A K-pop Idol 60.5

"Wait a minute" Dr. Yeob snapped suddenly, causing Alex to jump from his chair. "If you two didn't know that Kim Hana wanted to be a woman all this time, for which reason you thought he had undergone that feminization process?”

Alex felt his heart stop for a moment. That was it. Dr. Yeob was suspecting something. And Choi Hyun's answer would just make him even more alarmed…

"We thought Kim Hana was doing it just to help our group... We weren't very close at the beginning, so we didn't know she really wanted to be a girl... But I suspect that Park Hara, with whom Kim Hana had a closer relationship, knew about it all this time..."

Dr. Yeob didn't say anything for a while. His expression was impassive so it was hard to know what he was thinking. And then, when the doctor finally reacted to that statement, Alex got very astonished. Whatever the feminized man was expecting Dr. Yeob to do, it was far from that – the man simply started to laugh so hard that in a short time he had tears in his eyes.

"Now this is something surprising!" he said, when he finally managed to control himself. “I'm sorry, ladies. I know this was unprofessional on my part, but I couldn't help it. There's no way someone would undergo such extreme surgical procedures just to help friends, and nobody could fake it so well for so long. I don't know how Kim Hana hid it from you, but since I met her it was very clear to me that she had always been a girl even though she was trapped in a male body. Very few times I met someone as feminine as her. Besides, of course, if what you've said were true, Kim Hana and you all would be in serious trouble.”

The human mind is something fascinating. After hearing everything the doctor said, Song Yeon and Choi Hyun began to rationalize that all this should be true, just so they didn't seem like silly people. Even though Alex was a very manly man when they first saw him, while he was playing with his former band in a nightclub in America, their minds began to create false dichotomies, adapting certain memories in order to confirm that theory presented so incisively. 

They began to "see" evidence that Alex, or Kim Hana, really had always been a girl stuck in a male body, thinking about certain events isolated from their original contexts. In addition, there was also the fact that now Kim Hana was looking, behaving and acting like a girl all the time, and, more important: Song Yeon and Choi Hyun really wanted to believe that this was true. They were very emotionally attached to Kim Hana, and didn't want her to go. If she were to be Alex again someday, even if theoretically she would still be the same person, this wouldn't be the same thing. In fact, it would be as if their friend had died. 

This way, after just a few moments, Song Yeon and Choi Hyun were completely convinced that Alex, deep down, had always been Kim Hana, and was just waiting for an opportunity to free her true self. It was now clear as the day. 

"You're right, doctor" Song Yeon said. "We were foolish because we didn't realize it before.”

"We're sorry, Kim Hana” Choi Hyun said. "All this time pretending to be a man must have been so hard for you..."

"So true" Song Yeon continued. "How a delicate flower like you could be a guy? But we promise that we'll always support you in your transition from now on." 

And then, the two girls hugged Alex again. This time, they were the ones who were crying. The feminized guy just didn't know what to do. On the one hand, he was feeling outraged by all he had heard. But on the other hand, his damn hormones were betraying him again: he was also feeling touched by that show of affection and companionship of his friends, and he now knew that they were really believing that he had always wanted to be a girl, and this was something very important to them. How the hell would he tell the truth later? I'll find a way, he told himself.

But there was more. The doctor's words had also had an impact on him, especially because he was in such a vulnerable state of mind. There's no way someone would undergo such extreme surgical procedures just to help friends… Nobody could fake it so well for so long… Since I met her it was very clear to me that she had always been a girl… Very few times I met someone as feminine as her…

Could Dr. Yeob be right? Perhaps Alex, even not aware of that, had always been meant to be a girl? Maybe he even wanted it subconsciously, and that was why he could act like a woman so naturally? No, this is absurd! He told himself. I'm a man! He screamed inwardly, But it was so hard to believe in it at that moment.

"Okay, ladies" Dr. yeob said. “Now that we've cleared it all up, I think it's time for me to finally explain what's happening with Kim Hana's body.”

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I'm sorry, sweeties, but I couldn't finish this chapter just yet. I know it must be looking like I'm putting off the revelation about Alex's issue on purpose, but what happens is that every time I sit down to write this chapter there is always something to be said before, and all this will be important for the future development of the story. 

But I promise that in the next post we will solve this matter! I hope I'm not tiring you all with all the sentimentality in this chapter. :-)