Sunday's reading will just be quick as I'm just getting better after 10 days of quite strong physical pain. Let you intuition guide you and pick a card :
black, purple or white.
The fairies will give you a very short advise for the peacefulness of the mind .
See you tonight around 10 PM french time. :)
I've posted this on instagram , so reposting it here in better quality but with the original sounds XD
Now you know how I had my pig tails flying on my pictures^^
And yeah I know, I'm not dancing* kof kof* in rhythm XDD.
I still don't know If I'll be able to cosplay on Sunday. Yesterday I could finally get out of bed , but the pain in my tummy and lower back is still really strong and I have weird sharp pains in my arms too ( chronic illness is so annoying). I believe I'll need more time to rest to be able to put a full costume ( but maybe a makeup and a wig will do.)
We will see.
A bientôt
Clef
Take care !
Hello my dear Patrons. I hope you're having a nice week end.
I'm so disapointed I couldn't do my new found ritual which is a card reading with you and some cosplay photos. It makes my life more beautiful to share it with you .
*****( you don't need to read the following paragraph if you don't want to know my state of mind about the current situation or if you think it will upset you):
In France, things are not easy right now and It's heavy on my mind because I already had 3 years cancelled because of my health , and now years are also cancelled but I can't do anything. ( depends where you live but here in France, everything aside jobs , schools and some shops has been closed or cancelled for months and we have been living between curfews and lockdowns for almost a full year now. Police has turned crazy, government is making a fool of itself. the atmosphere has never been so tense ( at least since I was born) .
It might sound selfish but I was just starting to enjoy life again when all this happened and I'm starting to feel very very depressed and angry. That is why doing things for Patreon and sharing it with you is like a breath of fresh air for me and allows me to transform these feelings into something positive.
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But since I'm still stuck in bed ( going back to the doctor tomorrow because the pain in my tummy is not improving at all , and it's not the tummy pain I had from SIBO and I can't even seat for more than 10 minutes) it has been more difficult containing these emotions.
Anyway, I'm posting the second part of my cerise shoot, I hope you will enjoy it .
And a bonus : a Tinkerbell preview :)
I hope I'll be able to be at our rendez-vous next Sunday.
Love+++
Clef
Hello my dear Patrons.
It's been quite a certain time since you've seen me stuck in bed like this ( yes even if it's only a couple months, it's a long time for me ^^)
I'm afraid I won't be able to do a cosplay card reading on Sunday .
Pitchoune ( my cat) has also been sick since Monday ( exactly like me!!weird) .
She seems better now though. Well, she is younger and healthier than I am ^^ .
I'm gonna share more new pictures and videos while I'm not able to produce anything new.
Take care.
Love .
Clef +++
Hello my dear patrons.
I hope you are doing well.
I'm happy you like my Sunday's reading videos^^.
However, I'm not sure I'll be able to make one each Sunday. Indeed, I'm realizing that cosplaying every week is wearing my body out. I tend to forget I have a chronic illness and I act like a normal person, until my body says STOP!.
I knew something wasn't quite right last week because I was very tired and painful , it was difficult to wear Tinkerbell on Sunday and today has been something. I'm having an infection, again... waiting for the lab results to know which med I'll need. It's probably because I didn't rest enough and I waited too long before going to the doctor .><
I'll keep you up to date.
PS: That last photo wasn't done on purpose, Shiro took it while I was talking to him XD
Clef +++
oh and a bonus of me doing a : duh? face XD
Sorry for the one hour delay. I said I would do a shorter video but it's not any shorter than the previous one XD.
It was a bit difficult to make this video because I haven't been feeling at my best this week, I hope you don't mind. I know some cards weren't too positive but the goal of card reading is to develop a better version of ourselves and to always look for the bright side even though the advice sounds negative :)
Have a nice night my dear Patrons
Clef +++
Concentrate and pick a card : orange, green or purple .
Let me know your choice in the comment below .
The fairies and Tinkerbell will tell you the results tonight around 10PM french time. :)
Here it is ! The result.
I'm waiting for your feedback :).
It's really difficult for me to do the reading in English, I lack practice and I struggle to find words.
A bientôt :)
+Clef+++
Concentrate and pick a card.
You can think of a specific question while choosing a card or just let your intuition decides which card appeal to you the most.
I'll post the video of the reading tonight between 11 and 12 PM french time.
You'll discover which cosplay I chose this time while I'm reading the results in English and French tonight.
À tout à l'heure
Clef+++
Choice one : Moon
Choice two : Star
Choice tree : Egg
Let me know your choice in the comment section below.
While I'm still waiting to get my new backdrop for my Tinkerbell next photoshoot, I decided I would shoot old costumes for an upcoming project.
Indeed, for this project ( I'll tell you more about in a couple months), I'll need to use pictures I own the rights, and what's the best technic to own the rights than taking the pictures myself ?^^
Some of my old costumes don't even have a proper photoshoot to go with, so it's time I do something about it^^
It was very interesting but fastidious to set up the lights and background for this one . I wanted the first part of the photos to be dark with contrast like in a forest at night. I wanted to use my smoke machine but.... I couldn't find the remote control XD.
When I started shooting with the help of the timer, I quickly realized that it wasn't easy to rush in front of the camera on a countdown of ten seconds with the cape and all the stuff on my shoulders XD . I was literally mopping the floor with it XDD
So I called Shiro for help and he came to my rescue one hour later and we did the second part of the shoot ^^,,,,
See you on Sunday for the" in cosplay card reading thing" ^^
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Clef
Reading the cards for next week ^^. I hope you'll understand what I'm saying ^^...
2021-01-31 21:32:31 +0000 UTC View PostPlanning February's photoshoot ( if my health doesn't come in the way). I'm letting you choose . :)
Bulma or Tink ?
Hello my dear Patrons. I finished editing the pictures we took with Shiro . There is not many since I already did 2 photoshoots with this costume. I needed some new material for the upcoming Sailor Moon movie :)
We also took some more pictures of my adult Chibi Usa that I will post very soon.
let me also post some "derp" pics ^^:
My back was hurting so much from the pose that I made this face exactly at the moment Shiro managed to take a pic XD
natural me ^^ :
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auqIr9EY4hQ&feature=youtu.be
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CLef
First pic in HD. I tried to reproduce the movie poster even though my costume is from the old anime.
Has anybody been able to watch the movie yet ?
Love +++
Clef
2021-01-18 17:11:26 +0000 UTC View Post
And just like that, the rest of the pictures.
And I received the shoes and the lens so I'll probably do another photoshoot someday ^^
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Clef
Hop ! Took some pictures with my phone, here are the first ones . I wanted to try the whole thing before a better photoshoot ( Istill don't have the shoes and the red lens so I had to color my eyes with photoshop^^)
I ca,'t wait to watch the movies !!!!
2021-01-09 14:16:55 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello my friends !
I hope you are doing ok.
First let me wish you a better year and a lot of courage and love ! It will probably be tough for a few months still but everything will be okay at the end. Hang in there !
Here is a short video of my first cosplay achievement of 2021. I have been sick for about the whole month of December ( big flare up) and couldn't do much so I hope this month I'll be able to finish my costume and take some photos before the Sailor Moon Eternal movie comes out. ( and also my Tinkerbell costume which has been waiting for me for a couple months now)
My boyfriend Shiro, who lately took my pictures, has also been sick and in pain with kidney stones , I don't know when he will be okay. What a couple XD,,,
Take care my dear Patrons and see you soon.
Clef +++
Hello my dear Patrons.
I hope you are doing ok....
Sorry, still no cosplay photoshoot, I'm not physically and mentally capable of it. :(
I spend the past week with no strength at all and lots of pain; I'm back needing help all the time for my grocery shopping, the cleaning etc etc.. and eating is painful again . After going through so much improvement in 2019, it's hard to go downhill again.
My left wrist is also very painful but I'm very lucky because the right is OK and it's the hand I use to draw!! Fiuu!! So while i'm not able to cosplay, I'm exercising at drawing on paper.
I can't draw on my computer anymore, it's too painful and makes me too dizzy. But that's okay because I'm finding a new interest into traditional drawing ! It's soothing and while I draw, my mind is light :)
This time I remembered to make a video but only after I already started colouring^^,,,,
My setup is not good at all, the sheet is moving all the time ( I'm drawing on my dirty and stained white lighting board laying down on a big roll of tape XD , my lighting setup is really not the best and I'm working on a very small area of my crowded desk. I should change that and set a clean space for my drawings but ....drawing in a mess with lots of chaos on my desk is my way of doing things ahaha^^,,,:
my poor lighting board XD.
Look at that mess where I'm sitting, my pens are all over the place XDDD:
Oh the guy on the painting looks like he has a head to big for him but that's because my lighting board was inclined with the tape under it XD
I did not try to copy an existing photo and make a realistic portrait but I found inspiration through several pictures I found on PInterest. Here are the images I used as references:
I used this guy as a base ( Korean actor):
clothing and hair:
background
The previous drawing I put on instagram:
See you soon with probably another drawing or...a cosplay if i'm finally feeling okay enough !
Stay strong. Things will get better
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CLef
Hello my dear Patrons ! How are you doing ?
As I had told you in November , Patreon should not have charged you on the first of December. On my side, I didn't get any payment so I guess it worked.
After a pretty tough November, I'll try to be back here on Patreon. I spent many days in bed because of my tummy and chronic body pain and my mental is not at it's best. I don't want to discus it here but the situation is getting more and more heavy to bear and I must confess cosplaying is something that I don't feel like doing lately. I did draw though during my time in bed and it helped to empty my mind of the anger I'm feeling at the moment.
And I know I must not be the only one feeling depressed or angry At least i'm not scared. That is something I'm thankful for.
Each time I did a drawing I forgot to record the process, it could have been something interesting to share . I'll try to think about doing it next time. ( You can see them on my Instagram : clefchan)
oh ! I believe I forgot to post that small casual photo shoot I did a few months ago so here are the pictures :)
I'll try to shoot my autumn Tinkerbell this month. I know it's a bit late but better late than never^^;
Did you set up your christmas tree already ? Share the pictures please :)
I need to find some motivation :) .
I wish you a nice night and see you very soon ! Take care !
Hello my dear Patrons. Since I have not been able to publish content for a few weeks and that I don't know when I'll be able to ( I hope it will be during November) , I'm going to suspend the billing circle. You won't be charged from December until I'm able to submit new regular content.
The account won't be closed and still be accessible. You just won't be charged during this period.
Take care
Clef
Well looks like there won't be any photoshoot for October . Sorry ><
I'm back under several antibiotics and other stuff because of that chest inflammation that doesn't want to go away and some other inflammation issues and symptoms . My special doctor House wanted to put me under corticoids but the last time I got cortisone , I landed to the ER because it gave me ulcers and past week I also got a corticoid spray for the coughing which I had to stop after 6 days because ultra painful ulcers appeared in my throat and mouth. So for now I'm taking antibiotics and a lot of herbal supplements and probiotics to reduce the inflammation naturally.
My heart has been going crazy lately , I have no other choice than taking beta blockers otherwise I'm out of breath and I can't sleep ( and of course, this thing makes me cough XD!)
I've been meditating several times a day but lately it hasn't been working.
Can't wait to be back on tracks !
Anyway I'm lucky to get to know this doctor otherwise I would have been sent home with just paracetamol ( which I had a reaction to) and corticoids ( which I had a reac...well you know the song XD). I can tell you that because when I went first to the regular doctor, that is what she did...
Anyway , Let's send good vibes together to the planet and all the human being. 🙏
Genkidama !!!
See you soon in perfect shape my dear Patrons .
Clef
Hello my dear patrons, remember the last couple posts ?
So here we are, I bought a black dress for 10 Euros and made the rest, here is the video to show you how I have done the costume :)
I'm still waiting to receive the shoes to do the photoshoot I don't know why it is taking so much time !
I Have to make more tidy looking videos, I didn't even think to do this one in a horizontal format and I started the next one doing the same mistake aaaaarhhh!! ( yes because remember I told you I was working on another Tink costume as well^^)
Health is not at it's best , still coughing a bit , lots of muscle pain, chest pain and fatigue but fever has been gone for a full week now :)
I have many photoshoots to make but for now my body doesn't agree; This is very frustrating ! (some of you may have noticed a Sophie (howl castle )dress in the video above, I bought it because it was really cheap but I have a lot of work to do on it, it's way to big XD) There is a couple more costume I had started working on months ago that are still not finished , I need to get it together and have the job done !
See you very soon, take care.
Clef +++
Hello my dear Patrons. I hope you are doing okay.
As I was suggested by one of my lovely Patrons, I worked on a Halloween / Autumn themed Tinkerbell Costume. It is not yet finished. I have to work on the accessories and finish the top of the dress with gemstones.
I just stopped caughing after 20 days of non stop cough , which is a relief and everything would be back to normal without the constant muscle burning , aches and exhaustion Nothing I haven't faced before but I guess my body is asking some time to adjust after catching the coronavirus . Like he is asking time everytime something unusual happens to me. Nothing to worry here , It's been my new normal for the past 4 years. Waiting and resting it the only solution.
That is why I have been working slowly on my costume and I hope I'll have enough strengh to put a photoshoot before the end of the month .
I'll make a timelapse WIP video of the costume when it is done. Stay tuned.
See you soon , take care .
If you are costuming for Halloween please show me your costumes 😊😊😊
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Hello my dear Patrons, I hope you are doing okay.
I was supposed to do another photoshoot this month but my health decided otherwise . Indeed 10 days ago I was going trough muscle pain, fatigue and fever but I didn't think much of it since those are symptoms I've been dealing regularly with for 4 years. However 2 days later I experienced a bad asthma attack or so I thought it was. But 7 days later it was still there and I had started feeling very short of breath and having cough and pain in the chest. This made me think it wasn't just asthma XD so I went to my dear Lyme doctor and came back with a full covid treatment ;) ( because the regular doctor would just give me paracetamol which I'm allergic to.. nonsens )
It's a bit late to start a treatment even though I'm lucky having access to it ( it works better in the first 48 hours and I'm far past that) but how can you tell the difference when you have been used to experience flu symptoms everyday for years ?
I started the antibiotics yesterday but my stomach wouldn't handle it so I had to change today for a weaker one .
By the way I wear a mask in all the shops I go, I wash my hands very regularly (with soap) and just meet with 3 people on a regular basis (minimum once a week, ) , I also go walk alone and stay home for the most part of my days. Well, this didn't stop me from catching a bad bug .
Just saying.
Changing the subject, I designed my costume for Halloween, I don't know if you've seen the
story on Instagram so I'm reposting it here :
I haven't started yet because I still haven't received the fabric^^,,, I haven't received the green fabric to keep working on my other Tinkerbell costume either. Guess I'll juts have to rest and get better while waiting for my parcels :)
Wishing you a nice day, take care, be happy :)
Hello my dear dear Patrons ! I hope you are doing okay.
After a complicated month with my health , I enjoyed the past couple days, the weather has been perfect to my eyes ( Yes I love sun^^) I wish I was living in a country where there is no winter.
Where do you live ? I'm curious about your home. Please tell me my dear Patrons. Do you have seasons, is it sunny , rainy ? What kind of fruits and vegetables are specifics to your area ?
I took some time to edit my last photoshoot while I was thinking it wasn't a complicated cosplay and that I feel I the need to make something a bit more complex; That is why I started working on my next Tinkerbell cosplay by the way^^ and after this one I'll start the Halloween one :)
Anyway here is the first part 1 of the pictures, the ones with a reddish tone were taken with my phone ( I don't have colored lights for my phone pictures so I used my red light therapy lamp XDDD) that is why it looks a bit gloomy ^^,,
The others were taken outside with Shiro
See you very soon :)
Take care !
What do I use to do my photo-shoots ?
So here is a little tour of my equipment:
- On the picture above you can see my background composed of 2 stands and a transversal bar , the fabric background is attached with 2 pliers. I bought the whole thing on aliexpress ( can you find the cat ? XDDD)
-a light with a softbox (aliexpress)
-a portable Flash
-and a studio flash with a softbox
-A tripod for the camera
-And my Veteran camera, my Canon 550 D with a stigma 17-50 1:2.8 lens to replace the one Shiro disassembled a few month ago. ( couldn't find someone to get the lens back together)
And photoshop to edit the pictures :)
See you soon with the next photos :)
So here is a preview from my phone :)
Isabelle's costume is so comfy :3 ( Marie in French)
Hello my dear Patrons. I hope you are doing okay in this crazy world.
I'm taking a moment today while I feel slightly better to post the second part of my last photoshoot. Most of the photos are blurry because it was the first time Shiro was using my 50mm and he didn't check the sharpness on the camera while he was taking the picture, he will do better next time^^ .Sigh. I included them anyway because I really liked the atmosphere.
My health didn't give a moment to rest lately and I'm really looking froward to get back to how I was doing before the confinement .
By the way I went to my first EMDR session and it was....very emotional . I cried all along ^^,,,. I have my next appointment coming up next week, I can't wait to see the results on my chronic issues.
But for now, I wish you a good week end and please take care.
Love +++
Clef
Backstage pics :
XDDD
Hello my dear Patrons !
Sorry for the lack of news but my health has been once again taking a toll on me. I've been receiving antibiotics injections for the past 8 days and the infection is apparently still there. It's the same recurrent bladder infection and the antibiotics are having more difficulties to beat it each time the infection gets back... I'm trying every alternative remedies and plants I can find but nothing has been working so far ... so for now I'm waiting for the second round of test results to see if it's the same bacteria it was 8 days ago.
Oh! Remember when I told you about having new leads to improve my health ? Well I was talking about a therapy several doctors suggested to me throughout the last 4 years. I stayed very unspecific when bringing this subject to you because at that time I didn't know where I could find such therapist. I finally found one and I will start the therapy on the 25 of august.
It's is called EMDR and it's a psychotherapy that enables people to heal from the symptoms and emotional distress that are the result of disturbing life experiences . I came up to the realization that my pains and symptoms may not be the only result of bacteria and viruses trowing a party in my tired body but also probably the result of high chronic stress and especially one coming from a small trauma I went trough when I was young.
(long story short: Me and a handful of my comrades were sexually abused by one of my schoolteacher when I was 9)
Until now it had never occurred to me that it could be one of the multiple reasons my health (and also mental health) was so fragile and that it could be one of the triggering event to my chronic pains and my previous chronic issues ( anorexia, bulimia, chronic panic attacks etc...)
Doctors have been asking me several times during the past years if I had gone trough something of the sort but until now I had never connected the dots. Now i'm ready to work on this part of my life and see what good it brings !
I'll do anything to get my health back to 100%, you know it :)
Well now some of you understand better why I have been so eager to denounce pedophilia over the past few months on my social accounts. :)
I had planned to do my next photoshoot week ago but as usual it didn't go that way. As soon as I'm better we will go find a place to take my next cosplay pictures other than the city park since masks are now mandatory .
See you soon with better news ! Have faith, things will get better :)
And thank you for being here !
here have a sloth on a tree:
