The future?
Added 2021-09-29 10:40:30 +0000 UTCI just posted a video on TikTok, and I probably should have posted it here first.
I'm extremely thankful for the support from all you guys, it is vital. But I'm very afraid I will not be able to continue as an artist, or trying to make my living off my art. I've been battling my bipolar for years, and I think I'm doing as good as anyone probably can on their own, but I'm not getting any actual, functioning help from the health care system here in Norway, I've not yet found any medication that works on me, and I'm loosing the battle.
Trying to make a living as an artist means constant hustling, commissions, trying to sell my art, and trying to please my fans. Trying to please you guys. And I love that part of it, but I'm not managing to do it properly.
The good periods have been good, and I've been able to pay off some debts once in a while, and help provide for my family. But the good periods are too few and far between. So all together, during my 17 years of trying to make it as a professional, my debts are slowly increasing, I'm falling behind on client work, selling and shipping, and the constant stress is poisoning my family life and mental health.
The first thing I need to do now is stop taking on any more client work, and any more new sales, because I can't be trusted to complete anything. I'm choking just thinking about it.
I've reached out to multiple people for help, and I have a tons of helpful family and friends, but it's just not adding up.
Once I'm done with the client work and shipping I need to finish now, I will probably look into things like selling off huge parts of my work to covers debts.
There are also a few other opportunities that I will follow.
But right now it's looking like I will have to find something else to do, within the year.
I will continue making my ink monsters, because they're good for my mental health, and I will see about posting things.
The help I get from you guys is needed more than ever, but it probably won't be enough to actually make a change. But thank you so much. So much.
I'm sorry. Depression is a bitch.
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It helps. Takk som faan, som dere sier.
2021-10-02 13:45:20 +0000 UTCI just joined after seeing your post on IG and procrastinating for months about signing up to your patreon. It sounds exhausting being in your situation, I truly hope decresing the amount of stressors might help a little bit. All kärlek från Sverige!
2021-10-02 13:43:56 +0000 UTCThank you so much, Helene. Hope you're doing well.
2021-10-01 18:01:37 +0000 UTCI had no idea you were dealing with depression and bipolar. I always saw something in you, sort of like a Robin Williams kind of thing, and now I know what it is. The funniest people tend to be the saddest, ironically. I created a patreon account just so I could support you, I don't have much since I'm on disability aid for mental health issues myself, but cases like yours hit home. My mother was bipolar, and she didn't make it.
Helene Kråvik Olsen
2021-10-01 17:59:08 +0000 UTC
