9-1-1 5X15: FOMO

So, I hate that this episode is causing me to question my life. May and I seem kindred that way. How do you know if you are living the life you want? The life you sought out? What if you just stumbled into your existence and went with it? Ugh. I do not want to be obsessing over this. Thanks, 9-1-1. 🙄

I also kind of strongly connected with Karen in this episode. She's feeling her age, but doesn't want it to hold her back from enjoying her life. She spent much of her 20s getting a PhD, and her 30s building her career, and now she feels like she missed out on a lot of things from her youth. And while I can relate, I would not want to be in my 20s again. My 30s, sure, but no younger than that. I often forget how old I am, because in my mind, I'm probably in my late 20s, but my body often reminds me I'm actually in my mid 40s (yes Hen, this is actually middle aged). And I do love that Karen and Hen managed to get a little bit of what Karen needed on the 'who's the credit card thief outing.'

May has found out that she cannot defer any longer from USC. If she wants to keep her spot, she's basically got to head back now. And while she didn't want a definitive decision, I think she going.

Maddie feels guilty and like she's a bad mom because she missed so many of Jee-Yun's 'firsts.' Chim insists that he documented all of them so she would be able to look back on. She thinks this is sweet, but still feels terrible about it. Thankfully, Buck tells her that Maddie isn't the only child she raised. She raised him too, and he turned out fine. Later in the episode, Maddie and Chim get a new first of Jee feeding herself, and Maddie telling Chim not to film it. It's really sweet.

Also, I didn't actually hate Lucy this episode. I didn't realize how much I hadn't been enjoying her, until she didn't bother me. Lol.