LARVA ME
Added 2020-04-22 23:32:48 +0000 UTCI took this picture during times of transformation, which I would describe as my unresolved insecurities projecting from the inside out.
The circle of people surrounding me were insecure in their own special way, which held a key to the new me I was becoming. Every person was a lesson, a little hint of what I should refrain from being or becoming.
It helped me discover that my wellbeing and future matter more to me than unconsciously entertaining insecure people.
Once I set a plan to change my path, the toxic people around me started to freak out. Like I was their favorite street light and they were needy moths, fearing to lose what gave them energy. They used me, made fun of me and hurt me and these were people I was constantly attracting. I can't just blame them, though... I blame me for even attracting that!
It became clear it served me no purpose to continue in the circle. I knew that the answer was to go without fear, with no attachment and a "let's gtfo of here" attitude.
What I'm proud of is that all the hard times have shown me that I am actually a strong person and that I do care about myself enough to leave difficult situations. Life is too short for excuses. Love isn't accepting less than what you deserve to please others.
The experience took me where I feel at peace. I am grateful, rather than asking myself "why did this happen to me?"
" A caterpillar's body digests itself from the inside out. The same juices it used to digest food as a larva it now uses to break down its own body..." This is what happens inside a cocoon.
source: https://www.wonderopolis.org/wonder/what-goes-on-inside-a-cocoon
