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sHoOtInG tHe FiRsT MV

Just got back from our all night MV shoot for Crush! I am so tired I want to die lol we shot from 10pm-6am. All my internal dread about not being able to perform was for naught, all the footage looks SO COOL and I'm honestly just so thrilled and grateful. Everyone was asking me leading up to the shoot how I was feeling and the truth was just so nervous, it's just such a short time and such a large investment and it feels so important that it turns out well and yeah!! you guys!! all the footage looks so good!! I can't wait for everyone to see it!

Right now my plan is to try and fall asleep before 8am. Sleep a solid 5 hours. Wake up and run errands for our second music video (Bad Ideas, which by the way we're still looking for a marching snare drum set up if anyone in the St Louis area has one or knows someone who has one), hopefully be super tired and go to sleep again by 10 to wake up early so I can reset my clock to wake up before the sun comes up for a early morning Bad Ideas shoot on Tuesday and Wednesday.

In other news, we hit $7000 on Patreon!! which means I'll be releasing the demos for three of my songs that I originally sent to Seth before producing them! Never planned for anyone to hear these so they're super sloppy and lazy haha, when I play for Seth I know he's just listening to the song not the performance so they're not things I ever thought people would hear! Are there any songs you'd really like to hear more than others? I don't still have the demos for everything (and some songs never had demos i just played them for Seth in person) but I'll do my best to accommodate!

If we can hit $7500 I will be able to hire the one, the only, Shawna Howson (of nanalew fame) as an editor for one of these music videos! Shawna is truly a prolific editor and I loooooove to work with her, we've just been squeezing the budget so tight on the front end there's so little left for post right now! Thank you for all the support so far! Truly this is changing the shape of what this launch would have been. <3<3

Gonna go sleep the shortest amount I can to not feel like death but still be tired tonight.

PS You can follow my director Isaac on instagram here!

sHoOtInG tHe FiRsT MV

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We found two!! No meet up this time but i hope to play there someday soon!

Tessa Violet

I think I still have Haze!! I'd love to share that one. I remember I just played On My Own for Seth when I got in that day.

Tessa Violet

I'm glad to hear i could help in any way, Ariel!! I think that would be a huge struggle to shift countries and cultures, not at all something to sneeze at. That's a EXTREMELY hard thing to do!

Tessa Violet

good one

Tessa Violet

Thanks, Mark! We didn't hit the goal before the end of the month but I made room in the budget to bring her on board anyway haha. She's so talented!!

Tessa Violet

idk, Shawna isn't a bad idea... might mess up the album theme?

I really hope you get Shawna involved; I still keep up with both of you guys on the Youtubes, and I miss you working together :)

I'd LOVE to hear demos of Haze or On My Own!!! Though i'll be happy with anything!! I just really like getting to hear demos. Its so cool hearing a songs original concept compared to the finished thing &lt;3

Rye Washington

$7,600 .. well that escalated quickly

Hey Tessa! My name is Ariel. I just turned 16 and I moved from China two years ago. Your music and vlogs truly inspired me. When I first moved to America by myself, I experienced (I don't want to use the word "struggle" since I know that this is just part of my experience) anxiety and some..depressed feelings. Don't wanna make it sound cheesy or dramatic haha. Anyways, I accidentally ran into you on YouTube through your vlogmas videos. Then I discovered "On My Own" and "Haze". I felt so related to the lyrics -- "damn this is my song!!" I watched many of your vlogs. Just listening to you talking about random stuff makes me so much more relax. Especially when you say "It's okay. It's fine. I'm fine. We're fine." For some reasons, these words just stick in my head. Whenever I got overwhelmed by some little things, your words just popped up in my head. My aneity has relieved so much in the past few weeks. And I really like how you talked about self worth and trusting people. I can relate to that and it makes me think about how I should approach these situations. Anyways, I don't expect that you are going to read this. But I just wanna say thank you. I just ordered your signed Polaroid. (it'll be a daily reminder for my anxiety as well--don't worry, it's okay, we're okay!!) Tessa, you are truly talented and I hope more people will hear your music and love them like I do! Thank you! You made a difference. &lt;3--Ariel

Lmk if you're doing a meetup in St. Louis while you're here! Don't know anyone who would have a snare drum unfortunately :/

Sarah Manuel

assuming 'stretching back to MTMT' includes MTMT

ah, make me a robot then for sure, my fav song.

I mean from any of my projects stretching back to MTMT!

Tessa Violet

Can’t wait to watch these 😁

Jimofthee the mimic man

Well, then I really hope you hit the $7500 mark so you can get Shawna to do the Edit. That would be awesome. Praying that everything will go well for the nest shoot. Blessings &amp; Peace.

'Are there any songs you'd really like to hear more than others?' Good question Tessa but a reminder; most of us don't know a track list to pick from apart from the few that have been mentioned haha. From those that have been mentioned I'd like to hear a demo / memo / thoughts from the title track - bad ideas - seeing as you named the record after it.


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