Ancilla L

Love Is About Luck And Courage.

“You are just very lucky,” she said to me, “Not everyone in the world is as lucky as you when it comes to love.”

I don’t disagree. I am not one of those people who takes offense at the idea that love takes a little bit of luck, especially if one’s version of love is esoteric and involves an alternative lifestyle. I truly believe there is some degree of magic to the fact that my spouse and I even met, and that we met at the moment that we did. I mean, what are the odds that t...

Class Upload: Erotic Expressionism

Hi all!

This is the full-upload for the Erotic Expressionism class. Please find attached:

• The full audio recording of the class being taught

• The presentation

• The reading notes.

• For everyone who attended live, thank you for coming! If you enjoy this class—recorded, online or live— please do leave a review for it here.

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Upcoming Class: Erotic Expressionism

Hi;This is the post for the upcoming Erotic Expressionism class taking place on Saturday. The following is the class link (the time listed below is in Indian Standard Time):

Erotic Expressionism

Saturday, Oct 19 • 18:00 – 20:00

Google Meet joining info

Video call link: https://meet.google.com/don-jbaq-aqh

Or dial: +1 402-284-0342 PIN: 138 267 219#

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The Distortion Of Time.

I don't know if I will be afforded a future,

Or see the structures of tomorrow unfold,

if I will ever read through my life and yours,

like faded stories already written and told.

Perhaps the soul can scry the chilling panic,

of loss already etched into my aching gaze,

of the warm fear of never getting to revisit,

every unseen nook and cranny of this place.

For when I watch my child, fevered and cold,

nuzz...

Podcast E84: Modern Love, an untimely review.

I talk about the political potential of love, but first I talk about how much I love Modern Love, the column, not the podcast, shows and movie.

Class Upload: Finding The Fabric Of Your Masochism

Hello everyone!

This is the upload of the full-class. In the attachments you will find:

• A file containing the recorded audio of me teaching the class.

• A file with a powerpoint presentation of the class.

• A file with the reading notes.
  

For optimal consumption I would suggest that you open up the ppt and play the audio simultaneously, you will be guided through the presentation once you press play. Let me know if this format ...

Parenting and Comprehensive Sexual Education.

This is the story of Sreeni. Sreeni spent fifteen-years in a deeply oppressive marriage with a patriarchal man with whom she also had two-children. Around the time that she was forty, and the kids were eleven and fourteen, Sreeni decided to leave this marriage. After she left, she started to pursue sadomasochism, polyamory and power-exchange like she had always wanted to, and as is customary for some people, her exploration began with a frenzy. During the course of this frenzy, a month...

Upcoming Class Details: Finding The Fabric of Your Masochism.

Hello all.

This update is for members who have paid for the single class of Finding The Fabric of Your Masochism or subscribe to the "Cheerleader" tier or above. You can join the live online class on Sunday, the details are as follows:

Finding The Fabric of Your Masochism

Sunday, Oct 6 • 17:00 – 19:00

Google Meet joining info

Video call link: https://meet.google.com/ecd...

The Relationship HighCast: It's Also A Game!

I made up a very basic relationship game but hear me out, please! It's a game where your partner makes a list of ten questions (about themselves) that they think you wouldn't be able to answer, and then you attempt to answer them. I played the game with @MAncilla, the podcast I am posting is my questions and he is attempting to answer them.

The Relationship HighCast: It's a game!

I made up a very basic relationship game but hear me out, please! It's a game where your partner makes a list of ten questions (about themselves) that they think you wouldn't be able to answer, and then you attempt to answer them. I played the game with @MAncilla, the podcast I am posting are his questions and I am answering attempting to answer. 

Dildos Aren't Here To Replace You!

He posted a picture of himself fucking my cunt with a dildo and it didn’t take very long for the inevitable, insecure and hateful comment that is painfully common to show up:

“*Does your own dick not work that you have to fuck her with a dildo?*”

Ugh.

We get variations of these—on pictures, in inboxes, in person—and it’s always surprising. Sometimes it’s a condescending twat who wants to explain to me that I only need the dildo if I am alon...

Podcast Series: Abuse: Relationships As A Person Who has Been Abused (Part 1)

Schedule For Live Online Classes.

Hello all!

I have launched an online platform for classes. If you support me at the $9 tier or above, you will now be able to access all my live online classes as part of what you pay for. I will post the class-link to each class a day prior to the event for you to join. If you are unable to join live, I will also be sharing audio recordings of the class, the presentation used to teach as well as the class notes as a bundle accessible only to the $9 tier and above. If you subscribe at a...

The Relatioship HighCast: Social Media and Relationships.

What is the public image of your relationship? Does it need to exist?

Podcast E83: How Healthy Do You Have To Be To Kink Anyway?

What does it mean to be healthy enough to be kinky?

Age Is Just A Number And Maybe That Number Means Something To Me?

A couple of months ago, I had a strange experience when a 22-year-old hit on me and expressed an interest in dating. That wasn’t the strange experience, it was my response that caught me by surprise. I could not bring myself to even process the proposition because they felt way too young for me, I could not even look at this person in evaluation of my attraction to them because their age made it a non-starter for me. That was, new.

I’m not against age-gap relationships at all, I am ...

Souvenir.

"So did you bring them?" I asked her as I sipped her iced tea.

She'd just added two spoonfuls of sugar to the mix after claiming no one in the world understood sweet things should be *really* sweet. I took a sip and immediately I wanted to throw up from that overwhelming sensation of feeling like you are drinking sugar syrup.

"I did bring them," she said taking her tea back from my hands and handing my coffee back to me, "I'm still not sure why the hell you want th...

Podcast Series: Abuse: The Representation of Abuse

This is a patron-exclusive podcast series looking into various facets, commonly asked questions and trends associated with abuse.

Podcast Series: Abuse: Why Did You Not Leave?

This is a patron-exclusive podcast series looking into various facets, commonly asked questions and trends associated with abuse.

I Killed Lolita.

When I was with him, I made it my sole purpose to understand him. It felt like only I could do so and the world wouldn’t understand either one of us, anyway. The world saw me as a child when it was convenient to them, when my attempts at asserting myself and my autonomy interfered with their ideology, I was a child then, but when they needed me to lie for them, cover for them or hide their sins, then I was old enough to be expected to act like an adult. When I was interested in the sexual b...

The Relationship HighCast: The Social Life of Partners