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It’s official. I’m done with KPOP reactions.

Heyyy guys 👉🏼👈🏼…don’t be scared by the title lol - just want to be transparent with y’all cause I love y’all and I always want to be upfront with you.

Most of you saw that I recently started posting back on YouTube. Streaming on Twitch has helped me regain my energy back to reacting to KPOP. I genuinely did feel much better and had a new found inspiration for it, but the minute I came back to YouTube I started feeling the same things I felt before. Nothing really changed and at the end of the day it’s too much of a trigger for my mental health.

So I’m done posting music reactions on YouTube. I think it’s time for me. I kept fighting to keep going, but at the end of the day it’s hurting me more than helping me.

I will still be keeping up with my main groups and those reactions to those comebacks, albums reviews, etc will ONLY be uploaded here. PATREON is the only space where I’m met with respect. I can post here and know that you guys won’t tear me apart so from now on my Music reactions will be exclusive to here only.

My main focus will shift to my second channel CBTV. That’s where I’ll be pouring a lot of my energy into. I’m hoping to make that the main channel eventually. It will be a process but it’s 10 times better than the KPOP space on YouTube.

Eventually down the road I would like to re-upload my old reactions from YouTube onto here and then delete the KPOP channel altogether so it’s no longer connected to me.

I have reached my limited and I just want to move on at this point.

Thank you all for ALWAYS being there for me and not just the content I provide. I really appreciate it and I promise to keep delivering quality content over here for you guys as a thank you. Couldn’t do it without you.

See you all soon with more uploads! 🫶🏽

Comments

I've been a part of the community for a long time and know how taxing it can be on a reactor's health when the K-pop community decides to make things difficult for them. I'm sorry that it no longer feels like a safe space for you, but I'm glad you're protecting your peace. Ive been following you for a while, but only got Patreon today because I missed seeing your raw content unfiltered, and I don't regret it (my wallet does, though I'm kidding, I swear). I hope you're okay, and good job for doing what you needed to do.

NotSure

It saddens me that the youtube kpop community has not been a hospitable place for you, so much so that you have had to exit and re-join the sphere over and over again. But just as you said it was hurting more than helping you, so i wish you the best success and will give continued support. I hope you still find happiness and escape in your main groups and remember to do what make you happy. Much love and respect!

Jlee

I totally understand! I subscribed to your Patreon today because I enjoy your reactions and want to support you.

Amanda G

I asked her a similar question one time and she said that YouTube takes forever to post videos. They’ll come back eventually, but not right away. Hope this helps!

Megan McElveen

Hoping you'll post your prev exo reactions from yt here🙏🏻🥺 especially the mvs🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Sharina Castillo

Hey, Caitliiiin, genuine question like I'm an eri for more than a decade now and I can feel how u react to exo ever since your first look on them but I've noticed that ever since your main yt channel came back the playlist for exo reactions especially the mvs are gone🥺🥺 your exo reactions on yt was the one that saved me from my post partum🥺 I really hope the exo mv reaction playlist could back up soon🙏🏻🥺

Sharina Castillo

So glad you've got a plan that puts you first!! Good luck with the migration of your videos - can't wait to see your old videos again. I'm one of those weirdos that loves to watch your reactions over and over, they just bring me so much joy. But if they don't ALSO bring you joy, what's the point, ya know? Tysm for planning to post big comebacks (monsta xxxxx guuurl) while you work on the change over to Patreon and CBTV!!

KTB

Luv u, Caitlin!!! Been your yt subscriber ever since u reacted to exo and everytime they releases anything I'm always waiting for your upload. Glad to know I was able to afford your patreon subs for kpop reactions🫶🏻🫶🏻

Sharina Castillo

I love you so freaking much, Caitlin. I don’t know why, but I feel like you’re my closest friend. I always try not to listen to the albums or watch the mvs until you react to them, so it feels like I’m experiencing them with my best friend. I know it might sound weird.😭😭

Esther

hope you are doing great

Esther

We understand. I hope you could post your old videos soon❤️

Angela Sainz


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