general update! things are getting a little rough

i've been sketching but ultimately not much was done this week again unmedicated.. bad news too, i won't be able to be medicated with adderall again until mid-december at the earliest, so there's an entire month ahead of me like that.

to be blunt, the reason i had to go off of the medication is because of some heart complications, my heart is beating abnormally fast, notably for my resting rate which ended up in me going to the ER earlier this month where they couldn't find anything wrong. so right now it's very up in the air what's causing it, when it will be resolved, how it will be resolved, and when i'll be able to be medicated again.. to be clear it's nothing life-threatening as far as we know! but it's a huge obstruction for work which is why i bring it up.

i'm gonna have to get creative to get work done during this time, i really do want and need to sit down and focus on a project i can reasonably complete in the coming months, but suddenly i'm facing this problem that makes it extremely difficult to start and focus and its very frustrating. i appreciate the patience all of you have shown me now and over these past 2 years, i'm trying to make it fruitful!

unfortunately because of all this, the plans i laid out so confidently about 2 weeks ago has suddenly gone up in smoke, meaning i'm back at square one and will likely have to start a new animation. thankfully, i believe whatever i start now will have the most likelihood of actually turning into something because i've been made very aware of my limits like i mentioned before! it's just been pretty difficult to break old habits, but i'm more conscious of that than ever. all that said, it will still likely be slow going without the medication. yet i remain optimistic!

i'll basically be spending this week crash testing a bunch of different ideas and seeing what sticks! i've been meaning to animate something dedicated to Logan Whitehurst for a few years now, him and his music being a major inspiration for Lemon Demon, so i may toy around a bit with the idea!