Summary: I just felt like jerking off after stream.
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
(art by Junsei Chuurenpoutou)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Man, I am just super cranky today. I don't know what it is. I had a good night's rest, I'm being very productive this morning. I'm drinking my coffee just the way I like it. Everything should be fine. But there's nevertheless this slight pressure in my head where I feel just a little bit on edge for no reason at all.
Something that I feel like has definitely changed as I've gotten older is that I feel like my emotions are more focused on the outside world than on myself when I'm in these moods. I don't know if that's a sign of me getting more arrogant and stultified as I age, or if it's just me getting more aware of the state of the world in general, but I just am less likely to ruminate on what's going on with me and more wonder what it is that's happening in the world that's making me like this. Does that make any sense?
I try my best to meditate at some point in the morning amidst the morning rush of busywork. Just ten to fifteen minutes at the very least. But, man, is it a struggle this morning.
I think it could be that there are some lingering feelings I have about a bunch of different things happening in my life that are only now getting to me, and I'm just processing them negatively. It's funny how much you think these things don't affect you in the moment, and then they just give you a wallop all at once a few steps down the road.
So, that's my morning so far. How are you? If you're also feeling stressed, I recommend taking the time (perhaps even with my audio) to jerk off and give yourself some relief.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-08-28 14:37:14 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I've known you for a while now, and I want a taste...
(art by @sussykat)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
As I get older and more attuned with my anxiety, I kind of realize how much my body just goes into auto-pilot because I go into a "fight or flight" instinct out of nowhere. Ironically enough, these really maladaptive coping mechanisms I've grown up with have made me a very hard worker -- I have a tendency to just shut off the world when I'm plugging away at a personal project of mine. And I can sustain this mood for hours, days, months.
I've been thinking a lot about how I behaved in my early 20s. This was brought about because I've been talking more and more with my sister and my cousins about our upbringing, and how differently we all turned out despite having similar circumstances. I think it's interesting how much I feel like I was way more productive during what was genuinely one of the worst periods of my life -- I had no friends, no real career ambitions, and I just numbed myself by playing video games all day. Meanwhile my siblings and cousins coped by being more outwardly focused on the world around them.
A couple of sessions ago my therapist really drilled into me how lucky I am to be where I am in my life, and to never downplay my successes and good qualities. He really did this whole thing where I just said in a half-hearted way "yeah, I think I'm doing well," and he would cut me off and say "say it with a little more enthusiasm this time." It wasn't just a corny little exercise in self-love, it was to really make my sad little brain realize truly how lucky I am to be the kind of person I am despite everything that may have happened to me growing up.
And I can't state that enough: I'm very lucky to be the kind of person I am where I'm not jaded and cynical about the motives of other people, and where I'm endlessly curious about things that are completely outside my experience.
I hope some time today you're also able to find a quiet moment to reflect on your own gifts, despite any hardships you might have endured in your past.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-08-21 15:11:47 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We become friends at a party when you reveal that your boyfriend hasn’t satisfied you in months. I aim to change that.
(art by @luminyu)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Do you ever feel like you're just straight up going crazy because of the state of the world? Just say "a" in the comments if you do.
I don't really have much to say today, unfortunately. I'm just annoyed. Maybe I will next week.
I hope you're all hanging in there.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-08-14 18:32:54 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I've been stressed out from overwork. I barely have time to cum, let alone touch myself. Here's a snippet of me sneaking away from my work to masturbate, complete with work alerts going off in the background. Take some time out of your day to relax, plug in some earbuds, and jerk off with me.
I cum at around the 7 minute and 30 second mark, if you want to time it.
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [No Talking] [Work Notifications] [Stressed] [Cumming After Holding it in for Days] [Moaning] [Real Orgasm]
(art by Senke Kagerou)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
This was more of an impromptu audio I made because I've been so overworked from my day job that I didn't properly plan for a scripted audio. I hope you can find some enjoyment in this nonetheless, as it had been a while since I posted just a full audio of myself jerking from start to finish.
The good news is that I got the confirmation from my boss today that I won't be getting fired from my job.
The bad news is I have to get back to work right now and don't really have time to blog at length about anything in particular. I hope you're all getting plenty of rest. Remember to take a break, relax your mind, read a book, watch a show, jerk off, and drink plenty of water.
I hope you're all well. I always have something to talk about, but today I'm just way too overworked.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-08-07 17:18:03 +0000 UTC
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Summary: We’re exes, and run into each other at a bar. Nothing’s gonna happen between us. Definitely not. Not a chance. But the way you’re looking at me…
Tags: [M4M] [Bar] [Exes] [Public] [Slightly Toxic] [Banter] [Flirting] [Kissing] [Bathroom Suck] [Oral] [Facefuck] [Rough] [En is Down Bad] [Sloppy]
(art by @rentigj)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
It's coming down to the wire with this thing I have with my day job -- in about two weeks I'll know if I'm getting fired or not. At which point I'll have to reorient literally everything in my day to day life to either look for a new job or double down with content creation. I'm going to rant about something completely unrelated to keep my mind off of it, at least momentarily.
I had a teacher in high school who, just speaking bluntly, was incredibly racist. But I was either too shy or too unaware to really recognize it as such at the time. Every time I would raise my hand to speak, she would sneer and make fun of the way that I talk even though I literally do not have any kind of non-American accent. At several times she accused me of plagiarizing my essays without any proof and even said at one point that "people like me" wouldn't write sentences the way that I do. What's especially ironic is that this was an Advanced English class where you needed to take a specialized test in order to get get entry, so I obviously had the chops to be in the class to begin with.
As I said I was too shy to ever make a stink about it, and this was also in the early 2000s when I feel like (especially for a young person like me) we weren't as aware of concepts like racism (even though I understood it was some sort of prejudice I was facing). I don't bring any of this up to garner sympathy but I sometimes wonder how much my interaction with that teacher really influenced my upbringing if only because I have a natural distrust for a lot of people who focus too heavily on the way that I talk or carry myself. I haven't had to second-guess my actions in my adult years but this whole thing at work really brought all these feelings back up, I suppose, because I'm the only non-white guy in the team at my company and it sometimes feels like my bosses are talking to me a certain way.
I promise you I'm not trying to turn this into some kind of diatribe about white racism in our society, but I oftentimes wonder about the character of that teacher: how did she turn out the way that she did that she felt the need to antagonize a student who should have been nurtured and empathized with. I'm not saying I'm trying to understand her to the point where I would excuse her behavior, but there are certainly people I meet where I can see that their behavior is so deeply-entrenched that they take for granted how hateful they are, and I've never been able to grasp that fully in my mind.
There are people that I interact with out in the world where when I'm talking to them, I can immediately tell that I'm like the first Asian person they've ever met in their lives who can speak English. Surprisingly I even get these kinds of interactions on the Internet as well as a streamer. I'm not comparing my teacher to these people, obviously, but I just wonder if there's something about people after getting to a certain age where they just stop being curious about the lives of others outside of their own experience, for people like my teacher to get to how they were.
This was really rambly and I need to get back to work, but I hope you enjoyed this audio and are having a nice day. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-07-31 15:50:31 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Sequel to "I'm Your Baby Boy..."
Summary: I can’t take my eyes off you licking a popsicle, and things start to heat up...
(art by @wakamatsu372)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Did you become more online during the pandemic? I've always been someone who was very much a nerd who spent too much time in online communities even before then, but I tend to think that the tenor of how we all interact with online communities changed ever since early 2020 when we were all in lockdown. For a lot of us our day-to-day social bearings just became more rooted on being online, and for some reason that's an idea I have trouble grappling with, although it may just be me being nostalgic for those days when I was a lot less busy.
I've been thinking a lot about how it was pure chance for me to become a content creator. I was basically just lonely and stuck in my room all day in the early months of lockdown and thought I'd give it a shot, if only to pass the time. Before I even started streaming in November of 2020, I didn't even like talking into a microphone because I hated the sound of my own voice. What's more is that I obviously had no ambitions of even gaining an audience with streaming at all. It very much feels like a huge blur to me to realize that a year later I'd hit partner status on Twitch, and I'm really not saying that to brag or anything because there were a lot of unhealthy habits packed into me just grinding away with making content during that time. I had essentially nothing else to live for in those days.
I hope that doesn't sound depressive or anything. I've been in a "counting my blessings" kind of mood lately because of some stuff I'm dealing with at my day job (and hopefully not getting fired in a few weeks). A very good thing (me streaming and making friends and meeting someone I love) came from a very bad moment in my life (being stuck at home and realizing what few connections I had with other people as well as hating my job) where I realized I wasn't really living for anything other than the momentary excitement of getting recognized online. And all of that's helped me to realize that that's not a sustainable way to live, just chasing that momentary excitement.
My main unhealthy habit with all of what happens to me nowadays (at least internally) is getting into this incredibly arrogant mindset where I feel like I don't deserve bad things happening to me because of everything I've accomplished over the last few years, as if those two things have anything to do with each other. It's probably what leads me down my depressive moods, realizing those two things don't offset each other and I still need to put in the work when it comes to taking care of myself. For instance, all this stuff at work with me probably losing my job is my fault, but I keep internalizing it as me not deserving any of it if only because I'm such a well-liked person with my online persona. And that's nonsensical.
I worry for a lot of my friends because I sometimes feel like they also get into this mindset without them realizing it. And I sometimes just want to shake them and help them realize that all of this silly stuff we do on the Internet is not real. I'm not saying you can't build real connections with people and gain new insights into things that'll have a lasting effect on your life when you're on the Internet. But it's not real in the sense that it's easy to tell a narrative to yourself in your own mind about how the world is against you when the only time you talk to people is through the context of online creator-to-online creator. You need to actually talk and listen to people sometimes to internalize your own wants and needs.
I hope that doesn't sound too preachy or vague. This is getting a little long so I'll cut it short here -- I have to get back to work anyway. I hope you're all well. And I luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-07-24 17:54:12 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You’re not feeling beautiful, and I’m here to remind you...
Tags: [M4F] [Friends to Lovers] [Insecure Listener] [Beach Body] [Confession] [Affectionate] [Gentle] [Teasing] [Praise] [Compliments] [Kissing] [Body Worship] [Cunnilingus] [Clit Stimulation]
(art by @mizugaki_tougo)
Also here's a quick and unedited audio of me masturbating in the middle of recording this because I couldn't handle how horny the scenario was making me.
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
In the days leading up to today, I felt like I had a lot to tell you guys about. I'm still on this performance improvement thing at work that'll determine if I still have a job in a couple of weeks, I'm still plugging away at all of my different projects both in terms of content creation and personal stuff that I want to accomplish, and I have a lot of thoughts going on about stuff that's happening in the world around us.
Overall I just wish things could at least return to a pace where it didn't feel like monumental events were constantly happening at every moment unabated. I'm not one to advocate for apathy at all in saying that you should all unplug and turn your brains off, but something about the last few weeks specifically has been getting to me, and the other day specifically after watching more footage of these people in Gaza living in squalor having to deal with even more death and destruction, I just silently broke down and cried to myself.
I'm not saying any of that to fish for sympathy at all -- the one thing I absolutely do not want to do when I'm talking about a humanitarian issue is center myself of all people when I'm just a spoiled American who's relatively privileged compared to so many others.
And that's kind of what I wanted to talk about today as well, even though I just have this slight feeling that I've talked about it before already? If I have, please let me know.
There was a person who used to watch my streams that recently blocked me because I took them to task over some tweets they made that just straight up did not make any sense and could be interpreted as being a little bigoted. They somehow misinterpreted me asking for clarification as me attacking them for their beliefs and did a whole stream where they felt the need to say I'm "stupid" because all I do is "read a lot of books" and I don't know the world. Honestly I was relieved that they had blocked me because they seemed genuinely a little dumb and constantly liked to talk out of their ass.
But that kind of got me thinking about a lot of other things about my interaction with people online. Do I come off as intimidating at all? Do I come off in a way where you would prefer to not engage? There have been a number of times when people wouldn't confront me head-on about something they perceived as a disagreement with me, and instead of just asking me outright (keep in mind, these are friends of mine) they would just let it fester and then distance themselves. I've always found it to be a pleasure to engage with people who might want further clarification about the things I believe in.
I probably read too much into it but I hate to think that there's something specifically about me that puts people away from wanting to engage. The incident with the person above really shocked me because I tried to use as non-provoking language as possible, and they still interpreted everything I said as an attack. I know that says more about them than it does me, but even so it just makes me worried that I have a harshness about me that I'm not recognizing.
This is kind of a half-formed and jumbled weekly ramble, I will admit. It's something I'm still mulling over. I hope you're all well regardless.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-07-17 18:22:20 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: After school, we go jogging together in the park, and you start to get aroused at my shirtless, sweaty body…
Sequel to: "Blowing me in the Locker Room" and "Fucking You in the Locker Room"
Tags: [M4M] [Park Date] [Himbo] [Shy] [Jogging] [Sweaty] [Public] [Blowjob] [Pec/Armpit Play] [Standing Doggystyle] [Gentle into Rough] [Affectionate]
(art by @nayoshi_(r-744))
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I want to start off this week by thanking testtesting123 for the very kind comment on my previous post. Aside from a few people on my Discord whom I chat with and adore, I honestly do not ever expect anybody to read through my ramblings. I've had this weird urge lately to want to spout off more at length about certain things in my life that I feel would be fun to share if only to make other people feel more connected and less alone, or to just educate people on something they might not have any familiarity with. I really have considered starting up a blog. I'll let y'all know if I do decide to do just that.
This week I'd like to talk about resentment. This kind of goes in line with what I regularly talk about in trying to navigate through feelings of bleakness whenever I'm in a depressed mood, and I think what oftentimes goes along with that is a feeling of being spurned by certain people in my life who, in looking back, affected my life for the worse.
Something my therapist has helped me kind of reconcile in myself is just how much I seem to still harbor so much of that resentment for the people in my past who've wronged me, whether that's people I thought were friends of mine who ended up abandoning me because they felt that they "outgrew" me, or exes who were just straight up abusive and hurtful. I'm in a much better place now obviously with where I am in my life and the fact that I have a partner who regularly checks in on me. And so it's become kind of a difficult idea to wrap my head around the fact that I still find myself thinking about these old circumstances as if they do in fact have any bearing on my current situation when I'm a completely different person than the one I was at the time these things were happening. Why does my brain still latch onto this resentment?
This isn't to say that you shouldn't process and properly internalize the shitty things that have happened to you and that you should just paper over these feelings by suppressing them. It's just that after a while, these feelings of resentment become little more than emotional brooding, and the narrative in my head is said so many times that it becomes self-serving and I realize I only say these things to make myself feel better without actually doing anything, thus repeating a cycle of just disengaging from the immediate reality around me and becoming numb to everything by saying that everyone else is wrong except for me.
Lately I've been in a very rant-y mood, and I've been trying my best to balance the feeling of reassuring myself that I'm doing fine by not associating with certain terrible people, and not letting that throw me for another mental loop where I just implicitly tell myself how great of a person I am just because I'm not like those people. It's a very delicate thing but it's very important for me to distinguish those things to keep myself humble.
In any case, I hope you're all well. I appreciate you all being here, and I hope you have a great week ahead.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-07-10 17:59:09 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You walk in on me masturbating and decide to help your baby boy out...
(art by @kakinomai)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Have you guys ever listened to the song "i" by Kendrick Lamar? If I were to contextualize it, I would say it's an anthem preaching self-love specifically to the black community in the face of a world that teaches you to become rather numb and scornful of all the things that are working against you in society.
I was obsessively listening to it when it first came out (almost a decade ago) specifically because I really liked the bridge where Kendrick says "I've been dealing with depression ever since an adolescent" after repeated choruses of "I love myself." I was in my late teens and horribly insecure and depressed and I just found nothing more beautiful and revolutionary than making a song about learning to love yourself even when the world tells you that you have so many reasons not to.
And even when I'm having an incredibly tough time with my mental state, I always try my best despite it all to recount all of my many gifts, as well as the wonderful people I've met in my life.
So this week I'm going to recount my blessings by talking about my lovely friends, specifically my friend Honey whom you might all know as one of my scriptwriters here. I need to remind everyone that it was a confluence of a few things that made me start doing Patreon stuff: I went viral on TikTok briefly because of some gross-out videos I made, and my friend DareDeity redeemed a massive point redeem on my Twitch streams where I would basically moan on mic on a secret alt Twitter account. The reception to people enjoying my voice and moans made me start up this Patreon side hustle.
I was admittedly in a bit of a panic when I first started because I had no experience with NSFW audio stuff (FYI: I still feel like I don't) and so I scouted the people who were already subscribed for their interest in writing for me, which is how I met xoxo, Max and HONEY. It's honestly kind of crazy to look back at old conversations between me and Honey and realize how formal we were with each other, because nowadays I cannot imagine them just not always being a presence in my life to make me feel like things are going to be okay with their unabashed silliness that I love. You have no idea how relieving it is to just have people in your life who check in with you and want to make sure you're doing okay, and Honey never fails to put a smile on my face.
It's coming up on a little over two years since I first met Honey as well as started this whole Patreon venture. I'm very thankful to have you all here. Even just last night, for a brief moment and prompted by literally nothing other than my own insecurities, I felt a small sense of bleakness about what I was doing with my life. This was before I eventually snuggled into the arms of my partner and felt instantly better, but I do notice very palpably overall how much I'm able to pull myself out of those moods by reminding myself of the lovely people I've met like Honey. I would not change that for anything in the world.
Thank you all for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-07-03 17:17:11 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We’re enemies at work, and as your interim boss, I give you a performance review.
Tags: [M4F] [Co-workers] [Enemies to Lovers] [Asshole] [Banter] [Kissing] [Anger Fuck] [Intense] [Flirty Aftercare] [Promise for More Fun]
(art by @jjanda)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I have back-to-back meetings with my bosses today. Nothing serious (hopefully) but it's just driving my anxiety into overdrive because I can't help but imagine the worst even though I know it's just a routine meeting.
Anyway I have some incredibly petty thoughts to share this week:
I went back to some old tweets I made about a year ago where I called someone out for being incredibly misogynistic. It was the usual thing of a bunch of women/AFAB people on the Internet venting about how they understandably feel unsafe in society because of the inordinate statistical likelihood of abuse they face, and then there being a bunch of idiots in the replies talking about how they think women are lying about their abuse and that because men can also get abused that they're being "misandrist." I faced a lot of backlash at the time from incels and incel sympathizers for simply saying that I think it's completely reasonable for women/AFAB people to vent about how unsafe they feel around men -- a pretty bland take if I do say so myself, but apparently the most inflammatory thing on the planet to men who intensely hate women.
The last I heard about that one idiot I called out, he got called out multiple times for lying about someone who commissioned him for art, and was even caught both tracing other people's art and using straight-up AI art in his own pieces. I think he also made this really self-pitying video about how people in the Vtuber community should stop trying to constantly "cancel" each other even though he wasn't even cancelled and still had a bunch of drooling idiots in his community ardently defending him.
I don't want to make it sound like this person lives rent-free in my head. I checked and found out that they had actually deleted all of their socials (although I doubt that this would mean that it's the last we've heard of him).
It's just that the dude represents literally everything I try not to be: someone who constantly whines in a way that only ends up defending the status quo and powerful institutions, someone who weaponizes social justice terms to self-victimize for clout and pity instead of redressing actual power dynamics and understanding the viewpoint of the underprivileged for the betterment of society, and someone who uses bland male Vtuber mannerisms to attract an audience of brainless, unthinking simps who think that things like "misandry" are comparable at all to misogyny in society. The sad truth is that people like this will always have a platform, because there will always be a market for people who defend the status quo.
I hope that with my being so outspoken I can at least counterbalance all of this nonsense from some of the stupidest people on the planet. Thank you all for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-06-26 15:34:37 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: xoxo
Summary: You and your bro have always been “jokingly” gay with each other for years and you’re both very comfortable being physically intimate.
(art by fukurau)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I got in trouble at work last week and my boss gave me two months to shape up or else I'm getting the boot. I say "last week" as if it was a singular moment but it was really just the accumulation of me being very apparently uncaring about my job because, let's face it, I complain about my job a whole lot and I'm sure that lack of enthusiasm has transferred over so that it's readily obvious to my coworkers as well.
In any case, it very much put a scare in me. I don't enjoy my job but I still am lucky to have it if only to have a regular paycheck and benefits. I talked to my therapist and partner over the weekend extensively about all of this and I kind of realize how much I just let myself become numb to certain aspects of my life in the worst way and end up only spreading myself thin. I'm planning to do better all around.
I hope that isn't apparent online at least. I would say that ever since I discovered that I not only enjoy content creation but that I have a bit of a knack for it, I've very much let it steer the course of my life for better and for worse. I wouldn't necessarily say it's naive of me to harbor these fantasies about me being a full-time content creator but at the same time I have this tendency to doggedly pursue things to the detriment of everything else. Hyperfixations, I guess.
I hope you're all hanging in there. The next few weeks and months might be a little rocky if this job performance thing doesn't work out. Thank you for all being here in the meantime. I am so incredibly thankful for your support.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-06-19 13:48:33 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Sequel to "Blowing me in the Locker Room"
Summary: We meet again in the locker room and continue where we left off.
Tags: [M4M] [Volleyball Practice] [Locker Room] [Jock] [Himbo] [Teasing] [Flirting] [Wholesome] [Ass Licking] [Fingering] [Missionary] [Slow] [Gentle] [Kissing] [Breeding] [Promise for More Fun]
(art by @kaizy)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm not for certain if this is just a "me" thing, but do you ever just feel like you intellectually do not get along with your peers at all? Do you ever just feel a disconnect from the people around you in your place of work or in your school where they just all feel very alien to you because of what you perceive to be their interests and preoccupations and overall temperament?
I've been feeling a weird way for the past week, like I don't belong on this world because I sometimes feel so isolated in the things I choose to care about. It's not necessarily a feeling that comes with hurt or pain, but just a lot of frustration. It culminated in me ranting on my stream a couple of days ago about how I don't like being perceived as a "Vtuber" even though that's ostensibly what I am if only because people expect me to be an entertainer first and foremost when there are other things I'd much rather worry myself with.
I think I've always just spent a lot of my time worrying about how I fit in with other people. And it's a strange combination of both wanting to be acknowledged for being different while also spurning myself for how different I am from other people. Does that make any sense? It probably sounds a lot more angsty than I'm intending in any case. I don't think I've ever been able to reconcile this feeling in me ever since I was little.
What I really mean to say is that my head is kind of in a jumble right now. I hope you're all hanging in there. I'm keeping busy with my million tasks that I need to do, and so I hope this audio finds you in good spirits.
Remember to join the Discord for more content and to chat with fellow degens! (Connect your Patreon account and acknowledge the rules to unlock the server.)
And as always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-06-12 14:46:09 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: You have a music kink and a concert has you so horned up you can’t wait till you get home...
Tags: [M4F] [Established Relationship] [Post Concert High] [Listener Has a Music Kink] [Public] [Car Sex] [Desperate Listener Needs to Get Dicked Down] [Everyone Gets to Cum ☝ Once]
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: This is a gender flipped for the listener and pov flipped for the speaker version of my last post concert script for the boob and vagina havers. This one has a lot of descriptors of body parts compared to my other scripts. I use the word “pussy” and “boobs” for the listener and “dick” and “cock” for the speaker’s parts. Listener cums from penetration paired with implied clitoral stimulation. I also have a mention of the listener being wet. So, if you’re a dry queen like me, I’m sorry 😞
I have the speaker ask for the listener’s breasts to be put in his mouth. If it comes across like that implies a certain size, I didn’t mean for it to. I just mean for the listener to lean forward enough to meet the speaker’s mouth.
AFTER THE ENDING OF THIS JUST KNOW THAT THE SPEAKER TAKES REALLY GOOD CARE OF YOU AND IS REALLY GOOD ABOUT THE POST CONCERT DEPRESSION PAIRED WITH THE CRASH OF THE SEX HIGH
Names Used for the Listener: one beautiful, a couple sweethearts
(art by @mdoctkscb)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I have to put out this reminder every so often that none of you who are currently subscribed are under any obligation to stay subscribed at all. Please remember that. I will not be offended if I notice that you're suddenly unsubscribed without a word. The nature of online communities (especially with regard to NSFW content) means that audiences naturally come and go, and it's important to treasure those in the here and now while they're here.
With that said, though, I do oftentimes get a little wistful at random moments when I think back on all the people I've encountered after becoming a streamer. It's weird to look back on video evidence of how you used to be a couple of years ago when you were just starting out and feeling such a sense of disjointedness at the person you used to be, not recognizing yourself and your mannerisms and the things you used to regularly say.
I've acquired a many good things since becoming a streamer. Most of all it's given me a real sense of self as it lets me bounce my ideas off of other people more regularly, and it also gives me a sense of affirmation that I am a real person out in the world who's affecting other people. I know that sounds weird and hyperbolic but you have to understand that I grew up lonely and sheltered, and I never really had the best self-esteem growing up.
So as corny as it may be, I really can't help but look back at how far I've come and feel a sense of satisfaction at how much I've really grown into the person I am now. There are barely a handful of people I know who are subscribed here on Patreon who've been here since closer to the beginning who can definitely vouch for how much I've changed. I've been learning to doubt myself a lot less, and to stand firm to the things I believe in.
And I would like to think it's being surrounded by people like y'all that has helped me along in this journey. So thank you for being here.
Remember to join the Discord for more content and to chat with fellow degens! (Connect your Patreon account and acknowledge the rules to unlock the server.) And as always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Crieft | Max | Nani | Nexus | Vade Vafurous
2024-06-05 17:36:45 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You don’t feel beautiful and I’m here to prove to you just how beautiful you really are.
Tags: [M4F] [Boyfriend] [Listener is Insecure] [Body Praise] [Positive Affirmations] [Comforting] [Kissing] [Body Worship] [L-Bombs] [Heavy Cunnilingus] [Clit Stimulation] [Promise for More]
(art by @pomelomelon)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
As I was reviewing this audio, there was one line I recited that sounded fine when I first listened to it, but then sounded more and more like the exact opposite of what I was trying to convey upon repeat listens. The line was "And I want to make you feel good" but because of my stupid East Coast accent where I garble my syllables it sounds like I'm saying "I don't want to make you feel good." I hope it doesn't take you too out of the moment if you hear it this way.
Do you ever feel like you're simultaneously someone who's very capable of accomplishing a lot if you really tried, while at the same time being someone who thinks they have no talents at all? Me thinking about my vocal delivery always gets me into that mindset. People always tell me that I should learn to refine my technique so I can get better at things like voice acting and singing when I keep saying that those things would only ever just be side hobbies for me and never my main focus. This is a lesson that I've hammered home here a million different ways: you don't have to be the "best" at everything you set out to do, and playing into this implicit sense of competition is poison in the long run because you inevitably end up running yourself ragged for the approval of people you don't even like. I've been there before, and I refuse to play into it again.
When I got back from my vacation a few days ago, I had a newfound sense of mental restoration. I feel really good about myself and where I am in my career (both professional and streaming-wise). My entire life I've been running up walls thinking that I need to do X, Y and Z in order to "advance" to a better place. But whenever I actually sit down with my feelings for a bit and process the things I'm doing right and my actual priorities, I realize how blessed I am to be here.
That isn't to say that I'm papering over the things that need addressing, or that there aren't real problems in the world to be upset about. I just think it's important to have perspective, and I hope you're all remembering to take care of yourselves in the same way.
(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
(ps: did you guys watch "the haunting of bly manor" on netflix? the ending song is currently on loop this morning and i keep getting all teary-eyed)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-05-29 14:55:58 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: It’s just you and me in the locker room after practice, and teasing leads to more.
Tags: [M4M] [Volleyball Practice] [Locker Room] [Jock] [Himbo] [Teasing] [Flirting] [Wholesome [Groping] [Sweaty] [Oral] [Deepthroat] [Facefucking] [Swallowing Cum]
(art by @memememenome)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm not actually here right now. As in, I'm not in front of a computer at the present moment typing this out and uploading the audio. I'm likely (and hopefully) on a beach staring into the water and trying my best to not think about work and responsibilities and my day-to-day obligations.
I've had this consistent problem in my life where I'm unable to enjoy living in the moment because I can't stop thinking about everything I should be doing. It's a problem that's simultaneously gotten better and worse with age. Better because I have a loving partner now who reminds me to take time off, and worse because I naturally have a lot more obligations the older I get.
I have a therapist who reminds me constantly that I need to not look at "working hard" as a virtue in and of itself. I think it's something indicative of my upbringing that I tend to hyperfocus on this aspect in a way where I think there's some inherent good to running yourself ragged with your work. I've always prided myself on that, the image of me being all worn out after having accomplished a whole lot. Really, I've come to realize that it's just another way for me to distract myself from having to confront my feelings.
I also tend to think that a lot of us live our lives in that way: constantly trying to distract ourselves from our feelings in the present moment and mentally chasing one thing to the next. I don't think it's a generalization to say that it's so easy to do that nowadays. I think I've lived much of my life this way and it's taking some real undoing to get out of it. But I hope at the very least this can be a weekly reminder to not completely blunt yourself of your emotions and to really assess how you feel from time to time, as well as reach out to the people you care about for a heart-to-heart.
(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-05-22 18:00:10 +0000 UTC
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Script: Honey (Twitch | Twitter)
summary: you work at the local library, and you of course have a favorite co-worker. He’s so soft and sweet and can’t get enough of him. It’s been a slow day and you decide to visit him on his shift so you can make your move on him
tags: [m4a] [ensub] [coworkers] [exhibition] [creampies] [praise] [mutual orgasms] [listener on top] [begging] [fingering]
(art by @ias1010)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm going on vacation next week but I'll still be posting an audio while I'm gone, so don't worry about missing me. 🤭
With that said, I'm very much looking forward to my break. We're going to the beach and I'm going to soak up as much sun and ocean water as I can.
There's always been something nostalgic about the beach for me. I suppose that's because I used to go there a lot with my grandfather when I was little. We'd just walk up and down where the water met the sand and collect little oddities that we saw. It felt so strangely freeing then as it does now to just want to plummet into the cold water all at once, letting your body get all soaked as you acclimated to the temperature.
For as long as I can remember I've had that as a fixed image in my mind, me and my grandfather at the beach. I don't know why. It's not even that anything super noteworthy happened whenever we were there together -- I suppose it just represents a time in my past when I felt safe and untroubled from my daily burdens and insecurities. I admired my grandfather a lot in my youth because he was a very resolute personality while also being very poetic and a good listener, which was so unlike a lot of the older male figures in my life at the time. For some reason whenever I set out to write something about him, I can't help but imagine the beach, as well as feel that swirl of childish emotions I would inevitably feel -- excitement, nervousness, embarrassment, anxiety, hopefulness -- from being there.
I don't particularly have a point to make this week with my weekly thoughts. I just want to remind y'all to treasure those around you in the present moment, as much as you can.
(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-05-15 18:47:38 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You barge into my dorm room late at night with an interesting proposition…
Tags: [M4F] [Dorm Neighbors] [Friends to Lovers] [Practice Sex] [Confession] [Soft Dom] [Leading You] [Kissing] [Nipple Play] [Cunnilingus] [Lots of Aftercare] [Gentle]
(art by @wakamatsu372)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Every couple of days I get a DM or even an email from someone saying how much they appreciate how outspoken I am about the things I believe in. I'm obviously very appreciative but I always try to steer the focus onto the actual things I'm talking about instead of making it about me, and that kind of gets me to think about this indelible aspect of content creation that I cannot stand: the competition.
An example: Even with what I do here, and with the million disclaimers that I make about how I only do this stuff here on Patreon for fun, there are people who always feel the need to group and rank my performance compared to others. I'm not particularly bothered by that in and of itself because to a certain extent it's inevitable -- it's more just the bewilderment I face when it happens. What's the need for it? For what purpose does it serve? Once you've ranked my performance, what can you possibly derive from it?
And I think I start thinking about these things in relation to people praising me for being so outspoken, if only because the conversation sometimes gets into a kind of territory where the other person says things like "I wish [this other streamer that I watch] was as outspoken as you, En." Obviously I think it's great when anybody speaks out on behalf of issues of injustice that are important, but it's just odd to frame it in such a way where you're praising me for something other people aren't doing, you know? It just ends up feeling like literally anything we do gets passed through this finite evaluation machine that only serves to bastardize the very things I try to draw attention to. I feel like if you take that idea to its logical end, it presupposes that I'm only supporting certain causes to benefit from the attention I get from my audience, which is absolutely a sickening idea to me.
I hope for a day when the things I believe in aren't undermined by people questioning my motives or comparing me to others. I think people should be defined by the material effect they have on other people. And if I can help ease the suffering of another person, then it shouldn't matter for what purpose I do what I do on a personal level. The end goal speaks for itself.
(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-05-08 17:11:24 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: Ya boy has a music kink and a concert has him wound up so tight, he can’t wait till you get home.
Tags: [M4M] [Established Relationship] [Post Concert High] [Speaker Has a Music Kink] [Public] [Car Sex] [Desperate Speaker Needs to Get Dicked Down] [Everyone Gets to Cum ☝ Once] [Real Orgasm]
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: I am so sorry about the dry anal. I try so hard to write in lube no matter what but I could not this time without it sounding dumb as shit. Let’s all just pretend the speaker’s spit is supernatural or something and everything is adequately lubricated. The speaker makes a joke about the listener backing out but I don’t mean to imply any lack of enthusiastic consent on either side.
Names Used for the Listener: Dude and love once
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
We just got finished watching Baby Reindeer a few days ago. If you don't know what it is, it's a series on Netflix about this dude dealing with a crazed stalker that's said to be based on the creator's real-life experiences in his early 20s. I'm obviously not going to spoil the show or get into it in-depth here, mostly because the show gets to some extremely dark places (be sure to heed any trigger warnings if you decide to watch it).
Something that I've always been navigating in my life is the possibility that I have a slight codependent streak in me. That is, I have a bit of a problem with being a people-pleaser. If someone is upset with me -- even if it's someone I don't particularly like -- I always try to reconcile in my mind what it is about me that they find off-putting.
I think in some respects this has developed in me what I like to think of as very positive qualities: I think I have a sensitivity to things that makes me try my best in empathizing with people outside of my own experience. I think my endless curiosity with a lot of the injustices in the world stem from me not understanding how other people could be so callous to the things that seem to me to be so plainly evil.
But in other respects I find that I falter. This aspect of me has sometimes led me to prioritizing other people and letting bad people live rent-free in my head when that energy could have been better spent doing something more nourishing and productive. I was just reminded of all of this by the show because I've had my fair share of very insecure people who've had their obsessive crushes on me in the past, and I always try to reconcile if it's something in me that allowed for that to happen to me or if I'm indeed being too callous to shut them out and not try to understand what they're going through. It's still a work in progress, to be honest.
I feel like there's something more solidifying that I wanted to say about this but it escapes me currently. It's certainly getting better the older I get, the reminder in my head to take care of myself. I hope the same can be said of you guys, no matter what you're going through.
Luv y'all.
(As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @shjin_cut)
2024-05-01 16:03:11 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We’re playing games and roughhousing on the couch when things take a turn…
Tags: [M4M] [Bottom Enrico] [Virgin Speaker] [Roommates] [Playing Around] [Curious] [Experimenting] [Kissing] [Ass Groping] [Frotting] [Cowboy] [Promise for more Fun] [Lots of Whimpers]
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I had something family-related come up so I'm planning to see my folks over the weekend. It's for something that we've been kind of expecting for a while, but for it to actually happen is making me feel a bunch of things that I wasn't bracing for nonetheless.
I don't mean to make this post sound so grim when we're literally here to enjoy audio porn and get in the mood. I'm more just saying this as a weekly reminder to keep your loved ones close. And by that I mean the people who are actually in your lives and have your best interests at heart. I always say on my stream the idea that love should never be a compulsory thing, and that just because you're related to somebody by blood does not mean you owe them love and affection.
There are so many people I've met in my life from the most unexpected places that I would crawl to the ends of the earth to make sure their well-being is tended to. And part of my goal with being a content creator and this half-baked audio porn enthusiast that I am now is to at least help other people in this community I've created forge some connections with others in what feels like an increasingly atomized, isolating world.
With that said, I hope you're able to reach out to someone you love today and show them how much you care. Thank you all for being here.
(taking a break from streams this friday and sunday to see family, but i'm still at it tomorrow and will be back to a normal schedule on tuesday)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @asaifrit)
2024-04-24 15:21:00 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You come back from a tough day at work and need something to squeeze…
Tags: [M4F] [Roommates] [Teasing] [MSub] [Light Bullying] [Very Submissive] [Ass Groping] [Handjob] [Nipple Play] [Kissing] [Use of "Mommy"] [Promise for more Fun]
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So it turns out there are people who actually read these blurbs where I tell you to have fun jerking off or remind you to take care of yourselves.
That's according to some of the lovely chatters in my Discord, at least. I stopped writing out anything too lengthy because I figured nobody cared, but I think I'll actually use these as an opportunity for some general thoughts that have been percolating in my mind in the interim.
It's never far from my mind the concept that I need to not only be good at the things I set out to do, but that I need to excel. I don't agree with this mindset. It goes without saying that I do everything in my life to disentangle myself from such a worldview that we need to always be the best, which I think is incredibly poisonous and only reinforced by years and years of authority figures telling us that we need to make everything into a competition.
It'll soon be almost two whole years of me having done this erotic audio stuff here on Patreon. In the beginning when I set out to do this, I really thought I'd ease into it to a point where I would want to do it more and more and get better at it and network with other folks to work on all sorts of related creative projects.
But that spark never really came for me. I get that feeling with other things in my life: my writing and my streaming, for example. With those things I feel almost this sublime feeling of "this is something I'm really good at, and I enjoy it so much that I'm able to kind of escape my body for at least a little bit." The kind of feeling you get when you're watching an extremely good film that just completely absorbs you to the point where you're almost dazed by the time the credits roll.
I never felt that with erotic ASMR, even though I sometimes wish I would. Again, as I've said many times before, it's not because I'm not enjoying myself or because I'm not giving these audio performances my all. I am always giving 100% to the things that I do. It's just even still a slow realization for me to understand that -- and I'm not saying this for pity or sympathy -- I am perhaps very mediocre at this stuff, and that is completely okay. I am okay with not being the best at everything that I do, because I would rather be someone who creates an atmosphere where people enjoy themselves instead of looking into each other's pockets for who has more or less than them.
Wow, that was long, sorry. In summation, I'm just reiterating as I always do how much I appreciate you all being here. I hope you're all taking care of yourselves. I always say on stream that it's important to appreciate the people who are here while they are here, so I want you to know that I appreciate y'all and I hope you're doing well.
Catch me on stream being goofy if you want to.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @g kilo-byte)
2024-04-17 18:26:08 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: Your boyfriend comes to bug you while you read, things get cozy before getting steamy...
Tags: [M4A] [Soft and Slow] [Romantic Rainy Day] [Established Relationship] [Kisses and Cuddles] [Caressing] [Read While I Touch You] [Fingering] you during [Masturbation] [Fingersucking] then [Fingerfucking] bc [Hand Kink] babeeeyy [One Listener Orgasm] [I Love You] [Short Aftercare]
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: I tried to aim for similar cutesy vibes as my last Mommy script but for those who don’t like Mommy stuff.
The listener has hair. The speaker mentions playing with it. I mean for it to be more of a scalp massage situation but no variation of “I’m gonna give you a scalp massage” sounds cute to me. There aren’t descriptions of what it’s like, so no describing hair length, texture or volume or anything like that.
Listener cums from fingering coupled with whatever your imagination comes up with during my intentionally vaguely written genital self-stimulation.
Names Used for the Listener: darling, love, sweetheart
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Oh god, I feel like I've been fighting a bug for the past week or two so I apologize if I sound a little out of sorts in this audio.
How are you doing, by the way? I hope you're well.
I would talk about my recent shenanigans but I don't want to put you guys off in case you're actually trying to get off to these audios. Anyway, catch me on Twitch being goofy.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
(art by @kim_srm)
2024-04-10 15:29:07 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: xoxo
Summary: Your boy comes home late and needy. Innocent cuddles escalate into more and you're happy to give him whatever he needs...
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I've been kind of turned around lately in terms of prioritizing my workload because of some recent life stuff, so I apologize for the slight lateness of this audio! Please understand that my goal has always been at least three new audios a month.
In any case, I hope you are all well. Thank you all so much for continuing to support me. I'm forever grateful, you have no idea.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my actual 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
(art by navadrew)
2024-04-03 14:40:12 +0000 UTC
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Script: Honey (Twitch | Twitter)
summary: you're so desperate and needy in the middle of the night, you’re basically climbing him like a tree (horizontally i guess?)
tags: [m4f] [endom] [daddy] [cunnilingus] [cowgirl] [in da middle of the night] [praisexdegradation] [get yourself off] [real orgasms]
notes: please note listener will be referred to as “baby”, “slut”, “cumdump”, “toy”, will contain “cunt”
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HEY.
YOU. 🫵
START JORKIN' AND HAVE A GOOD DAY. OR ELSE.
(also have i mentioned in a while that i'm also a very annoying twitch streamer who's currently doing a soft subathon right now yes)
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
(art by @pomelomelon)
2024-03-20 15:07:24 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: You’re busy making cookies but your partner is too impatient to wait till you finish... something something joke about finish meaning to cum idk I’m eepy
Tags: [M4M] [EnDom] [Established Relationship] [Rough] [Desperate Speaker] [Eager Listener] [Using the Listener as a Fucktoy but make it cute] [Listener gets a Blowjob] and [Fingering] [One Listener Orgasm plus one Mutual Orgasm] [Aftercare w/ Snacks] [Freeuse] sorta kinda
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: I didn’t mention any of the listener’s genitalia by name or description but I did reference it being “inside” the speaker’s mouth.
Names Used for the Listener: Baby, babe, good boy, love, sweetheart, cumdump, cocksleeve, toy, fucktoy
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YOU 🫵🫵🫵
HAVE A GOOD JERK
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @unsfrau)
2024-03-13 15:35:36 +0000 UTC
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Script: Honey (Twitch | Twitter)
summary: you get no bitches so you had no valentines day date this year, so your neighbour fucks you after helping you move in – classic move amirite
tags: [m4a] [neighbours] [strangers to lovers] [oral] [spit] [fingering] [doggy] [let the neighbours hear] [quickie]
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How in the actual fuck is it March already?
HOW.
HOW..................
Anyway, back to work for me. Hope you're all well.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Songbird | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
(art by @miitoban)
2024-03-06 18:16:05 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: You catch your sub touching without permission and give him a punishment...
Tags: [M4A] [Sub Speaker] [Dom Listener] [Speaker Gets Caught] gets a [Punishment] and [Overstim] [Listener Riding] and [Facesitting] [Mutual Orgasm] [Aftercare]
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: Facesitting and fucking don’t include any descriptions of anatomy, as usual. I have a line “Even when you hurt me it feels good.” and I want to clarify that I’m referring to pain the speaker consents to, nothing dark.
Names Used for the Listener: Baby
(art by @dracorux)
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Howdy all. Are you stressed? WELL THEN MASTURBATE!!!!!!!!!!
kbye luv u
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Levi Min | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Songbird | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
2024-02-28 16:59:51 +0000 UTC
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Script: Honey (Twitch | Twitter)
summary: you find yourself fighting with your boyfriend more and more often lately, you decide to breakup with him but
tags: [m4a] [breakup] [degradation] [praise] [doggy] [mirror segs] [oral] [hair pulling] [choking]
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Please don't overthink the irony of me accidentally scheduling this during mfing Valentine's Day of all days. Or do, actually, if you're bitter about being single or imagining doing something silly like getting back with your toxic ex.
Regardless I hope you're all doing well and that this helps to relieve some stress. Happy cumming. Luv y'all.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Alastor Trinh | Laurinde | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Songbird | Taylor | Vade Vafurous
(art by @taka_msy_)
2024-02-14 18:23:58 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: xoxo
Summary: Your therapist wants to take a different approach to this evening’s therapy session...
(art by haruki096)
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Holy hell, this week is kicking my ass and I hope you're all taking care. No words of wisdom today because I just want to keep my head down and read. Luv y'all.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Alastor Trinh | Max | Muffinbutt | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Songbird | Vade Vafurous
2024-02-07 18:12:18 +0000 UTC
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Script: Honey (Twitch | Twitter)
summary: both people of god, seduced by the sweet temptations of desires, you overhear his sinful confession to the priest, and you can’t help but take things into your own hands
tags: [m4a] [in a church?] [strangers to lovers] [confessions] [virgins] [religion] [begging] [degradation] [oral] [face fucking] [is he possessed by the devil?] [180 switch] [real orgasm]
notes: this is a “defiling religion” type beat, it’s intended to be sacrilegious - there is ‘possession’, it’s implied of during the beginning and you should be able to hear the switch, teehee have fun (pls, i beg you to have fun and enjoy the script, it’ll make me happy)
Please note there is a level of slut-shaming
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Something silly happened this week and it kind of threw off my rhythm. Don't you just hate it when that happens. I hope you're all doing well. We're about to watch a Scooby Doo movie in the Discord and hang out so you should totally join.
as always, catch me on twitch being goofy. luv y'all.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @tdp_nsfw)
2024-01-31 18:17:00 +0000 UTC
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Script: xoxo
Summary: You’ve unfortunately gotten into a terrible accident that’s rendered you bed-bound, unable to use your arms and forced you into an extended hospital stay. Even worse, your vague and inexplicable injuries have made it impossible to pleasure yourself. Good thing you have a hot nurse willing to go above and beyond to make sure you’re taken care of.
Tags: [M4M] [Nurse Speaker] [Patient Listener] [Sponge Bath After an Accident] [Public] listener gets a [Handjob] and [Blowjob] [One Listener Orgasm]
Inclusivity/Misc Notes for Listeners: the speaker kinda gets the listener to ask for it as if that prevents it from being him abusing a power dynamic over a person in a vulnerable position. The listener’s genitals are referred to as cock. Blue balls are referenced and the listener’s precum is described to be “drooling”.
When it gets to the blowjob please pretend that there is no lotion going in the speaker’s mouth
Names Used for the Listener: hun, sweetheart, good boy, I use “boy” a lot
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Y'all, it seems like everyone is getting sick, and COVID is on the rise so please be careful and take precautions as much as you can. I feel like I'm a little bit under the weather as well as of late so I'm for sure taking breaks and being comfy as much as I can.
anyway good night all, happy jerking. as always, catch me on twitch being really loud and annoying if you don't see me here.
free palestine
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Alastor Trinh | KissySensei | Max | Nani | PurplishBlue | Samín | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
(art by @ajrtkf44)
2024-01-24 17:03:19 +0000 UTC
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