XaiJu
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A little more detail on my two-year absence.

Now, after a two-year break from production, I have fully recovered and resumed my activities. I'd like to elaborate a bit.


There had been signs of this for some time, but after ignoring them with a flurry of energy and enthusiasm, I began to experience concrete problems with my production.

That timing, the release of the album "Kikuo Miku 6," the sudden buzz around "Love Me, Love Me, Love Me," and the support of Patreon and FANBOX gave me the opportunity to take a break and rest.

The crux of the cure is exactly that I got the time to heal at the right time, when it was possible to start again without any after-effects.


However, the actual diagnosis was not made until after I was cured.

In other words, it was only after I was completely healed that I realized that I was sick, and I went to a psychosomatic medicine to ask whether I was sick or not, and in the end, I was diagnosed with adjustment disorder or mild depression, which was to be expected.


How did I spend my time? I went to counseling, adjusted my living environment, read, meditated, and carefully sorted out my trash-like state of mind one by one.


I was told that the direct cause of my problems was the stress of interacting with people through my work.

I originally started my music career to make game music, so it was my dream and longing to work with a lot of people and media. It seems that I'm not suited for it at all, and life doesn't go the way I want it to.


So, I didn't expect it to take two years to fully recover.

As for the production, I keep hearing songs in my head, but I don't know whether they are good or bad, or what I'm supposed to do with them, so I can't make a choice, and I can't move forward. It manifested itself in the form of a seemingly common slump. As a result of losing my train of thought, my room and clothes became completely white, which was interesting.

It also caused a wide range of problems in my life.


It was a problem that would have occurred at some point in the future, so it seemed like the best time for treatment.

I wanted to end with "I'm cured, and I've uploaded my return work" instead of "I think I'm cured, and I think I can make it now," so I'm sorry for the long wait.

Thank you. Look forward to hearing more of my new music! :)

Comments

Thank you for your hard work, although I'm much more happy to know that you've spent all this time resting. Rest is important when making art, music, or any creative project, I think. Wherever your "music journey" takes you next, I want to be able to support you (by helping you afford vegetables, haha)!

Rivers

真的很喜歡您的作品

李翊平


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