bits and peaces

2.4 today.

Yesterday I ended up just spriting instead of writing. Just a little sidetracked on a littler project for Reborn. Oops.
Oh, but who am I kidding, no one here wants to hear about Reborn things...

Actually, it has been nice to be able to have that to go back to and poke at from time to time.
My relationship to the project is quite different now that I have something else I'm "supposed" to be doing.
It probably helps that the new team has been really proactive about handling all the incoming cats from the community so I don't have to worry about that, but...
I mean, if I feel like adding something, I can.
And otherwise, there's no pressure.

With making something new, there's a lot of pressure.
I have to get it all the way to the point of being playable, public, finished-- whatever other benchmark is there.

In the distant past I've talked about the concept of development debt.
Whenever I decide to Do Something, I thereby Create a lot of work that just Needs To Be Done.
It is a debt that has to be paid off through work over a long period of time.
Although I enjoy the work, when it comes to actualizing things, that aspect of it kind of sucks.

So I guess at this point working on Reborn is just like, spending resources on something when I'm not underwater already.
Like making a purchase on debit rather than credit. Way less stressful.

Anyway, I hate this metaphor. Finances are suffocating literally everyone I know.
Maybe it's like suddenly feeling like cleaning just because you have homework you should be doing.
Ultimately the point is that my relationship with whatever my focal project is still feels a little bit tainted.
I'm not sure how to sort that out while working within dedicated goals and practices.
But at least this isn't so bad-- things get done either way, eventually.