Returning in August

My brain is absolutely swimming with story ideas and thoughts regarding my writing lately. I'm working on preparing and gearing up to re-open this patreon soon.

When August arrives, I will be opening up my writing efforts to commissions out of raw necessity of survival. I did not have success at this when I attempted it 12 or 13 years ago, but I will give it an honest try and see how it goes. On top of my health issues, I seem to have some level of social anxiety that is preventing me from clocking in or working a regular job. I had a hard time in corporate IT America and it seems to have effected me quite a lot, so continuing my writing seems to be my only and best option for now and I'm happy that this seems to be the case. I don't feel I've given my writing a long enough effort to walk away from it yet. I also truly love creating this art and always have.

My main issue lately is my physical health, that makes me quite feeble in general. I have no idea how long it will last and I'm fine with it and I've accepted it. Some days I'm fine, and other days, I'm entirely not. I'll just be a totally exhausted cripple on the floor that can't really get up off the floor even if I want to. I'm just riding this out as I can and trying to be fine with it. I burned myself out quite badly trying to maintain a high volume of writing and productions while very sickly, so I won't be repeating that same mistake this time. I'll be taking it a lot easier to make sure I hopefully don't burnout and leave the world of writing.

I'm not trying to make myself seem scarce, but I think I will aim for just one commissioned work and one non-commissioned work per month to start. If you want to queue up on my list of people that want a commissioned work, simply contact me here and let me know what you were thinking and make an official request. It will operate on a first come first serve basis, to make it fair for everyone. The only exception will be for one individual 12 years ago that I failed to create a commission for. If that individual contacts me, and they know who they are, I will move them to the very top of the list. That will be the only one-time exception ever. Otherwise, whoever has contacted me with an official request will be added to the queue list on a purely first come first serve basis. I will reserve your spot and honor that reservation completely, treating everyone equally, big or small.

I am not skillful at "marketing" or "business" so I have to lean on others for information in that area, and I'm told by a very credible source that the going rate for a commission is $75 dollars per 1,000 words. Please feel free to give feedback or commentary on that price. I'm not setting that price in order to "get rich," I'm only trying to make my writing viable and hopefully pay my rent. I will be losing money and living my life "in the red" as I work on these works for now, hoping that things might change in the future. I live a very frugal life and don't spend anything on myself at all that is not raw necessity of survival. I was lucky enough to get clothes, a car, rice cooking machine, and other such things while working at my high-paying IT job, so there is nothing I need to buy. I'm not someone that needs any luxury, and I'm quite happy just to eat and have a roof and deeply grateful for those two things.

There are a number things that I will refuse to write about, and those topics will be sent to you by private message if you contact me. Some of them are obvious no-brainers, but there will be more. I can't write about things that make me squeamish or uncomfortable.

I suffered from serious burn-out, because I was pressuring myself tremendously and focusing on quantity of works with the mantra of "must have a new post every five days." I got feedback that it was noticeable that I was repeating sentences and writing as if "padding an essay" and that was a very fair and accurate criticism, because I really was pressuring myself massively to produce a high volume of content at a rapid frequency. It obviously burned me out, especially with my poor health.

The billing will resume at the end of this month of July 2025. This time around, I will be taking it easy and focusing more on raw quality and prevention of burn-out. I hope to create potentially the best works I have ever created soon. Thanks for sticking with me everyone. I'm surprised you are all still here and I'm very happy and grateful for that. I hope I can make you smile a lot in the future.

Looking forward to returning to this soon in August. Much love.