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Unfair- Chapter 80: War Paint

Chapter 80: War Paint

It was Tuesday.  I was sitting across from Skinner in the Speech Therapy Room, alone and without my posse as Skinner tried once again to get me to talk like a friggin’ toddler. Things were not going well for her. Though I had to give her credit:  Nearly twenty minutes of my nonsense and she still hadn’t lost her composure.  ‘A’ for effort.

“Okay.  What does the…” she paused and looked at the picture on he...

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The New Narnia-Chapter 54: Aftermath and Revelations

Chapter 54: Aftermath and Revelations

“So did it work?” Charlie asked at daycare the next day. “Did the deal go down?”

They shouldn’t have been talking about it so openly, both knew.  As far as either could tell, the Nanny might not be omniscient but she had agents and systems in place to keep her informed of everything going on in her realm.  Malacus’s daycare that existed everywhere at once was most definitely that domain.

In an amazing act of self-...

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A Naptime On Elm Street Retrospective

So I was bored one day and decided to write an ABDL version of a Nightmare on Elm Street.  It happens.  My brain is weird.

The thing is, there was a reason why I chose a nightmare on Elm Street.  Without meaning to be, the movie might just be the perfect Dark Age play movie.

Freddy is scary yes, and everybody knows the Bogey Man.  The thing is, he's not the scariest part of the movie.  (He's very scary, mind you. Robert Englund is amazing.)

The sc...

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Unfair- Chapter 79: Sabotage

Chapter 79: Sabotage

“I love you…”

“I love you, too, baby boy.”

Wake. Wide awake.  Burning up with fever and shivering cold at the same time.  Dehydrated but almost too tired to drink.

And in the moment, none of that mattered.

No.

No, no, no!

Fuck no!

I did not just say that!

She did not just hear that!

I was delirious.

I was still feverish.  

This was a fever dre...

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Unfair- Chapter 78: Fever

Chapter 78: Fever

Teachers don’t get sick that often.  It’s not something we do. Part of it is just building up natural stamina and resistance. As a general rule, kids are germ factories, walking petri dishes of viruses and bacteria all spreading it around with one another.  Not counting hospitals, schools are probably the biggest hotbed for any number of diseases.  So teachers, as a side effect, often develop very robust immune systems.

If o...

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Twitter Story: In Good Company

"Has anybody figured anything out?"

"Nope.  Not yet."

"I pooped myself in my sleep last night.  Does that count?"

A chorus of disgusted No's is the reply.  

"What? I've lost my potty training. Shouldn't that we be worried about that?"

All around you, peers shift anxiously.  People in dresses try to tug down on them for the dozenth time, despite the hems being too short to cover up their Luvs.  Folks in onesies keep trying to shove th...

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Unfair- Chapter 77: Tired

Chapter 77: Tired

I woke up because I needed to pee.  Resting my eyes on the playground’s bench had been a precursor to me completely passing out in the playpen in Janet’s classroom not half an hour later.  Too many late nights cursing into the baby monitor.  

One by one, my senses started to come back online like an old computer slowly booting up.  Holy cow, did I feel old in that moment.  Joints ached. Eyes fought to stay closed. ...

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Rattled: Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Wally was having a relatively easy first week at Daycare.  He crawled around on the floor in his socks and onesies, lightly crinkling with every movement of his back half and lightly jingling with every motion from his front.  He barely noticed the sound of the rattle anymore unless he was consciously ringing it.  It was just another component in the soundtrack of his life.  The rattle gave him a constant light buzz that never completely went away.  T...

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Unfair- Chapter 76: Playpen Kingpin

Chapter 76: Playpen Kingpin.

Tommy had a very difficult next couple of days in Mrs. Beouf’s Maturosis and Developmental Plateau Class. As near as I could tell, Tommy spent the next couple of days completely red faced, trembling, growling under his breath, and fighting back tears.

“Awwww, look at the baby! Did the baby go pee-pee in his widdle pants? I bet he did! I bet he did!”

‘How adorable! He’s sucking his thumb!”

“I could just pin...

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Unfair-Chapter 75: Flick

PART 7:  Problem Child

Chapter 75: Flick

I was in line right behind Tommy, already belted into the line leash.  Clutching Lion in my arms, I stared at the back of his head.  Tommy had just been given a haircut that weekend and I could still see hints of pale flesh irritated pink by the morning’s chill wind.

Everyone was relatively covered up that day and no one’s great padded shame was uncovered.  It was the first time since getti...

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The New Narnia- Chapter 53: Last Meal

Chapter 53:Last Meal

Tommy sat in his toddler bed, clutching the vase filled with strange electric blue goo like it was a teddy bear to keep him safe from the Bogeyman.  His diaper was wet but didn’t need changing yet.  It was slightly damp, but not even close to soggy. It could and would last through the night unless he woke up crying loud enough for Mommy to come in and change him.

He wasn’t going to wake up and cry about it, because he wasn’t going to go to sl...

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Only Child

Slowly, deliberately, Serena took a sip of coffee, savoring the flavor: Two creams. Three sugars. Extra, extra caramel.  Truly, it was perfect.  It was a shame, almost, that she wouldn’t be swallowing this batch.  She counted backwards in her head, three…two…one… and spit out the delicious beverage all over the office carpet.

“Did you…?” She stopped and glared at the intern, some barely twenty-two year old Amazon whose mother and father were rich enough s...

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Sydney's Wish

Humans today, as a general rule, are an intelligent, complicated, wonderfully messy and diverse species with a sociological defect of thinking things should be simple. This can lead to them pushing themselves and the world around them into unhealthy extremes:  Fire or Flood. Weal or Woe. Starvation or Gluttony. Chaste or Slutty.  Is or Isn’t.  Column A or Column B.  The list goes on.

This also results in massive amounts of low key unhappiness. People who live othe...

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Rattled: Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Wally laid in his big boy bed, clutching his special rattle to his chest.  It had almost doomed him, even though for his entire life he’d been convinced that it would protect him and keep the Amazons from taking him from Mother and Father and treating him like a baby forever.

His relatively iron bladder had saved him.  Being so young had probably played a role too, he’d heard his parents saying behind the closed door. Being at an age where even the Amazon ...

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A Difficult Decision: Unfair, Postponed.

Dear Patrons,

I've been on a roll with Unfair as of late.  A couple months ago I ended Part 5 and people asked "Are you gonna take a break".  I said "no" and kept going.  This week has been rough.  And looking at my calendar, it's not gonna get less rough this month.  Now, I need a break.

This is both because with the end of the year and the holidays approaching, more time is going to need to be spent away from the keyboard and in the real world, and bec...

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The New Narnia: Chapter 52- Regrouping

Chapter 52: Regrouping

Tommy’s shock did not get a chance to abate.  There was no quiet to contemplate. No time to absorb what had been revealed. No chance to stir.

“Mommy!” He whined from the carseat. “No! I don’t wanna go to Charlie’s house! I wanna go home!” That wasn’t true at all.  Home, arguably, was worse, or at least more dangerous.  The portal to Malacus was in Tommy’s house.  Home didn’t guarantee the presence of Charlie though. ...

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Unfair-Chapter 74: Lack of Progress Report

Chapter 74: Lack of Progress Report

Janet was grinning like an idiot all the way home after school that Friday.  On one hand, this was unsurprising. Beginning of the weekend meant she had more time to obsessively try to be ‘Mommy’ with me.  Just being around me and holding me in her lap seemed to recharge her batteries.

For my part, I dozed in the car seat somewhere between sleep and wakefulness. Such a shit week.  Everything was falling apa...

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Escape

Somewhere on the “UsBox Now”, a stream went live. Simultaneous updates on both public and supposedly private social media sites alerted subscribers to the feed. Anyone tuning in would have seen a pastel blue blur filling up the camera for an awkward few seconds before the figure in front of it slowly and carefully backed away, a plastic crinkling sound punctuating each step.

To Amazon eyes, it was an adorable baby girl, barely a toddler despite her curly strawberry blonde ringlets....

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Unfair- Chapter 73: Off the Mark

Chapter 73: Off The Mark

By Tuesday afternoon my frustration had begun to reach a boiling point.   “Really?” I said to my group behind the big oak tree.  “You guys are really buying into this?” All three held their stuffed animals tight.  Even Chaz had perfected a kind of tripod crawl so he could keep his close to his chest.

“Not really,” Annie said. “We’re just going with it. Using it to our advantage.  Like you taught ...

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The Rip: Chapter 3

Commissioned by Areat

Chapter

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Close Enough

Adam and Freddie weren’t twins. Not really.  They were born less than a year apart, though, and both had inherited the same basic looks: Irish Twins it was called. Though neither Little had any idea who the Irish were, or how big they were compared to Amazons, both had the same light brown hair and square chin as their father, and a near total inability to grow a proper beard.  While not quite identical, they could easily be mistaken for one another from a distance.  

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Unfair- Chapter 72: Things Get Better For Worse

Chapter 72: Things Get Better For Worse

As usual, the sun wasn’t up when I got into Mrs.Beouf’s room first thing in the morning.  Neither was Beouf.  “Sorry Ms. Grange,” Zoge said to Janet. “Mrs. Beouf is already up front.”

“No problem.”  Janet said.  “Should I give her Lion there or just leave him with Clark?” she patted the diaper bag. Lion’s head was poking out of it.

“Mrs. Beouf would be best, I think.” S...

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Unfair-Chapter 71: Self-Soothing Supermarket Sweep

Chapter 71: Self-Soothing Super Market Sweep

Late Saturday morning.  Just before lunch.  Plans were for me to stoically allow myself to be stuffed with ravioli and then fall asleep in a semi-bloated haze. But first; grocery shopping. The cart glided down the dairy aisle.

“Huh,” Janet said, picking up the tremendous jug of milk.  “Goat’s milk. Let’s give it a try.” She put it in the cart and moved on.  “Eggs? Sure. We need eggs....

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October Check in

First let me just say that I'm super grateful for all of the support that I've gotten thanks to Unfair, New Narnia, Rattled, the Rip, and the Gold Tier Commissions.  

Thank you so very much.  I have a tendency, as a person, to feel like I'm in too deep or biting off more than I can chew, and it feels good to know that I'm still entertaining folks.

Speaking of Biting Off More Than I can Chew: Next week is likely to be relatively quiet for me.

Gotta do some housek...

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Unfair-Chapter 70: Little Voices: Games Grown-Ups Play

Chapter 70: Little Voices: Games Grown-Ups Play

I sulked in Janet’s lap at that night’s Little Voices meeting; still brooding and stewing over what went wrong with Beouf.  Beouf gushed over how ‘well’ things had gone that day, and said how much of a joy it was to have Lion in the class with me.  Beouf was happy, and that meant I couldn’t be.  I felt like a chess player going over a game in my head to see where I made the wrong move.  Wher...

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Another Day At The Office

James went into the office, his light blue shirt, neatly buttoned up, yet untucked from his tan slacks. Business casual meant ‘dressed up but lazy’. It was kind of his look. The only reason he wore loafers was because there were no laces to tie. On his way over to his cubicle he stopped by Jen’s desk. “Hey Jen.”

The receptionist in her purple sweater looked up from her desk. “ Hey James.” Her very smile lit up James’s world. It’s why he stopped by her desk every morni...

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Rattled: Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

The days and weeks that followed for Walter were less and less like a normal ebb and flow and more like a highlight reel of his worst possible fears.
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Walter craned his neck as though doing so might cause his head to roll off the back of his shoulders.  Grimly, he mused that he might yet be so lucky.

“Open wide for the oatmeal!” Sarah said. “Open wid...

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Unfair- Chapter 69: Lionize

Chapter 69: Lionize

In terms of class and therapy, most of the week was unremarkable.  Just like with work, confinement, conditioning, and resisting said confinement and conditioning take on a kind of daily grind.  Things aren’t ‘fine’, but you might say they were if nothing of note happened.  Even torture can become unremarkable after a few weeks.

The time in the classroom with Beouf.  After the shakeup involving Ambrose and an actual...

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Unfair-Chapter 68: A Crying Shame

Chapter 68: A Crying Shame

Potty training isn’t natural. For anyone.  Little, Tweener, or Amazon: learning how to use the toilet is a skill that is taught, complete with procedure as well as etiquette.  Same with things like knowing how to swim or eat with silverware.  No, I’m not saying that if left to their own devices, people will pee and poop themselves for the entirety of their natural lives.  Bladder and bowel control strengthens with age...

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Of Ice Cream, Cake, and 5th Dimensional Travel

To the layman, Dr. Ella Sinclair looked like she was wearing an astronaut costume.  It wasn’t as bulky, and the material was a shiny silver instead of a muted white, but the general vibe of a baggy full body suit and helmet remained.  Diedre, her assistant, had commented early on that the suit looked like a costume from a B-Movie about space travel.  If only space travel is what Dr. Sinclair had been aiming for.  Space travel was so much simpler.

“Remember,” D...

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