TORRES

November baby

her love (stripped demo)

Her love is cold wind

Her love’s a moonless night

Her love is secret

Her love, what would I know of it?

It’s haunting to watch you sittin there gettin high on grift

I don’t know why you think you need that shit

Her love loves the sinner      

But really hates the sin

Her love barely buries

The rage that never lifts

It feels like you wish I was still sad like you

I forgive you even though you’re not asking...

<3

i wrote an earlier version of this song years ago but this has basically been rewritten and given a new melody. I hope y'all like and really hope you're all staying well as can be out there. Love you.

Mac

lyrics:

I read the last ten pages

Of your shitty book 

To be honest I can’t believe

You even made me look

Such a sense of entitlement 

How’d your head get so huge?

Can’t help but wince, you were so convinced 

Th...

An extra road

Opened the drawer by the bed 

This morning looking for my head

Found a lone marble rolling around instead  

Some historic version of me that I kept 

I’ve been hoping to tell you about my dreams 

They are all I can see today 

Walking around with a TV screen 

Screwed into the mainframe

You know there is a window 

That opens to an extra road

I know you already found it

I see you there when I go...

light of your love

Wordlessly, unheavily perfumed 

You spill your miracles 

Irreverently, confidently amused 

You kill your idols 

In the light of your love I can do anything 

In the light of your love I can do anything 

Majesty in the wind

In everything that breathes

In your green velvet gloves

You hold the whole sun 

In the light of your love I can do anything 

In the light of your love I can do anything&...

December 28, 2024

my worry - demo

I am as greedy 

As anyone could be

I have been grieving 

Since the beginning 

I’m not even close to being ready to let you go 

And you cannot carry the worry that I know

So heavy 

My worry 

To carry 

My worry 

I open my mouth 

Your voice comes out 

Why would I get free

When I don’t want to be?

I’m not even close to being ready to let ...

Big Ruth (Tao of Who?) - demo

Big Ruth grew legs

Wrapped them around me

She says, “Don’t make me beg,

I want a baby”

Deep roots

Heavily perfumed

She kills your idols

Hard truths

Her fruits

Spilling her miracles

She takes a load off

Now she’s got me on the rug

Who knew she’d be a

Live wire?

Deep roots

Heavily perfumed

She kills your idols

Hard truths

Her fruits

Spilling her miracl...

I don't wonder (demo)

I don’t wonder if you’re dressed in black 

I don’t wonder if you made it back 

To Hawaii

I don’t wonder what I know 

I don’t wonder if your mouth’s still dirty 

I don’t wonder if you quit smokin by thirty 

Like you said you would do 

I don’t wonder what I know

I don’t wonder what I know 

I don’t wonder if you can still drink me

Under the table 

I don’t ...

Piscean Ghostess (demo)

I won’t be reaching out anymore 

You’ve gone mighty quiet for a troubadour 

I thought you were my friend

Among the best of them 

That psycho rattled you 

I know you had to move 

So I won’t pretend to know what you’ve been going through 

But what’s there to misconstrue? 

I was the truest blue 

No I won’t be reaching out anymore 

I keep all your postcards in a drawer

I thou...

Who doesn't?

I'm not sure if/when I'll get to release this one officially, so for now I'm gonna give it to you guys. I love this song and it kinda contains my whole soul in it, but I have a difficult time interacting with it because it taps into my most overwhelming persistent fears. Recorded with my friend Aaron Roche in November 2022, he helped my find an effective way to present the song. He played basically everything on it (piano, trombone, some guitar) and I appreciate his lens so much--his approach...

What then?

Recorded by me at home

Mixed by TJ Allen in Bristol

Lyrics:

If you live every day ready for the world to end

Then you’re gonna make it happen

What if there’s no hot pink showdown coming?

What if the earth keeps on turning?

What then?  What then?

The most dangerous lie’s the one you most want to believe 

You wind up saying, “Well that’s close enough to the truth for me”

What if ...

pre-supper joint (demo)

Turned a poem into a song, which i am known to do. love yall <3

Lyrics:

I wear my grief

Reluctantly 

You lock the door behind

So the January stays outside 

Feel for the key 

Cut just for me

The wind shivers

The hum of dinner 

Love and wine

Await me there inside 

The snow is sparkling

Like in a painting 

My eyes well

I will be held

I’m so afraid

Just another day

Did you see the wave

As it came up over you?

Thought it was just another day 

You had a question 

Were you moved by the spirit or your 

wandering nerve?

Everyone is sure you’re in a better place 

To pretend we know anything is strange 

I’m so sorry 

You weren’t ok 

You know he won’t ever be the same

Will they remember your face ?

Everyone is sure you�...

The mansion my hunger outgrew 

I’ve been growing wings in secret at the bottom of the sea

Breathing underwater in a language that I do not speak

Playin the games of powers to whom I owe a debt 

Learnin the names of flowers that haven’t opened yet

 I could feed off the faith of the many 

If I felt any 

My heart is never not in my throat or my feet

The only formula that I’ve been able to repeat 

Hidden in the folds of my libidinous skin suit

rainbow machine

These dreams these dreams 

Are they the real me? 

Why does the yet-to-come

Feel like a memory?

You’re lookin at it whatever “it” is

But you’re too numb to see

In dreams I deal 

With my mortality 

Reluctantly but I 

Think I’m beginning 

We’re lookin at it whatever “it” is

But we’re too young to see

Monday's Mountain

Two-step your way to the top!

mid-march garden song

I turned 33 in January and I'm really floating in that feeling of being a slighly different person every single day.  A night of dreaming feels like a lifetime (or more) and when I wake up and begin again something is always different, just a little changed. 

I'll try to be more active here in this space--I thank you all for your continued support and interest in what I'm doing. Please be kind to yourselves and take as much care of the you of now and the you of late...

I haven’t been sharing a lot…

Or at all really over the last couple of months. I’m sorry for the time away! I am going to put a couple of recent music loosy goosys here later today. I love yall

In my ears

https://tidal.com/playlist/6492574d-4585-47ce-a2ca-4b3de7b55456

Jerk into joy

Early morning voice :)

December 21, 2023

Wake to flowers (acoustic)

Out in early January

flute came out

<3

the veil is thin today

i love you each 

keep those hips

swinging left 

swinging right

through the night! 

so as never to die

New TORRES album + Patreon US tour presale!

My new song, "Collect" is out now, with an accompanying video directed and edited by Dani Okon.

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M

desire to fall demo

Don’t have to be good

Don’t need much gall

Don’t have to have been there before

Just need the desire to fall

Don’t have to have called

Or keep your eye on the ball

Don’t have to stay sharp

Just need the desire to fall

Don’t have to climb high

Don’t need to crawl

Don’t have to win the game

Just need the desire to fall

Don’t have to stand tall

Don’t need to scale a wall

Don’t have to think ...

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A dream is a plan that flies

Swimmin in the frequent sea of belief

The light of heaven is here

Proof the hand of god holds you in high esteem

It was you who summoned me

From the stars to be your family

When you call I think of Easter and of my suburban sisters

Living for lunch after church and the holy scripture

Filling morning with breakfast devotionals and pious whispers

Fear in your voice box just like a robot

We all just need som...

Waiting wine (demo)

Asked if they had

A table for two

Triumphant I stood there

My arm around you

He smiled at us

His eyes knowing and kind

Said he was all booked for the night

But to give him some time

Have a seat right outside

That he’d make room for us

So just enjoy the waiting wine

Patient and slow

My shirt freshly pressed

Your sweater open

Late-October on your chest

Carrying your perfume my way

You sa...