potentially putting the patreon on pause for another month

the way things are going, i may need to pause my patreon for another month to decompress, i mentioned before that something happened in december that left me in a rough mental state right after i just recovered, that being another mass harassment which set me back heavily as it sunk in over the weeks, leaving me in a state where its impossible to get animation work done. this has happened before which took me an entire year to recover from after lots of ups and downs. i've continually been harassed by all sorts of people for years and its increasingly become extremely difficult for me to cope with.

for example there's someone who's essentially been stalking me digitally for the past couple of years, harassing me from any possible entry point they could find, using an endless amount of alt accounts in an attempt to contact me or my friends, threatening to dox me, telling me to kill myself, claiming to be the reason i wanted to kill myself in the past, etc. one of my friends felt bad for this person because they seemed mentally unwell so they became friends last year without my knowledge, only for it to turn out said person was essentially just using my friend to get any information they can about me, trying to use them to get in contact with me, manipulating them and recording every call they had together to use against them and me. this is just ONE of the people that have been continually harassing me and anyone they deem as close to me these past few years.

i try my best to not let these things get to me, i've essentially had to become a complete shut-in online in an attempt to hide all this stuff from myself and close off any entry points. i avoid mentioning this kind of thing because its ultimately my own problem and bringing it up usually only fuels the fire, but its gotten to the point where its seriously affecting my life and my ability to work again, as well as affecting the people close to me. i've only seen such a tiny fraction of the harassment but just knowing that it's going on kills me, it sucks all the fun and joy out of making animation. it's horrible because not only am i being targeted, but anyone who's ever had any sort of public association with me is being targeted as well, meaning pretty much all of my friends old and new are also being subject to this to varying extents. even if the apparent connection is as small as just "us following eachother on twitter".

so that's where i am right now. i'm likely going to pause the billing cycle for next month so you won't be charged come february. in that scenario i'd be stopping work as soon as this post is up, resuming work on february 14th, the next billing cycle taking place at the start of march. i may need more time come then, but on that date i'll be posting an update either way to let you all know if the patreon will need to be on pause for another month or not.