All the Dead Melt Down as Rain (mini-LP)
Added 2025-05-20 06:32:14 +0000 UTCHi everybody, here is my new 32-minute, 5-song mini-LP, All the Dead Melt Down as Rain. Paid patreon subscribers (and those too broke to subscribe) get this a few weeks before I pop it on bandcamp/spotify.

1 - Cleansed of Spirit
2- A Body, Shapeless and Divine
3 - Prole Ana
4 - A Misremembered Dream
5 - A Windowless House (Deconditioning)
You can download both 320 mp3 versions and uncompressed 24/48 WAV variants. Lyrics are included in the zip.
This is vaguely about my recent struggles with chronic illness (POTS, hEDS on top of AudHD) - but the lyrics are mostly more abstract and fictional. Many lyrics date back to 2018-19, but the songs were written in only a few days (with a few weeks for mixing tinkering) last/this month. I wanted to capture the sense of confusing, unpredictable dread that chronic illness often comes with - some of these songs are more intense than anything on Impossible Light, making this release more similar to The Origin of My Depression.
Additional personnel include Lulu Collard (my drummer, Serene Ailment) on junk percussion and Joanna Fang (emmy-award winning foley artist who works for Sony Playstation, whose work appears on many AAA titles such as Helldivers 2, God of War: ragnarock and Death Stranding 2 - her work will also appear on upcoming collective noise diary), who sent some foley art which became the basis of the first song (specifically, the engine-like metallic sounds and metal scraping). An extra thanks to Aki McCullough (for mixing/mastering feedback), Lauren Bousfield, Violet Aisling (as always), Alexandria Beckett, Cynth, Pewka and Autumn Halcyon (who helped me body-double this thing into existence, while making my bed).
Everything else - vocals, guitar, piano, noise, synth, field recordings, mixing and mastering by me, all done in my bedroom (minus piano, which is in my lounge room).
My ears and body and brain are tired - if there is are any issues with these mixes/masters, let me know. Also let me/the flenser know if cassettes would interest you.
Love y'all, stay healthy. Wear a mask in public.
Update 23/5/25 - note that the versions of "windowless house" and "a body, shapeless and divine" here are remastered, remixed and even slightly different (better imo).
-Xandra
WAV version here: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/6cdoeaagemtgjrstzid4d/Uboa-A-Body-Shapeless-and-Divine-2025-WAV-24-48.zip?rlkey=6us68eono1ft5nrdl4ufc2a85&dl=0
edit: will be on streaming with a new mix/master on june 27th! y'all get the new master for free on the same day (its slightly clearer, less clickly, vocals occasionally louder and guitars sound better in prole ana).
Comments
update: tapes are happening! will give details when I can :)
Uboa
2025-06-02 20:50:38 +0000 UTCthe bust/boom dynamics of my music were never intentional, but often come naturally of me getting 'fatigued' by the heavy sections - hence an ambient section after... until boredom sets in. its like PEM kinda dictates my songwriting now lol
Uboa
2025-05-24 17:38:05 +0000 UTCAbsolutely stunning work. I am speechless. Bravo.
Jean Marquier
2025-05-24 13:49:35 +0000 UTCThis is so intensely beautiful & devastating. I think you captured the chronic illness chaos well. The distortion in the album feels very similar to how I experience ME/CFS crashes, that odd shimmer the exhausted brain gives everything, the static when you try to stand up. Thank you for continuing to make and share your music. And I appreciate your mask comment, we gotta keep us safe <3
helen
2025-05-23 16:45:32 +0000 UTCyou're spot on with your analysis. I've always had intense, vivid dreams - and POTS/hEDS/(maybe)CFS impact my sleep quality so I have less of them. I miss them dearly. Even the ones that start off interesting, and end with me usually being sucked into a tornado (probably my main recurring dream!).
Uboa
2025-05-23 15:52:19 +0000 UTCI love A Misremembered Dream so much ❤ Perfectly encapsulates the experience of a blissful dream while being unaware of how it is very slowly beginning to bend, distort and come apart as you approach the moment of waking up. You open your eyes and the surreal confusion of the tail end is what remains while you struggle to grasp for the former secure feeling of bliss... before it all collectively disappears into a wisp and eventually a void. Hypnopompia I think is the term for the process.
untitled.
2025-05-23 13:32:36 +0000 UTCI also bought a subscription to listen to this album. I'm very happy I did. also, YES I WANT A CASSETTE, ARE YOU KIDDING ME I USED TO PRAY FOR TIMES LIKE THIS
cyber crashers tv
2025-05-20 14:04:11 +0000 UTCI’ve never bought a patreon before but I heard you released a new record so I have to listen and I’m so excited ❤️
Miles Meeker
2025-05-20 13:08:26 +0000 UTCI love it. I needed it. And thank you so much for including the lyrics with annotation. I find immense irony in me having been out of the loop on this work being in the making due to my health including the resulting deconditioning and the death of a loved one.
F.M.R
2025-05-20 10:11:24 +0000 UTCHell yeah
Kian MacLeod
2025-05-20 06:33:38 +0000 UTC