10/4/25

Hallo everynyan!!

here's some doodles i did during the past week.. my painting skills are rusty again but thats expected since im artblocked 😭😭i always get mega art blocked when a new season start cuz all my creative energy's going towards writing the webtoon.. just imagine me being lobotomized while i draw these cause my head was legit just empty and i'm not even happy with how i color anymore😢😢😢 like there was a period where i was churning out super crazy paintings with so many fun colors bc i was experimenting and now i fell off so bad bro i can't even draw those cute cherie crush portraits i used to do anymore, the ones with super bright colors now everything just looks so fucking muddy to me 😭 i can't even say i need to lock in anymore bc I AM LOCKED IN just on the webtoon and not painting.. still i hope you guys will like these doodles even though theyre kinda lame af...

There's been a lot of things on my mind lately but i dont wanna complain too much (says guy who complain every post) but seeing how da webtoon readership fell off is kind of freeing..? like i spent literal months being anxious about the launch flopping and now that it actually flopped im like wao ok my worst nightmare happened and i'm fine?? and i'm still alive and i still have the motivation to draw..? so who gaf?? i dont have to worry about falling off anymore bc i already fell off YAY!! it's like worrying about the flop was worse than actual flop so now that i've accepted that im a flop everything's suddenly okay again.. kinda like when u reach rock bottom the only way is up, it can't get any worse than this right ?(clueless) 😭I'm joking of course but i was surprised at how many webtoon readers didn't remember that Cherie had a sister??sdafkjaskjn like the last episode with Anh in the flashback people were so surprised and i was reminded of the reality that nobody reads just ONE webtoon , people have multiple series they follow and the stories probably blend together for them, i don't think they're bad readers or anything i'm always happy people are reading my comic though, i am writing the comic for binge readers so plot amnesia's gonna happen more often regardless, there's over 100+ episodes atp i can't expect everyone to remember everything about every character 😭 that's why i rarely stray from Cherie and Crush in the comic bc if the POV doesn't involve them nobody's gonna gaf..

I think as I grow older i become more anxious about time and death and all that stuff, like when first started cherry crush i was just writing random shit to pass the time, but the longer it went the more invested i got into it as a piece of my life, i feel like if i die tomorrow this stupid yaoi is gonna be my legacy and i'm not proud of it in its current state.. i'll be proud of it when i finish it, i see artists my age having webtoon deals and doing cons and all of them have like 3-4 series under their belt and i have ONE and i can barely finish it without bitching and moaning, i'm sorry guys i said im not gonna complain and im complaining again.. In other news I just really wish u guys will like season 4, and that u'll have faith in me to finish it well. Doing Cherry Crush is so fun and creatively fulfilling for me that if i had to do it all over again i 100% would, i do wanna do cons when i finish the webtoon though.. maybe ill have like some charms and prints and shit and i'll do cons until i run out of merch or sth.. I just miss being outside and having friends so bad THIS SOUNDS SO PATHETIC IM SORRY SDKJFNAKJN

Anywayss holy yap.. thank you so much for supporting me always i hope you enjoy these flop paintings i'll try to do better next time, and the next post might be a shorts compilation bc i forgot to cancel my capcut subscription again so i have to get my moneys worth 💀💀have a good weekend everynyan i lav you alwaysmwahamwah