If you haven't read that script, you can go ahead and do that now if you want. It's up by now over in the scripts section of these posts. You don't have to, but it might give you some context.
And, trigger warning for depression.
I've listened to a lot of depression comfort asmr roleplay. Most of them say a lot of the same things.
"I love you. You can do this. You're so strong. I'm proud of you. You can rest." They're comforting sometimes, don't get me wrong. It's nice to hear those things.
But I got tired of it. I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to be strong. Why were they proud of me?
I wanted an audio that was as unfeeling as I was. I was tired of someone caring that much. It doesn't make much sense if you haven't been there. But there comes a point where you just don't care, and you want someone to not care with you. Just so you won't feel so alone.
At least, that's how it was for me. I didn't want to be comforted. Not in the usual way, at least. I wanted a script that didn't make a big deal or a big show out of anything.
I think it is a good script. Maybe one day I'll work up the courage to record it. I really don't know. I'm not sure I'm ready for that part of my life to be out for all the world to see. I'll have to think long and hard about it.
Depression is serious business. It's not just moping around the house. It's a void that just sucks the life out of you until there's nothing left but a shell.
I won't talk about it too much. I just wanted to explain the script a little bit more. Maybe I'll talk more about it if I ever record or publish it.
But that's all for now. Hope you have a good day. :)