aevilian

https://aevilian.bandcamp.com/album/wandering-the-canyons

these songs are going up to spotify as we speak. these are some of the earliest songs I released on the internet. I made all of them in august 2012, shortly after I started to seriously record songs and upload them to the internet. I called the album "wandering the canyons" because I felt like where I was in my life, compared to my entire past up until then, was a very low point. I was very nostalgic about my childhood and for the first time I was aware of how bright things were the younger I was. I believed that I was hollowed out but I was honestly being really stupid. when i think back on being 15 I was absolutely full of life that I just didn't recognize

"the night sky" is probably about how when I was a kid I used to love climbing onto the roof of my house and watching the stars in the night sky. I would stargaze for hours on warm summer nights. this song was created august 22 2012 at 12:52 PM but I do remember I would play the piano part a lot months before I made the song
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"a crib luminance of clean filth" I truly do not know wtf this means. it probably made a lot more sense back then, but I recall that it's extremely pgramatic and has a very abstract meaning that came straight from my stream of unconciousness. I'm saying a lot of things throughout the song that I had written back in 2012 and I'm sorry but it's kind of cringe and I don't want to share. I'll share some lines though:

"...A long road in a dark forest doesnt tell you where youll go but eventually youll get lonely and the darkness of the outside takes over your body, and you become one with the night..."

"...I feel like im shrinking but i know im growing into something massive. Blood like floor and look at your hands, they trace a point of view from a side of your brain thats in sleep paralysis, hypnagogic nightmare/ dream. I picture birds, stone birds that can fly with ornateness. i picture myself flying with them over uncharted lands and i reflect with sombre and exultant memories of a landscape and a skyline and a little child holding his heart pinned to the ground by gravity. Gravity and love. Love is zeal and paroxysm. Love changes on a spectrum with age, i remember a young girl is like a sun..."

"...a Beautiful girl ensares my mind and thought and its more surreal feeling than anything present day....."

I had taken these words from thought diaries that for a long time were my bio on my facebook but you won't find it since it's on private now. really just my general thoughts

this song was created Wednesday, August 22, 2012 at 10:00 PM and finished Thursday, August 23, 2012 at 5:26 PM

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"Mountains in Dusk" is simply a title I added to a piano piece I programmed. I don't remember if there was a specific moment I felt inspired by mountains in dusk, but the sight and thought of such has always been very beutiful to me.

this song was created Saturday, August 25, 2012 at 9:19 PM
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"hue of sunset" this is really, exatlly what the title implies. I love the sunset. if there was more inspirational context I simply don't remember, but it was probably just a simple afinity with sunset colors so I decided to make it the title

this song was created Saturday, August 25, 2012 at 3:40 PM and finished Saturday, August 25, 2012 at 5:40 PM
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"childhood" this ties in what I talked about in the beginning. I have always been a very nostalgic person but at this time (when I was 15) I was particularly nostalgic for my childhood. what would be for me ages 0-10. there was genuinely nothing I thought about more every day than remembering my childhood and yearning for that purity again and feeling a deep sadness and disappointment feeling like it wasn't going to return. this was probably the first time in my life I thought about my chidhood in such a magnified way. it was my absolute cathexis

this song was created Wednesday, June 20, 2012 at 9:34 PM (apparently,) howebver I do remember working on the majority of this in august