Maria Ochoa

CDN Art: 2018

Added 2023-03-29 22:30:31 +0000 UTC

I apologize for these posts because they feel sadder than the first two years. But I wanted to be honest with the experiences I had, both good and bad! So here we go!

I feel like this was the year where I started to really get burnt out. There was a big plot several people were doing but it was slow going because there were so many ideas and input from various players. I remember ideas were scrapped or I was told to hang tight because my character might be needed later. I really wanted to join but it felt like my characters were not meshing well. When asking for advice I was told by a couple of people that my characters were too high up in a tower to mingle with others. I did not know how to take it other than to try and change them drastically. I made a plot where Lydia became homeless so she could be on a "level" playing field with other characters. I got permission to make a community/town in Nos Dwicka called BABETOWN to try and make a neutral ground for characters to meet who didn't want to be all action. But looking back on things, I think it boiled down to players wanting to do action related things which FAIR. I've always been a wacky slice of life player.

At this point I didn't want to draw anymore. I closed my Scribe of Tuchanka blog because looking at my art made me feel angry at myself. I beat myself up a lot that I was a terrible person. My characters were awful, I was awful. What was I doing wrong that no one wanted to approach them?

I want to emphasize I never intended my writing or character situations to appear unreachable. I did art, and posts with the hope they were interesting enough to get people talking.