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Menstrual Blood and Corn Syrup Bath

Have you ever sat in a bath of blood? This was many photo sessions back, but I distinctly remember laying in my blood, paint, and corn syrup. There’s a certain euphoria to feeling yourself floating in complete nothingness. It’s strange how I’m completely terrified of deep water, but I could fall in love with the silence of water rushing into your ear canals.

And it fades into a symphonic crescendo of silence that’s so disturbingly quiet.

A part of me imagined myself free...

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The Descent BTS

Got the floor done; put trash bags on the wall, and next Sunday we are going to make magic.

I need an opinion, though. We were testing lighting, and we can’t necessarily figure out which direction to go with the light.

Hard light or Soft light?

With the feel of the shoot—it could easily go one way or the other. Now personally, I want to choose a harsher light to convey a really psychologically damaging effect. Therefore, maybe a bluish type light (in p...

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The Descent BTS

So, next Sunday is the day. We are doing some pre-shooting and setup. There’s going to be some hardcore tongues, kidneys, blood, insects and mincemeat. I’m so fucking stoked as fuck. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

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I, Too, Was Anorexic (An introduction into eating disorders, blood, and my struggle with suicide.)

Yeah, that’s me. That girl in the picture above was me. I was 138 pounds and thought I was in the prime of my life.

I’ve never posted this picture on social media before, and I think the reason is because when I was this weight—nobody ever saw the skin underneath. About four years ago, I was in a relationship that I’m ashamed to say I was a part of for a multitude of reasons. I learned, and I also learned firsthand the effects of narcissistic abuse.

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Life Behind Horror

I believe it was Trent Reznor that so brilliantly stated, that fans of extreme music and art have a perception that they are all baby-eating machines. That, we are always dark, horrible, and maniacal. He also stated that when fans came backstage, they were very disappointed with seeing normal people having a beer and sharing a laugh.

This is a loose quotation to be sure, but an important one nonetheless.

One of the many things I try to reiterate, is that no matter the pursuit yo...

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Period Blood Buffet

Well, I guess YouTube deleted my previous post with me in a bag of blood and meat. Why? I have no idea why.

Ya know, I’m really getting sick of censorship. I’m getting sick of it in the way that what we do is for the pursuit of art. Meanwhile, the internet heavily glorifies pedophilia and objectification of minors—but we are banned?

Not sure if anyone caught my LIVE on Instagram last night, but I explained why I do the art I do.

It’s to rub the hypocrisy o...

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Shoved in a Bag of Blood and Meat

Ah, memories.

This little snippet was a brief recording me tied inside a bag. Jim, against his better judgment, had to enclose me in this plastic bag filled with blood, raw meat, and spoiled oatmeal.

It was part of the shoot we did for Order, and even though the segments are flashed several times in the video, I’m so fucking glad I had the opportunity to choke on decomposition. 💜💜💜

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Shirt sizes for giveaways

Peeps! Can you please drop your shirt sizes below, if you want merch! I need to find out and send the info to the distributor!

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Urotherapy LTO shirts!

GUYS, THEY ARE ORDERED!

Oh my god, I can’t WAIT to send these bad boys to you all! I’m sending everyone an LTO Urotherapy shirt, featuring my artwork! I just have to wait on the distributor, but I FINALLY have them on their way!

Gahhhh I love giving! It’s Thanksgiving soon, and admittedly, I’m a very giving person. So, if you want a shirt, please let me know! I ordered 40. ❤️ I fucking love you all so much! Just your existences being here makes my heart swell. 💜...

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Video Technical Issues

Hey guys, apparently there’s an issue with some of the videos I’m posting. I’m not sure if it’s a technical issue on YouTube’s end or a Patreon situation, but who is not seeing video?

Let me know who and I can try and see if I can fix something on my end, otherwise I’ll reach out to support and get it fixed asap.

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Blood for Paimon BTS (NSFW)

A BTS video that didn’t make the Gram. 😂 For obvious reasons I might add!

I want to start posting more stuff like this on here. Honestly, it’s freeing that y’all let me be a weird fuck. Thank you all so much for that.

I don’t think people really understand the emotions art makes you feel. Whenever I’m in a shoot, I can sincerely feel every fiber of my being come alive. People have DMed me on Instagram asking me if it’s purely for kink, and the answer is no. I don...

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Nun Cosplay Poll

Okay, so, I’m not telling the Gram or anyone else this, but…

I’m doing a nun shoot. But none of that titties hanging out nonsense! I’m talking like some diabolical, disgusting, fucked up, sister Mary was burned alive type shit. 

So, my question Is: 

What color should the habit be? Should I go trad route and do black? Or should I mix it up and do an all white ensemble? 

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Instagram Names

Hey y’all! Please drop your Instagram names below so I can do a proper shoutout Wednesday!!!!!!!! I need to give EVERYONE THE LOVE!

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Patreon Surveys

So, I was looking at some of the surveys people held for why they unsubscribed. Your opinion is what matters, and I want to make things right.

What can I do to better improve your experience? A couple commented that I wasn’t active enough, and others were dissatisfied with the book. :/

So, how can I improve? When it comes to giveaways—I can’t unfortunately control shipping due to the artist i pay, or the supply chain. Please bear with me during the holidays as it’s super ...

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Giveaway Addresses!

Hey y’all, brief reminder!

If I don’t have your address, please let me know! I’m not sure if everyone reads their messages, but I want everyone to have their goodies! If you want goodies—please message me, DM me on Insta! 💜💜💜💜💜💜

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My Frozen Blood

This is probably the oldest sample I have left. If you read my posts prior, then you know I had…an unfortunate thing happens.

Life happens.

But it doesn’t stop you and it shouldn’t. Anyway, yesterday’s shoot was composed of my old blood, and I’m still in awe of how beautiful it is when it’s frozen. I initially wanted to mix my piss and blood together in the vase, but I felt that may have been to “eh.” I don’t know.

I really am excited about crea...

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Piss Drinking (Bonus Ovulation)

I’m sorry, I’m ovulating, BUT! This was before yesterday’s shoot. Again, it feels so good to do gross out horror. I was pretty reserved from “Acts of Depravity Vol. 2” getting so much flack, but I said fuck it and decided to do it.

And honestly, it’s not in my nature to give a fuck.

I have to say, I fucking love y’all so much on here. I don’t know why, but I feel like you guys are all my family, and i just want to hug y’all so much. Please don’t ever change. ...

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Blood for Paimon BTS

Back to business.

I can honestly say this shoot was a ball. I ALMOST posted something NSFW, but then I said, “nah, I don’t need vagene and bobs guys after me.”

I have a SHIT TON of content from this shoot that I’m VERY eager to share!

Enjoy the depravity, my friends.

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Blood for Paimon BTS

How about a little piss and blood?

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Blood for Paimon BTS

I was told last night to create, and now I’m creating. I don’t know where this will take me, but here’s a little sneak peek at what I’m coming up with so far!

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Paimon Visit

I have to share this.

Paimon visited me in my sleep. I fell asleep about 30 minutes ago, and I fell into an almost euphoric trance. He came to me when I asked him to teach me patience, and make my art wallow in the darkness.

He only replied that I must create. I must create something in his honor, and perform with passion.

Holy shit. That was the first time he’s visited me in my sleep; in fact, that was the first time he’s visited me in awhile. Tomorrow, I have to creat...

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Serious Question

Alright…I can’t believe I’m going to ask this question, and, if everyone hates me after it, I’ll understand.

Shit.

What are your thoughts on shit? I’ve been wanting to do some…pretty vile horror with it, but there’s piss, and then there’s shit.

I mean, if Torsofuck can do it, I can…right? Er, no? I don’t know. I’m asking a serious question. Obviously, ANYTHING BTS would be here. A huge part of me feels like you could create some just downright DISGUS...

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Foot Porn

I mean, maybe? Yesterday I screenshot some kind of…strange stills of the vid I did with Order. I’m sure in some circles it’s considered the holiest of all pictures, but I just look at it like, “it’s a Tuesday for Cor.”

At any rate, I can’t wait to do more shoots and videos again. I especially can’t wait to get my next period so I can harvest some fresh blood. 🩸

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BRUTAL FUCKING HORROR (New Merch Design)

Dropping now! Happy Friday, y’all!

And guess what? The long sleeve option has Klarna, which means you can pay that bad boy off in four payments instead of one!

Happy Shopping, my Patreon family! I love you all!

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Burned Hag Tutorial Part 3

Jesus Christ on a stick! I can FINALLY post this!

I apologize for the delay, y’all. I’ve officially done away with Vimeo. It was disallowing me from posting this last part. Fucking A!

Anyway…so.

To give you a quick, brief explanation. Vic’s eyes were not done because I applied blood AFTER the video. The reason being for that is because it would affect her vision, and I always tamper with eyes when I’m about to shoot.

I would also like to n...

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“A Warm Place” after session.

Alrighty, so, I think I’m going to move from Vimeo and start uploading onto YouTube. You all only have access to the video links.

THESE WILL NOT BE AVAILABLE TO THE PUBLIC.

This was after my “A Warm Place” session. I had to shove cotton balls mixed with latex and rotten blood down my throat to get that nice coating of spit. Admittedly, I would never just peel latex off my face like this, but I wanted to show you all how funny it looks. 😂

Now that...

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The Secret to Vitality (Period Blood in Coffee)

Today is my last day here in TN. As I sit here in the BNA airport, I made sure to drink my last cup of coffee, with my blood supply I let harden.

That harvest was worth it; it was the first period I had since my abortion, and it tasted unique.

I do spice up my drinks and food with my blood, but that’s a personal choice.

Well, back to FL, but back to my supply at home in the fridge.

If you can’t see this video please comment. I had to upload from You...

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Shoutout Wednesday

Okay, okay. So, today is my last day here in TN. Im very sad to leave my mom, sister, niece, and cats, but the show must go on.

However…

I want to start shouting out you all on my socials. So, if you have a page, art page, music page, business…whatever…please comment! Im going to start spreading the love and support so others can see it as well. I love you all, and I want to help! Maybe we can all start supporting each other! Let me know!!!!

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20% OFF ALL MERCH + YOUR DISCOUNT CODE!!!

My Patreon family—now is the time to give thanks for you all. Which is why, through Black Friday, I’m doing FREE SHIPPING on all items through November 26th!!!!

Make sure to apply your unique discount code to receive an even BIGGER discount!

HAPPY EARLY THANKSGIVING!

I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU ALL!!!

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Facetune 2 Refresher (Please go back and read post!)


Here is a brief refresher for you all!

Note: the pink bubble is where my finger is—indicating my preferred selections. Please go back and re-read my post to get an in-depth tutorial!

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