Mooing into the void
Added 2024-09-07 01:42:47 +0000 UTC"I...I can't do this. Listen, I appreciate that you're trying to treat me like I'm no different, like nothing's changed. Just going for walks in the woods like we always used to...but...god damn it, look at me! I'm a fucking cow! I'll never be used to this...this animalistic body. Hairy, unwieldy...every waking moment, I'm walking around feeling like an alien in my own skin. Teats jostling around...feel like I'm constantly wearing high heels with these hooves...a mouth built for ripping grass off the ground. YOU try facing this reality for the rest of your life!
Even when I'm with you...you try to treat me the same, and I can tell you're making an effort, but we both know it can't ever be like it used to. Like...I've noticed you avoid touching my udder, like it freaks you out, or you're trying to spare me that touch...that reminder that it's always there. You're right that every time I'm forced to acknowledge this stupid fleshy thing, I feel like a gross animal. But we can't be fully intimate if you're not comfortable with ALL of me...but then, I'M not comfortable with me either.
I don't know how to deal with any of this, but I don't have a choice, either. So I guess I'm venting...mooing into the void, as if it'll make any difference."
