shtml.

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第一次品尝hands-free的滋味，是在被投入荷尔蒙的沸腾大锅后，以文火煨煮的初中二年级。

某日午后趁着家中无人之际，脚本儿忽然福至心灵，蹲坐在客厅开始逐帧循环起数码暴龙02季22集的VCD碟片19:10-19:14左右的段落。

在高保真音画的输出下，源自心底的酥麻感越发强烈，逐渐渗透四肢百骸，最终连红血球都变成了“❤️”的形状。

自己凝视的乃是癖之深渊，专以奇技淫巧夺取贞操——对这件事有所察觉，是在脐下三寸迸发出不可阻挡的威势之后了！

那股浓如泥水，好似深潜者甲沟炎分泌物般溃烂的体液最终浸透了织物，在纯棉质地之上流淌出一片肮脏纹路。

无手着衣身寸！

作为对“自渎”还一无所知的雏儿，就这样自食了弄脏底裤恶果，可谓是青春期浓墨重彩的一笔。

既然有伤痛需要一生去治愈的道理，那稍微花点时间去释怀初次就是这样高难度的玩法，也是能理解的吧？

所以即便想将错就错地用尽余生来证明这份亵渎的嗜好无伤大雅来缓解苦痛带来的冲击，想必也不是什么禁忌的行为——

——说笑了，说笑了，或者说再继续下去好像就有点冒犯了。

讨论到这种事，还用这种轻浮的态度，确实是不大能站得住脚。

但按照脚本儿的尿性，冒犯不冒犯不过是迟早的事。

既然如此，便不如借角色之口吧。

借一个即便会被人嫌弃也不会受到伤害的角色来做。

于是“王子殿下”诞生了。

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关于“王子殿下”的二三事：

由于最初有着清秀纤细的设定，所以“王子”是一副娇弱的样子。

品种选择哈士奇是为了凸显这份反差。

宽松轻薄的针织棉麻显得极不合身，恰到好处地滑落露出如嫩豆腐般的香肩。

身居深夜经营的霓虹街，竖着太太同款的发辫，不谙世事的眼神，以及凌乱单薄的贴身衣物，仿佛随时都会由于重压而被碾碎。

尽是些暗示着种种不妙的身份，但考虑到这种身份会引发不太好的遐想，便如下图所示选用了更结实一些的身子骨。

(耳机是王子早期的配搭，不过后来让渡给【死神】了)

结实的体型同时带来的是一些小细节上的更改：比如从原本的闭门不出，变成了偷偷上街。出门必下雨，而雨衣成了必备衣。在洒满霓虹灯的街道上开发出了果体雨衣的性感招牌。

虽说身体换了，但作为白模的性格却完整的保留了下来。

对不劳而获充满憧憬，终究无法成为利己主义者的小魅魔。

他行事乖张，却又非常看重义气，满嘴胡话，却也不是弥天大谎。

明明身经百战，灵台却清明依旧，妖异且纯洁，便是这样的矛盾。

对Cop来说“算计”是核儿的话，“魔性”这个绝佳的网络用语就是“王子”的文眼（其实就是脚本就是很喜欢“魔性”这个词）。

他并不追求肉体欢合或美丽爱情，也不希望自己败给这种一定会依附于某一方，最后异化或被异化的体验。

这里所谓的异化，是指在与客人的相处中使对方沦陷，或自己沦为附庸。

因为是尊贵的“王子”所以必须统御（上级），因为是尊贵的“王子”所以必须下跪（下级）。

一旦陷入这样的角色中就难以自拔。

那张被暂时隐藏起来的动画CG中，“王子”明明作着这样那样的事却没有硬起来，便体现着脚本儿这样那样的小心思。

要他摒弃了上下级，转而追求平级的关系，说不定会毁掉至今为止“王子”所构筑的形象。

所以对小桑的那句“做朋友”，应该是真的产生了动摇吧。

其实说来说去，就是文学作品中红秀勾栏之所所描绘的故事那般，动情为忌。

不过脚本儿也明白，文学作品的往往会对描写的主题产生偏离与美化。

被剥削的肉体工作者们的痛苦，居然要以这样轻飘飘的口气讨论实在是畜生。

但毕竟要描写一名这样的角色，如何叫我不去站在他的立场去看问题？

如若不然，就成了局外人在说风凉话而已(刘平)*。

但话又说回来，本来也是出于冒犯创作出来的角色……咳咳。

“王子”是一名男色工作者，是以提供“欲望”和“快乐”为商品进行贩售的职介（Sex worker），亦是历史最为悠久的工种之一。

商品为性，赠品为爱。

据《宗教史》一书中的描述，古巴比伦的祝巫们会用神圣的体位与信徒们于祭坛之上**取悦神灵，并通过高潮得以让信徒叩见(Kryvelev)*。

而作为它曾经的祭祀者之一，“王子”大概会在这刹那间献上自己的祈祷，无比虔诚。

不管能不能闻到那浓郁的香火气，既然会对他人制造生命的过程如此津津乐道，那想必这神一定博爱的很。

至少“王子”是这么想的。

所以降下哪怕一丝恩惠或祝福，也强过淅淅沥沥的夜雨。

只是祈祷至今却也未见奇迹发生，不免惹得少年有些失望。

或许所谓神祗，只是单纯热衷于细胞生物学，处子怀胎，右胁降生这些能展示奇特色彩的绝活儿。

于是乎，神坛塌落，童子归凡还俗——

说了那么多，其实就是想解释，“王子”是我癖好下的产物。

他所拥有的个性也是一种癖好，不该与苦难混为一谈。

就连苦难与苦难也不该混为一谈，不然真比较出个高下该如何是好，只有赢了的人才能抱怨之类的吗？

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关于游戏开发的进度：

第三章红色线的故事其实仅写到一半。

原本预计是要做到两人抵达红街后，与“屠夫”发生冲突的桥段。

但却因感情戏的发展而耽搁，导致主线没能推进到预计的位置。

再加上蓝线和无色线都还没写完的压力……

当然，根本原因还是脚本儿的生产力太低，不然就能更早地以有限的笔力描写出“王子”身上特有的，性与爱的世俗化。

（也不至于开发日志都写不出来，被大半夜地抽鞭子，嘤嘤嘤）

游戏目前的进度很是落后，非常不乐观。

原本预计要这个月就开始的程序化也还不见个踪影。

而这一切都是因为我这个做脚本的还没写完，对此我没有任何能够辩驳的。

在这里还要给大家赔个不是。

原本很清晰的剧情脉络，为什么写起来这么磕磕绊绊的，不知道是不是任何写剧情的人都会遇到这种问题……

还请不用担心蓝色线与无色线的展开，绝不会因为红色线而被拖沓成两部分。

而红色线在第三章没有完成的内容也会顺挪到第四章，并按照原本规定的内容继续。

目前看来应该能顺利的在七章以内完结……当务之急自然是赶紧写，赶紧写才是。

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关于节日：

转眼又到了24日，距第一章发布已经3年了，时间真是够快的。

虽说没有这个传统，但是来张图庆贺庆贺也不是什么坏事。

节日是一年一次用来快乐的借口，在这里祝大家圣诞快乐🎄

*写的比较仓促，有些许需要修改的地方，到时再改正

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*《白貌的传导师》 by 虚渊玄

*Kryvelev, Yury A. 宗教史 [History of Religions]. Translated by Wang Xianrui et al., China Social Sciences Press, 1984.

*刘平. "近代娼妓的信仰及其神灵." 社会史, [2007], http://www.historychina.net/qsyj/ztyj/shs/2007-11-19/26363.shtml.

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