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A Day In the Life

In the morning I'm always excited. Coffee, breakfast, and a new beginning feel probable and within my reach between the hours of 8 and 11 am. I answer some emails and take a couple of calls for interviews. I rest for five minutes to have a think. AH! Here comes the anxiety! WNYC on in the background... political monstrosities...plagues...murders... everything is burning...prioritizing the need to be informed over my need for sanity is a constant source of stress. Then there is frustration over financial burdens (everyone's got those, though...right?) It's scary  to have no idea how you're going to meet your basic hierarchy of needs every. single. day. I know you know. That shit's real real. Then the hunger...is it time for lunch yet? Maybe, yes. But it's something else too...desire, a controlled fire. I feel like a mad hunter. I go for a long run and I sweat out my dread. I happily skip to Trader Joes, having dispelled at least some kinetic energy. Around 5 pm it feels like it's time to think about thinking about relaxing. A stiff drink or three are in order. Have I accomplished anything today? Not really. 

The above is a pretty accurate depiction of a typical day in the life for me. When I'm on tour soon it'll all look so different, but for now, this is it. I released a new album called Silver Tongue couple of weeks ago. I know I'm getting ready to be on the road but I'm still just like...now what? Is anything I do amounting to anything of worth? Nothing feels like enough. Do you all feel this way? I'm happy, but I want more.  "If I only could/ I'd make a deal with God/And I'd get him to swap our places/I'd be running up that road/Be running up that hill with no problems..." Xx, Mackenzie 

A Day In the Life

Comments

You must take huge courage from others’ appreciation of your creative work. Don’t despair - the world over has its political, social and environmental miseries: UK, USA, Brazil, Israel, Hungary, Poland, India, Russia, China... the list seems depressingly endless, but there are glimmers of hope in Finland, Iceland, New Zealand, Spain and Ireland. Right thinking people - and clearly you are one of the many - must make their voices heard (as you do). Take strength from the love of those closest to you and of those whom you’ll never meet but who care deeply about your music. Looking forward to seeing your concert in Manchester. (Oh, and “Silver Tongue” is wonderful - intimate and enthralling.)

John Douglas Lipton

I love knowing that your life includes long runs.

Ryan Goebel

I can relate. I've fought anxiety my whole life. And feeling like nothing is ever enough at work. Gotta keep moving though! Three (or is it four now?) buck chuck at TJ is awesome and easy on the wallet. So I feel less guilty about that! I'm ordering your vinyl and buying my tickets for the show at the pinhook tomorrow as its payday! That decision feels very adequate though! Can't wait to give it a listen and see you live in Durham! Hope some of the anxiety abates! Your work is worth it! I own all of it but the latest album. <3

Christopher Rose

I relate more than you could ever know. Trying to make a career out of passion in this day in age is next to impossible. We've gotta keep trying though. You never know what the future holds or how fast things can change, for better or for worse. You are a big inspiration to me and I am happy you continue to fight for what you love! Btw, Hounds of Love just finished as I'm writing this...hope to see you on the tour!

Mitch Gettman

Have a blast on tour! it will surely be different that your daily routine, but a good kind of different, a different kind of thrill. P.S. did you know that Kate Bush still refers to this song by its original name, "Deal With God”?

Yifat


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