aimkid

more general update! still pretty confused..

Added 2024-12-02 00:47:05 +0000 UTC

progress had been made on porting "boy arena" to the new networking scheme, a pretty decent amount thankfully, but i'm still feeling so uncertain when it comes to what i actually want to do and commit to right now.. i think the unfortunate answer is i don't think there is a solution, i'm likely just going to keep bouncing all over the place project the project rapidly like i have been these past few weeks off of my medication.

it's pretty frustrating, but the good news is i'll be seeing my prescriber again next week! the bad news is that it still is no guarantee of anything changing if my heart's still acting up, which i won't know until i next have my vitals taken when i see my prescriber again. it's frustrating to have everything hinge so much on this one thing, but i'm remembering to be kind to myself during this time. this is just sort of How I Am off of adderall and it's what induced a drawn-out mental health crisis years ago when i was much less mentally stable..

i've been continually testing the waters this week with all sorts of stuff, including animation again but i don't know if any of that's going to stick, i may wind up going back to "boy arena" like i meant to which is the likely option, as well as whats probably the best option right now because drawing is much harder than programming and all that jazz currently. again, i really appreciate the patience while i go through all of this!