~ The Arcana: Julian Devorak X Listener SFW: Labels~ {Patreon Exclusive}

You know it might end anything you could possibly have with each other, but you need to tell him.

Contains: Confessions, Gender Ambiguous Listener, Bi/Pan Julian, Demisexual Julian, Talks About Gender and Sexuality, Getting Together, Feelings, Kissing, Petnames (My Love)

I knew I wanted to write about Julian being pretty much attracted to anyone of any gender expression, and it kind of turned into him talking about that and labels and being Demisexual and about how you don't need to label yourself if you don't want to, but you also can if it's suits you, while also confessing back to the Listener. I think it turned out sweet, and I pulled a lot from my own experiences with Demi  sexuality for the script. Hope you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Julian: There's something you wanted to tell me?

*pause*

*huffs softly*

That.......I......you like me.....I'm......I'm flattered I.......

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Wait.....wait.....what's wrong? Why do you look like you're about to run away crying?

*pause*

*chuckles softly*

Wait! Wait.....I apologize.....laughing was not the right response......I.....I'm not laughing at you......

I'm......

*deep breath*

I'm......attracted to pretty much anyone......regardless of their gender expression.......or what they may or may not have in their pants........

*pause*

Yes.....I'm serious.......

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Come....sit down....clearly you thought I was going to have a different reaction, so please......come here........let me explain.......

*shuffling*

Now.....please....take a moment to breathe.........unclench your jaw if it's clenched......and relax your shoulders......they're migrating to become one with your ears it seems.......

*long pause*

Now......let me explain again........the way someone identifies doesn't factor in to my attraction to them......it doesn't have any effect.....you understand?

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It's alright.....everything is going to be ok.......

Sometimes you set yourself up for failure before you've even gone through with something.......

*pause*

It's alright though.....I'm guilty of it as well.......

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As long as we're on the subject of attraction and such.......and......opening up and being honest about things.......

I.......will not be sexually attracted to a person unless I've formed an emotional or romantic bond with them first.......

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I'm more attracted to the person.....if that makes sense......

I mean I have been sexually attracted to people it's more......

Well......

It's not so much the....vessel in which someone resides. I mean, sure...I can recognize when I look at someone that they're beautiful or attractive........perhaps in the same way that one might think that a sunset is beautiful.....

*chuckles* That doesn't mean I want to whip my dick out every time I see a sunset, though......

It's more that........sexual feelings don't happen unless I've formed those bonds........it's a prerequisite...not a suggestion.......

*pause*

I'm telling you this because I wanted to......and I also feel like you needed someone to relate to in this moment.......

In being considered.......unconventional.......

You aren't, by the way......you are as perfectly normal as everyone else is.....despite what they might say.......

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Hmmmm.....there probably is some definition or scientific explanation as to why we are what we are.......and there was once upon a time where I researched everything I could get my hands on to see if I could find said answer.......

Not anymore........

For me....I don't need....a.....a definition....or.....a label for what I am.......

That period of time where I agonized over what I am or how I identify? It got old......very quickly.......

I'm simply me.......that's all I need to be.......and I'm content with that.

I'm comfortable with who I am......I don't need to scream it from the rooftops.....I'm not required to tell those to whom the information doesn't matter or is irrelevant. If someone else wants to shout out to the world who they're attracted......more power to them.....genuinely......

That's.....just not for me......I can just tell the people to whom it matters.......

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*lowly* If it wasn't clear.......you matter........

I wanted you to understand, so that we're on the same page. Just as you wanted me to understand........

If there's anything else I've learned throughout my life.....and especially knowing you......I need to be more communicative.....to those who are important.......

It's....difficult for me......but I'm trying my best.......

*pause*

sometimes that is all someone can do.....try their best......

Why don't we do that together,Моя любовь (Moya lyubov') {My Love}?

Let's try our best.......

*long pause*

*laughs* Of course! Stupid me, that entire long winded explanation and I wasn't even clear with my intentions.......

*lowly* May I kiss you?

*chuckles* It's because.....I love you too......

*soft kiss*

Моя любовь (Moya lyubov') {My Love}