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He just wants to turn his brain off for a while, and can you really blame him, when he's such a good boy while he's under?

Contains: Hurt/Comfort, Sub! Bucky, Bottom! Bucky, Dom/Sub Dynamic, Sub Space, Petting, Kissing, Dirty Talk, Begging, Cuddling, Praise Kink, Cowgirl Position, Missionary Position, Holding Down, Slightly Pain Kink, Mentions of Collaring, Coming Untouched, Come Eating, Mentioned Safeword (Stoplight System), Petname (Doll)

Sometimes Bucky just wants to be a good boy and how can I deny him that lol. Originally the way that I had related this to the theme of the month is the fact that the listener is making him ask for the things that he wants. I figured this was a form of self care and/or self honoring in him recognizing and actually asking for what he wants instead of just letting things happen (which he also likes don't get me wrong, he's not just going along with it to make the listener happy). The listener wants him to be direct and tell them the things that will make him happy, the things that will help him, which can be incredibly hard! So I felt that was tangentially connected to the theme lol. I hope you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Bucky: Hey uh—*clears throat*—Hey........

*pause*

I've uh.........to be honest Doll.....I've been better........

This week........s'not been a good one........

Lotta things......stuck in my head mostly.......

*pause*

Sometimes I.....don't know what to do with all the knowledge in there......the conflicts......

The instincts and information that automatically pop up.....the muscle memories.........

Knowing how much damage I could do and the several ways I could do it while just holding a butter knife in my fucking hand.....

*rubs hands over face and sighs*

*pause*

*chuckles bitterly*

You're not the first to ask.....no......

Now that my brain has time to heal......and......I've broken through their fucking brainwashing........I....remember everything.........

....Despite how much those bastards tried to fry my brain beyond recognition.......

Or maybe that's why they did it........

Because I remembered......I always remembered.........

*pause*

It.........it's like......I was blind......then I ate the fruit of knowledge in the Garden of Eden........and everything started to make sense......everything all came together.........and it was too much.......

I was aware of how naked I really was........

And sometimes it feels like no amount of hard work is ever going to make those things just.......go away.......

*pause*

Yeah, well........if you were in my head with me.....you'd see that just maybe there isn't enough good I have done or could do that would counteract all of the vile atrocious things I did........

*sighs*

I'm sorry you.......you didn't deserve that.......

*long pause*

I've been good........I've been evil........and there are times where I feel like......I could so easily slip into evil again without even thinking about it..........like......when you put on an old pair of boots after not wearing them for a while.......

*pause*

The thing is.....I don't feel remorse.......there are......almost no emotional attachments to those memories......

From where I am now.....I can think.....and look at those memories objectively.....and know that they are wrong and be horrified and haunted by them.......but remorse? It's hard to find......even on the best days........

It's.....terrifying.........

*pause*

I just......I want to forget, you know? And.......wanting to forget makes me feel.......terrible......how selfish is that?

*pause*

Sometimes.....the hard work I've done.....doesn't feel like it's enough.....

I want to forget the pain for a while.........I want to be taken care of and just.......just feel........I don't want to have to worry about analyzing every single thought.........

*long pause*

*weakly* I just want to be a good boy.........

Can I be your good boy?

*pause*

I know.....I know this won't fix everything.......but I—I always feel so.....good....when you take care of me.......

And I just.......

*choked up* .......please

*pause*

*shudders a breath*

Oh thank you.......fuck, thank you.......

*pause*

......Condition?

I have to.....ask for what I want?

C-can I.....just sit.......by your side......on the floor and......just......get into the mindset?

T-then I think it'll be easier......for me to ask.......

*pause*

*through a sigh* Oh thank you........

*shuffling*

May I.....lean against your leg?

*softly* Thank you.......

*long pause*

*breathy moan*

O-oh.......

N-no.....please.....don't stop........

Please.....pet my hair more......

It's nice......

*through a sigh* So nice..........

*long pause with soft breathing*

*a little dreamily* I.....can you......fuck me.....please?

*pause*

Please fuck me.....I'll be so good.....I swear........

I promise.....it's what I want........

Green.....green.....I'll say it a hundred times if you need me to..........

*long pause*

Y-yes.....I'll......I'll get naked and.....meet you......in the bedroom.......

*soft kiss*

*moans* Thank you........

*Fade out*

*Fade in*

Y-yes.....I'm feeling......so much better......

Thank you.......

*pause*

Green......as green as the stupid artificial grass that's in some sports stadiums now.........

*chuckles softly*

*moans softly*

Ah~ I'm....I'm hard cause.....I....I want you to fuck me s-so bad......

*swallows* Y-yes.....up on the bed now.......

*shifting*

*whines* No.....please........please....you told me to ask for w-what I want......

Please....I can't wait f-for you to prep me.......

*pause*

It's ok.......just.....if you just use enough lube.....I'll be ok.......

I....I want to be able to feel it........

I can take it.......

I swear.......I swear.....

And---oh~--if that changes I'll tell you.......I will......

So please......let me.....let me ride you......Oh~

Th-that way.....I can.......go at my pace.....for now?

*kiss* Thank you.....

*shuffling*

T-that.....that's perfect........

*shuddering breath*

Ah~

Oh the stretch......oh f-fuck~

All the way inside......need it.....inside.....

*hisses in a breath*

I'm fine.....I promise I'm fine.......

P-please.....let me.....

*moaning*

Oh~ Thank you....it's just.....oh it's just what I needed.....f-fuck~

*panting*

More than----more than alright......oh it's perfect.....

*keening moans*

Please......pull my hair.....hold me down.....make me go faster or slower......let me do anything.....

I'll do anything for you........

*whining pants and moans*

Oh....it's good........it's so good.......I love.....riding you.....oh~

*panting and moans*

I.....I won't......I won't touch my c-cock.......

*moans and groans*

Oh~ Hitting.....in all the right spots......oh, Doll~

*panting*

I.....*whimpers* t-the harder I ride you......t-the more my cock......bounces.....and—*swallows*—the more it hits against your stomach......

And it........even though it hurts a little......it's.....it's also so good.......

*panting*

S-see? See how much precum y-you're fucking out of me?

*moaning pants*

Ah~!

Fuck up.....into me.....more......please, please more.......

I want to engrave this......into my brain.....into my body.....so that all I have to do is think about you.....and everything will go all soft around the edges.......

God......y-you make me wanna be your good boy.....all the time.......

Just......sit next to you on the floor.....be nothing more than your Boy.........ready and willing to do whatever you asked.......

*whimpers* Anything.......

Even if it's just sit naked and rest against your leg as you work......I'd be—God....fuck—I'd love it.....I'd love it so much........

*wheezes a moan*

Ah~ A.....a collar.......s-so.....so everyone could see?

I........*whimpers*

*moaning and panting*

Please......please close....I......oh.....I need more......please......please give me more.......

Please......

I......I........

*whines* 

N-no.....don't stop....I'm sorry.....I'm sorry....I'll say it....I'll say it.....

Please....hold me down and fuck me......make me take it.......please fuck the come right out of me.....use my body.....however you want for pleasure.....but please just......hold me down.......I don't want to have to think.....I don't want to have to worry about being good......so if you just make me.......if you just make me do what you want.....I'll be good........

Please.......

*panting*

Green.....Green Green Green~ I swear......please

*moaning* 

*thumps on bed*

Oh, oh~ Thank you.....f-fuck~

*panting moans*

Hold my arms down.....against the bed.....make me take it.....please~

*Punched out panting, moans and groans*

Thank you~ Thank you~!

Oh....Oh I'm gonna come......I'm gonna come.....please.....please let me come.....

I've—I've been a good boy and I haven't t-touched my cock.....I'm so close......

Please say I can come....I—I want to be good!

*panting*

J-just take it.....and let it happen?

F-fuck~

Thank you.......thank Y-YOU~!

*Harsh moaning*

Ah-ah-ah-ah~!

Oh~ OH~!

*through a harsh moan* C-coming~!

*harsh panting*

*panting slows*

I.....I did.....I did come all over myself......

*pause*

W-what.....what would make you happy?

*swallows* If....I cleaned it up........with my mouth?

*pause*

*softly* W-will you.....feed it to me?

*moans*

T-thank you.......

*soft prolonged licking, sucking, and soft moaning*

Th-there......all....clean.....

*moans*

D-do you......is there.....anything else I can do for—*interrupted by listener touching his lips*

O-Okay...........

*pause*

*shaky sigh*

Oh.....it was good......so good......

*swallows softly*

C-cuddle?

*shuffling*

*Long breaths*

*hums softly*

Please.....can I just.....stay like this.....for a little while longer......with you......?

With you....everything's better......you help......so much.......

I don't think I could ever possibly describe just how much..........

*pause*

*A little dreamy* Ah....shucks, Doll.......how nice of you to say........

I bet you say that to all the people you play with........

*pause*

*whimpers* Only.....me?

Oh..........

So....I'm your only......good boy?

*breathy* Oh..........

*pause*

*dreamily* Yeah.......yeah that's.....that's......good to know.......

We're both a bit selfish.....I suppose......

But I.........*softly, like telling a secret* I wouldn't have it.....any other way.......

*pause*

Love you..........

*soft kiss*