liminal dream - liminal fire

okkkk...... my mind is a chaotic disorganized mess right now and I cannot think straight
and this song in particular is extremely dense with a huge backstory that I am physically incapable of recounting right now. maybe on a later day I'll talk more about this song, but basically.....
i recorded the instrumental on june 30 2015. this is 100% inspired by my favorite tatu song "pokazhi mne lyubov" which I would listen to on repeat for an entire month. this was also made from my indescribable feelings and disassociation
fast fowrward years later and I brought together many pieces of lyrics which were things I had written on facebook that in some way capture this literal liminal fire , almost in the same way I felt it in 2015, but also the way it can be felt from so many different times and lives and stories. this is all I will say for now because there's so much else I could say that I realy just, right now is not the time tbh. also the part at 5:38 was inspired by this one time in my sophomore year of highschool we were watching a movie for history class and the soundtrack played this melody on the strings but in my headphones I was listening to this one Pathology song (i think it might have been afterlife??) that played chuggy chords in that progression and it fit really well and i thought wow i wanna do that

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the story that every 3 morning, in the blue twilight, swimming

as densely in unanswers and sadness

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in everything performed, walking formlessly on the elevated roadplatform, higher dimension at the perfect angle to read magic light

words as greenchime organization raining from a translucent ceiling and only if your hands can raise towards it even if not to reach you will feel the sprinkling rain such if your hands have colored rivers bleeding

there is a fire in anything and everything

could see

I want to see

burning memories and attachment

this fire beyond season in a liminal dream

why was i floating in it then?

so many years ago

and dreams have no time

slow burning water all around me