Impossible Light Photoshoot

I was going to put more up from the photoshoot with Taran I'm still looking for where I actually saved them on my HDD/email and I am tired. Anyway, here are some photos from the photoshoot with Frankie Pan (or effpan). We shot these at Magnet Studios (which has sadly closed, thanks cost-of-living crisis!) who had this giant concrete room called the "Spatial Studio". We took a lot of photos. It was very cold in there. Wish it was still around as the reverb was incredible. We were also originally going to do a music video for Gordian Worm ... but my health simply kept getting in the way, and I had to cancel the date several times before eventually admitting defeat.

Here is the OG cover image.

The theme was "evil government captures/creates psychic girl to experiment on her". Like Lucy of Elfen Lied or Galatea of Bubblegum Crisis 2040 or Rei from NGE - probably a billion other examples in anime/games as its a common trope. Being a psychic (aka autistic) chronically ill girl with medical trauma as capitalism slowly somehow becomes more authoritarian makes that stuff kinda relatable. Especially given all the medication thrown at me based on misdiagnoses that made me worse. Never take Olanzapine.

The hospital gown I got off Amazon. Been a while since a hospital actually helped me during a crisis, usually when folk with chronic health issues go to hospital, the ER doctors have no clue what's going on and say 'it's all in your head'. This has happened so often I got pretty bad medical trauma from it, and generally don't trust the healthcare system by default. This is why I have so much hospital imagery all over my work - my little revenge. The cover of The Absolute, for example, was when a nurse fucked up a blood test and blood launched everywhere. I can't even recall why I was there, as I had a monthly hospital visit during the pandemic years. Once they dumped me (literally) on the floor during a PNES seizure in the waiting room from the ambulance, I couldn't move properly and I was just on the dirty carpet - likely covered in COVID viral particles. Fun! I love capitalist healthcare! I am going to keep using hospital imagery and singing about how awful they are for spoonies until hospitals and preventative healthcare actually get adequately funded. So I'll likely be doing it forever.

If I actually got psychokinetic powers that can crumple tanks maybe all the trauma would actually be worth it. (I got lyrics about it in an upcoming song lol)

Anyway, here are some of the "extra" photos in decent resolution (unless Patreon squishes them). Makeup, hair and outfit by me, as I was too broke to hire anybody other than Frankie (who also did lighting). Some you'll probably have seen before. The last one was a shout-out Hiss Spun (well before I was offered the impossible tour) with my hand bent at some forsaken hypermobile angle. Speaking of hEDS, my knees were bruised for like two weeks after all this kneeling on concrete. Ow. Worth it tho.