Astrid Adventures

Moody Contrast

Added 2023-07-21 00:30:46 +0000 UTC

I was having a moment that I needed to open up about. I felt like I had all this pent up emotion, but not a lot of words to get it out. I remembered how much modeling is my release. The contrast with the lighting was something I was playing with. This kind of lighting is always a bit sharp and I've been open about how it can often make me insecure, in the past. It's another reason I've pushed myself to try creating with it more. It's just another challenge to learn to create in. Since a part of me was playing, I let go of worrying about how I looked in the light, and focused on how I felt, and kinda performed for the light and camera. I wanted to see if posing in this way would be cathartic. In some ways it was, but ironically I feel more catharsis looking at them now then in doing them. I think that's in large part the power of art. While these collections aren't set up to be finished pieces alone, the modeling itself is my own art. Then I could choose now what related to me. I see myself in this, or at least how I felt when I made this. I can relate, and that's the kind of art I want to share and inspire for others too. How can we find and share ourselves?