damianojeda

burning gardens

Added 2021-12-11 03:22:59 +0000 UTC

where do I begin with this one.. this song is on fire. this song is me being on fire. i started it in summer of 2015 (august 4th apparently). the title was immedeately "burning gardens" without having lyrics or any specific idea in my head, I'm not sure where exactly it came from, but something about combining the beauty of burning and beautify of garden flowers seemed interesting to me I suppose. I was inspired by the band "indian summer" who would sample old lo-fi blues recordings underneath their songs so I decided to do the same with the intro. my "old song" sample couldn't have been more perfect; abbey lincoln's "left alone". I don't even know how I found this but it's like I was meant to. (the titles coinciding is purely coincidence since I started left alone long before I discovered the song the loneliness she talks about in the lyrics sounds so much like the loneliness I talk about in all of my left alone songs. not only that but the songs is just beautiful and literally the perfect sample I could have ever found to write a song over. I edited the song to where you could only really hear her singing, and that's where I started making burning gardens, playing the clean guitar over it. the rest of the song came naturally with 0 thought going into it, just pure energy channeling. I guess I was inspired by abbey lincoln jazz and decided to put "jazzy" bits in other parts of the song? it's clear in my music that everything is entirely made up on the spot and improvised because I'm always leaving my mistakes in the recordings, but especially in my older music I didn't even care/didn't notice, everything about my music is purely about raw expression and not the tedious process of "perfecting" a performance. I had no real experience performing or writing "jazzy" music before this so this remains probably the first time I ever tried doing that. probably my favorite part of the song is when I'm singing clean vocals during the second half "here, in the dreaming garden...." and specifically when I sing "...and light is so lucid". it may seem to me now that this song is huge mess of styles but I don't think there's anything wrong with it. the very ending captures something deep inside of me that feels otherwordly and burning. the whole song is burning. everything about this burning. when I wrote the lyrics i imagined rainy autumn nights like where I used to live, where the sky is literally burnig, deep oranges and reds, burning as incomprehensibly as the mystery that is me, and everything feels like dreaming. burning as incomprehensibly as 2015 me. the part with the dreaming garden is this space, like literally a dreaming garden. imagine a garden and as far as your eyes can see there's nothing else, only a srhoud of white, like the soft rain that nurtures the flowers, the sound of breathing. this touches something deep in my past that I felt when i was a little kid. there are a lot of indivisible sentiments in this song that I wouldn't even know how to desribe in words, just listen.

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burning gardens

I’ll have the november leaves

in petrichorus rite

the sky is burning

flames stretch across the sky as far as the eye can see

what had once been the despair

“no place to which to run”

november branches against the cold autumn aria

I’m left alone…

...the autumn leaves, the distance

the scar sounds