Uboa - 110-Montauk (for trans youth charity compilation)

Here is a complete remake of an old song "Montauk" (which I apparantly never uploaded here, and no longer seems to be on soundcloud...) done for a charity compilation for trans youth with most of my mates in the noise scene down under. The song... is a spooky one.

(artwork by Sarah Octavia Wulf Gault)

To quote the post on ig:

hi, already (!) have a 'new' song (a vastly redone old song from soundcloud) out - "110-Montauk". The situation happening to trans folk is just as horrifying as the title (if you know, you know) and the song I provided suggests. Link in bio.

Today I woke up to find out that an adult gender affirming care medicaid ban was passed in the US - and will likely become law. This comes after the UK supreme court decided we are "biologically male" and thus deserve to get felt up (thus, SA'd) by male police officers. So-called australia might be an inaccessible safe haven for now... but recently the queensland state government passed a puberty blocker/hrt ban for trans youth (and only trans youth). We cannot trust the labour party will not follow suit in the future - given the similarities to our labour party to that of the UK. Indeed we cannot trust the state and capital to save us.

The comp is run by @rippingnailsrecords and all proceeds go towards @opendoorsyouthservice - a service for LGBTiQ+ (and importantly: brotherboy/sistergirl) youth in queensland - where the youth gender affirming care ban is in effect.

I am so fkn sick of gnocide. If somebody has a comp fundraiser for Gz* coming up, I'll give a song/s to that too.

This comp of 58 songs features many of my dear friends, collaborators and band members: @teethdreamer @sereneailment @granpa_abela @twinsoulsoul @shallowsounds_aus, @whelve.rot @amamanitaaxaxaxanaxglassseer @hvg_core (and more - if I tag more folk the algo will yell at me, but leave a comment if you are on it so the algo likes the post).

The only solution to g*nocide is revolution. Get organised. 1312.

NO MORE DEAD QUEERS

❤️🍉🏳️‍⚧️

Anyway, here is a terrifying song. I was inspired by g-man from half life with the vocal delivery, in order to make it seem even... more unsettling. Features me playing a cello badly, zither, noise and a bunch of fucked noise and orchestral samples. It's very much attempting to capture the horror of the world at the moment - especially the horrors fascism, capitalism and imperialism have launched upon trans folk and Palestinians.


Here are the lyrics. Many are from a few years ago, with a bit of editing/mixing when performing them. It's more automatic writing straight from the id - with references to the "groomer" conspiracy theory (and fascism in general), my prior struggles with health anxiety and my current struggle with chronic illness. There are some references to german idealist philosophy there too. My unconscious probably understands it more precisely than I do. The main point is that is a nightmare. The world is falling into ruin - yet we must pretend things are normal. The final lyric however is about how we need to fight back.

the catboy gags up the 

groomer furball with skin 

white as bleached velvet

as he pisses blood on tits

as flat as the earth

playful tickle in the throat

of bloody clots of girllung

coughed up and spat out

tiny red sponges

coagulate on the sink

Dishes are done

light is not opposite, but sideways to dark

A truth is not a fact but

The the bone in the throat of liars

And the bacteria in the corner of your eyes

The severed tongue on the bathroom floor

Wet and glistening and twitching

I heard you caught herpes off a toilet seat

You were so healthy for so long 

let it crawl inside me

and pornography negatively weighted

grow a vulgar rose

let cancer quietly tickle

And torture a 

man as vain/vein as you

Be a syringe

in god’s wicked eye

I've posted the mp3 version for any poor queers in the free tier (you can already hear in its entirely anyway both here and BC) - but you'll need to donate to get the WAV version.