feeling ugly today
Added 2024-05-15 18:42:26 +0000 UTCthe blues -> sad times
this song -> feeling ugly times
It's a wonderful day. Nice weather. I am quite notably cheerful ["chipper" even]. And yet - I do not like seeing my reflection today. These days [sadly] happen. I know some fuggin' hot people and even those [motherfuckers] have them [albeit far less frequently]
The blues are so great for feeling bummed the way hot soup is good for a cold. It feeds it with what it [thinks it] wants but also what helps it go away. So rarely is something good for you also so enjoyable [haha no no that's another lie we're told] [probably who can say I'm not a fuckin d-]
I hear the mocking tone in this song and it makes me feel comfy in my ugly for the day [or longer but hey one at a time]. Just like I hear the "Gods, I'm pathetic" in the blues and smile and nod and feel warmed by the company we miserables share.
I don't like meeting new people on days like this and I have to meet new people later which is annoying. They're single-use one-night friends tho so that helps but ugh. UGH, I SAY. whatever - guess I have to have a super fun day living my dreams without any added bonus princess energy. In the immortal words of Lady Summer, "I will survive"
Things like this used to ruin my days but being downgraded to "annoying" really is a win. You can't see me but I am giddy to get to work and play with these heartbeat mics tomorrow...
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I have Carrie's audio recorded and Amy's is next. I am really proud of Kintsugi and I think I want it to linger for another drop [possibly 2] but Carrie's will be the next one on Quinn.
Guess that means I'll just be spending a bit more time on here :)
Comments
Just got here and by now I'm sure you are flying high having played with the mics and been creative. Wanted to say that I love the idea of you holding back and pacing the releases (wow my quinnmind can't say anything that doesn't sound like a sexual innuendo now☺️). Sometimes the constant weekly flow of two huge loads (now really🙄) is not just too much but it means I can't savor the ones that really do move me. If I had created Kintsugi I would want to keep it on its pillowed pedestal for everyone to admire and partake.💜
Mare
2024-05-17 00:56:14 +0000 UTCHere's a listening challenge for Doc and Patients alike when you're feeling this way. Let Sam give you a little reminder of how beautiful you are. Gorgeous - X Ambassadors Naked - X Ambassadors
LadyTheGray
2024-05-16 13:24:49 +0000 UTCdr [Darling] terribly late to this one (it's been a garbage week and a half). i can hardly say anything that the lovely patients before me haven't said far more eloquently, however, you make us all feel like stunning queens and it takes one to know one sooooo. You're beautiful, your mind, your disembodied voice, your heart, your soul. Tell your Bitchy Brain* to go fuck a goat. Sending love and hugs 💜 *trademarked by Catherine
jaymzangel
2024-05-16 12:27:21 +0000 UTCThank you for being so open with us doc! Hope you’re feeling better today 💙
Cami
2024-05-16 12:26:41 +0000 UTCI’m sorry, 10lb7oz?! Daaaaaamn mama! *bows to the queen*
siesta_maven
2024-05-16 04:10:29 +0000 UTCI was just lying in bed and noticed my stretch marks across my stomach. They have been there for 23 years since my gigantic 10lb7oz child was in that belly. And damn, they look beautiful to me tonight. 💛
Heather
2024-05-16 02:46:43 +0000 UTCYou dear, sweet man. At the end of the day, we’re all human and we have flaws and bad days. Hopefully the good ones outnumber the bad. You have the ability to make us feel beautiful even when it starts out not feeling that way. I hope that the feeling goes away and that the music helps you to feel better. Kintsugi was an epic one, I will treasure it as one of my favorites. I can’t wait to hear what you have coming down the line for us.
Analise
2024-05-16 00:17:46 +0000 UTCBoy you’re just like me fr [sending hugs or high fives and overall good vibes]
Moira
2024-05-16 00:09:29 +0000 UTCI’ll let Emily take this one… Beauty — be not caused — It is — Chase it, and it ceases — Chase it not, and it abides — Overtake the Creases In the Meadow — when the Wind Runs his fingers thro’ it — Deity will see to it That you never do it — 💜💜💜
elang104
2024-05-16 00:00:03 +0000 UTCI absolutely hate the idea of you feeling [redacted]. It’s one I know well. If life was at all “fair” then you’d never ever feel that way again. I wish my words could impart the same feelings of desirability and worthiness that yours have for me.
Catherine
2024-05-15 23:17:40 +0000 UTCI hear you, I see you[figuratively]. I’m feeling the same lately💕
Kari Jo
2024-05-15 22:46:43 +0000 UTC
